Recovery
Chapter 1
Author's Note: This chapter includes references that covers the topic of suicide. Readers beware.
Doctors and nurses rushed around Lexi trying to save her life as she hoped that they would be unsuccessful. This was not the plan she had in mind as she drove her car off the cliff earlier that night, but she had been lazy. She hadn't checked for witnesses before she had attempted to take her own life. Someone had saw her and now she was paying dearly for her mistake. Why hadn't she looked? Why was she still alive when all she wanted was to be dead?
"Don't worry Lexi, You're gonna be okay." a nurse said smiling at her.
Lexi squeezed her eyes shut hoping this was merely limbo and they didn't just save her. But when a couple of hours went passed she found out that that wasn't the case when she woke up in a hospital bed with her mother looking down on her with a look of shame on her face. Of course she felt shame. It was the number one emotion Lexi always made her feel. But at least her mother could feel anything at all unlike Lexi who just felt this crushing pain all the time. She just wanted it to stop. Why hadn't it?
"Oh Lexi, What have you done?"
Lexi tried to sit up to answer her mother but was stopped short when she saw the restraints on her wrist keeping her from moving. What the hell was going on here?
"They put you on a seventy two hour hold until they were for sure you wouldn't try it again."
"Mom, I don't know what they told you happened, but I swear I'm fine. You don't have to do this. You can just take me home and we can go back to the way things normally are."
"I'm afraid that's not going to happen this time Lexi."
"What are you talking about?"
"The hospital is going to keep you for the night for observation, but I took it upon myself to call the place your grandmother suggested to me the first time this happened. I believed you when you said it was an accident before, but I'm not going to believe you anymore Lexi. You have a problem and we're going to try and help you with it."
"By abandoning me?"
"It's not abandoning you Lexi. I just can't help you anymore."
"Yes you can mom. Please don't do this. I promise I'll try better. Just please don't send me there."
Her mother grabbed her hand and squeezed it.
"This will be good for you Lexi. I know you don't see it now, but you will eventually."
And before Lexi could say anything her mother was gone.
