You Know What

It was my 16th birthday, and I'm lying in my bed,

thinking of what should have happened not what did happen.

I walked down stairs to get some breakfast and annoy Justin as I always did; I mean it's just so fun to mess with my brother. I felt a slight pain in my heart as the word ran through my head. I ignored it.

As I walked into our living room I noticed Justin sitting on the couch. Lucky for me his back was facing me and he didn't notice I had come down stairs. Or so I thought. I noticed a pillow right behind the couch; I walked over silently and picked it off the floor, and held it up in the air with both hands.

"Don't even think about it, Alex." He said nonchalantly.

I huffed, and then I remembered it was my birthday. I saw that he had gone back to reading and brought the pillow down on his head. He threw his book down and hopped over the couch. He chased after me.

I had managed to get in two more blows to his bare chest before he was able to catch me and bring me to the floor. He pinned me to the floor. I was on my stomach he was sitting lightly but steadily on my back as he leaned down so that his mouth was by the side of my face and whispered,

"I told you not to do it." I struggled.

Then it hit me. His breath smelt like mint, his bare chest against me made me feel safe. Every time I saw his sparkling blue eyes I wanted to melt.

It's just not right I thought to myself.

"Please, get off me." I begged lightly

"Alex are you okay?" I shrugged, trying not to blush. I was actually nice to him.

"Hey it's my birthday; I can do what I want. Now get off me before I have to bruise you to do it." I teased with a threat, that wouldn't happen…not anymore.

If I want him, I am going to have to be a bit nicer, I decided absent mindedly in my head. He stood up and heaved me to my feet gently.

He smiled and said "Happy birthday. And because it's your birthday you can have one free wish."

At the party……

I walked into my party which was being held at some ballroom my parents rented out downtown. I looked around and saw Harper dancing with her boyfriend Zeke. Although with the strobe lights and the other multi-colored bulbs flashing around it was hard to see my brother.

I turned and bumped into someone as I was about to head to the refreshments table.

"Hey, watch it!" I yelled over the music then looked up to notice that it was my brother. Justin.

As I looked him up and down my heart began to ache and tears began to fill my eyes. I turned and ran out with out saying a word to him. Why does he have my brother? I asked myself. I ran out of the double doors from the unoccupied lobby and into the humid July air. I sat on the bench right beside the door and pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face.

Like the nice sweet person he was, Justin was out and sitting beside me in moments.

"Alex, what's wrong?" he asked concern filling his voice.

"Nothing, it's just, just way to complicated." I mumbled through my tears.

He grabbed my face in both of his hands, only then was it that I realized he had moved down to the floor and on to his knees so he could talk to me.

When I was staring at his face, he dropped his hands from my face and spoke.

"Alex, you know you can tell me anything."

"Not this." I said firmly. I was not going to ruin our relationship over something so wrong.

Then out of the corner of my eyes I saw his flicker for a moment. Something I couldn't decipher.

He stood up and sat beside me once more, and put his arm over my shoulder and pulled me into his lap, and I cried even more. But at times like this I was happy he loved me. But I was also just so sad that he didn't know how much I really loved him.

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