A love lost.
Hermione wept as she leant her head gently against the window. Folding her arms around her she hoisted herself on the window seat gathering her lilac blanket around her legs. It was another wet April day and things were getting to Hermione again. Even though it happened almost four years ago.
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It was the last week of her academic studies at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Exams were in place and Hermione was struggling in her transfiguration exam. Concentrating hard of her incantation she gratefully let out a sigh of relive as it succeeded.
Waiting for her outside the room was Harry potter, her boyfriend of nearly two years. Her stomach done that now familiar belly flop as she saw him leaning against the opposite wall all silent and handsome. Walking over she smiled more as he saw her and his face broke into that grin he only done for her.
"My last exam ever!" Hermione cheered as she wrapped her arms around his waist.
"How did it go?" Harry asked even though he knew it went well.
"It was ok I suppose but Im not sure about my pronunciation" Harry laughed as they started walking to the great hall for lunch.
"What?" Hermione asked
"Nothing but you always puzzle over the silliest things" Harry laughed. They made their way over to Ron who was sitting at the gryffindor with dean and Neville. Harry and Hermione sat down and joined in the conversation as they ate lunch.
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It was the night before they were due to leave Hogwarts and Hermione had a feeling that something was going on. Something she wouldn't like. Throughout the day Harry seemed to be extremely distant with her. Never starting conversations and only speaking when he was spoken to. Sitting in the common room reading a book Hermione was waiting until Harry had had his last game of quidditch with the gryffindor team. It wasn't until 9.30 that Harry entered long after the rest of the team had come in at 8. Putting her book down she expected Harry to come over to her but instead her gave her a sympathetic smile and headed for the boy's dormitories. Puzzled and worried Hermione headed over to Ron to ask if something was wrong with Harry.
"No I don't think so why?" Ron asked deeply indulged in his chess game with Seamus. Hermione didn't answer but instead made her way up to Harry's dormitory and knocked gently on the door. Not hearing an answer Hermione opened it gently to find Harry sitting at the base of his bed looking at his photograph album. Hermione recognised it as the one Hagrid had given him at the end of his first year.
"Harry?" Hermione said gently making her way over. "Are you ok?" Harry lifted his head to her and she noticed that there were tears running down his face silently. Hermione immediately made her way over and was about to put her arms around when he pulled back.
"No. Please don't." Harry said firmly. Now extremely worried and hurt Hermione questioned him more about what was wrong.
"There's something I have to tell you Hermione" Harry finally said breaking his silence. "I've known about this for nearly a year now but I was always to frightened to tell you. I didn't want to loose you."
"Harry what on earth is it?" Hermione said feeling slightly angry and impatient at him.
"I can't see you any more after tomorrow." Harry replied with a tone of hurt in his voice.
"Wh… what do you mean? Why?" Hermione said shell-shocked.
"I've been recruited as an auror for the ministry. I start my training on Monday. They said it would be best if I stopped any relationships now in case anything happens to me. They said it would be best for anyone involved" harry said firmly explaining himself. He didn't want to do this.
"So you're going to leave me forever? That's it? Just like that? Your just dropping me as if Im nothing to you!" Hermione said now totally outraged "why didn't you say anything before? We could have made our time special! Why do you have to do this to me?!."
"Hermione please understand I don't want to hurt you. I love you. I don't want to dot his but I have to, they need me." Harry said walking towards Hermione.
"No. Don't." Hermione said as Harry went to touch her. "We have to end this remember. I… I can't believe this." Hermione said as she began to cry. "I… love you Harry. Please remember me."
"Hermione…" Harry called out as she ran out of the room crying heavily into her hands.
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And that was the last time Hermione spoken to Harry. she saw him the next day of course but couldn't bare to talk to him feeling she would just make it worse for Harry and herself. After Hogwarts she enrolled her self into a muggle college to start anew. Now she had lived by herself for nearly four years and she missed him dearly. Missed him more than anything in the world.
Hermione sobbed harder as these memories and more came back to her.
"Where are you?" she asked to her lonely house through her anguish.
