Warning : ENDING SPOILER, messy writing, aaannngggssssttttttt.
Another angst produced from my brain who'd just seen the screenshot of the ending where Jowy waits alone at the Tenzan Pass. It was too heart-breaking for me ;_; I'd once thought that if we choose the ending where Riou doesn't go to the promised place, the reason is because either he's too angry with Jowy with all that has happened, or he thought he died in that crumbling castle. Either way, it's too cruel to let Jowy die alone while waiting for us (Riou). Quoting my friend, "He might be a jerk, but he doesn't deserve that."
I wrote this while listening to Ayumi Hamasaki's Together When in loop. Somehow, I found that a piece of the lyrics (the ones placed on center) fit for the both of them.
Disclaimer : I do not own Suikoden or the song.
I wanted to say "Thank you"
He waited. Waited with shallow breath, the rune eating him up from inside. He sat and waited like a faithful lover, like a parent waiting for his child, like he did when they were much younger.
The sun was setting, and he would come he waited. The sky was ablaze and somewhat beautifully heart-wrenching, fire and blood and traces of the day all blending in we promised.
"If we make it but somehow get separated, let's meet again in this spot."
He wanted to ask for forgiveness. He wanted to say "I'm sorry." He wanted to say that he regretted it. He wanted to say "I don't want to die."
He'll come He couldn't. Because he didn't regret it did he really, because he was ready to die was he really.
The sunset looked almost similar to the dawn or was it just him. A new beginning, an end of a journey he wouldn't be there to see it.
Riou would come, he just knew it. Riou would listen to his wish his last. Maybe he wouldn't be forgiven not 'maybe' anymore but Riou should remember the promise, and he would come. Because he was still, always, the Riou who had been was his friend.
I wanted to say "Thank you"
"I promise."
He'll come Riou would not leave him to die alone.
I couldn't say "Thank you"
"I understand."
He had never, ever, turned his back to his friends. Not any of them. Not when Hix believed that Tengaar was cursed by the unicorn. Not when Futch was in a wreck because Kent disappeared. Not when Clive said he wanted to look for Elza. Not when he could behead General Kiba and Klaus with only a word.
Not when Nanami was impaled by an arrow from Gorudo's men.
"If we make it but somehow get separated, let's meet again in this spot."
General Ridley almost died once. General Kiba and Nanami were both gone. Even then he never, even once, said "Jowy was my friend."
Nanami had said once, before the meeting in Muse. "Jowy isn't that kind of kid." He had thought, he is.
He is that kind of guy, but he is still my friend.
He sat through the meeting, the formalities, the paperwork. He saw the sun set through the stained glass of Jowston Meeting Hall.
I couldn't say "Thank you."
This was the best decision. This way, Annabelle and Mayor Grenmeiyer and General Kiba's death wouldn't be in vain. Neither would the death of so many too many soldiers who had fought just for this reason.
Neither would Nanami's death.
"I promise."
The Forgiver Sign was unlocked for one reason, and one reason only. I don't want to fight you he shouldn't be so soft to someone who had caused so many people's suffering, but the rune had fulfilled its purpose.
Because you have been, were, and are always my best friend Jowy would understand would he really; he might have foreseen this from long ago had he really. Jowy should be somewhere far away this time was he really, free and happy and was loved don't wait for me please.
I don't want to fight you
He'd said it over and over again and he had never really had any choice. But this time, he did have a chance to choose. This is for the best.
Because it's like "Goodbye forever"
and too sad.
