A/N: I am so sorry for not updating! I hope this makes things a little better! The next chapter of Emotionally Retarded should be out soon (I hope)! I lost a bunch of files and had to try to recover a lot of them =(. I hope this can help with the wait. GOMENASAI!
Naisei:
He aluminates like the sun, and blinds my vision. His blue eyes hide something within their watery depths. His tan skin feels soft beneath my touch.
Amazing.
Amazing is this creature I cradle in my arms, who snores lightly with half parted lips. Amazing it is, that one person, can be so many things. He is loud, obnoxious, and he talks too much. Yet, I see something much deeper than the front he holds up. He can be quiet, can be tranquil, can be placid. He frightens me like that.
The sun should shine.
Shine as it always has on the world. On me. Shine so that I may feel its warmth on my very skin. It terrifies me when I see the sun fade, and a grimace set on his mouth. Yet, when the smile is returned to its rightful place, I am once more at ease. The apocalypse has subsided.
But why?
Why am I drawn to such a person? Why am I not able to halt such feeling from over flowing within me? How is it that someone who is below my level, can defeat me so thoroughly and not know it yet? Unbelievable. He does not even seem to know how bendable I am to his will. How easily I could be manipulated if he so wished it. How pathetic I become around him.
I will not lie; and say I feel no comfort when I am with him.
He is my sun, my moon, my air, my soul, my life. Without him, I cannot be. Without him, my world can not rotate. Without him, everything is dark. Without him, my very life has no purpose. I need him. I have him. Only I can have the satisfaction of seeing his perfect smile being chaperoned by a smile. Only I can see the most secret places, and explore every crevice on his form. Only me.
Amazing it is that he can mold me so perfectly, with just one look from his watery blue eyes that hide so much within their watery depths.
