Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam wing or any of the characters. This song is by 98* I do not own it or them. I wrote this story a long time ago but decided it needed some revision hope it's better now.
If she knew
'Man I'm such an idiot I've been driving around the city for about 45 minutes and all I have been doing is thinking about how stupid I am" Heero just didn't know what to do any more. Hell he hasn't known what to do since he meet her. He thought once she was gone he be able to think about other things besides her. Oh, God was he ever wrong. All he can ever think of is her. Even when he's sleeping he's thinking of her; thinking about being with her. "I can't believe I let he go, Duo's right I am an ass"
~flash back to yesterday morning~
"bye Miss Relena we'll miss you" Quatre said in his normal cherry tone even though he was just as sad as the rest. All the Gundam pilots decided they would show up to say good-bye to Relena and wish her good luck after she told them she was going to move back to Earth.
"I've told you before Quatre, just call me Relena, no Miss needed. I'll miss you too," She said back to him as she gave him a gentle hug.
" We'll all miss you Relena ... won't we Heero" Duo asked the dark haired pilot at the same time giving him a jab in the side. "Hn" was the only reply he gave before leaving.
"Maybe not all of you Duo" Relena said sadly.
" He'll come around Relena" Trowa said trying to cheer up the depressed princess.
"Maybe Trowa but I don't know how much longer I can wait. Every day that I see him and he barely acknowledges me, breaks my heart a little more. Leaving is all I can try to do to ease the pain," at this point Relena was near tears. "Good-bye everyone." With that, she got into her car and drove off to the airport.
~*~*~*~
Heero was up in his room working on his laptop (again), when suddenly Duo came bursting in.
"Duo go away I'm" Heero started before he was cut off.
"An ass ...that's what you are. That girl really loves you and you just blow her off. I know you like her ... hell you lov..." Duo ranted at him until Heero exploded.
"Shut up Duo! Don't even say it. I have no feeling for Rele...." Heero tried to say before Duo cut in again
"The hell you don't. I see the way you look at her every time she walks into the room. I know that's the reason you always save her. If she died, I don't think you could bare it that's why you always put yourself in charge of her safty. You don't trust anyone but you to take care of her," Duo yelled at Heero.
"Duo it's my job to protect her. She's an important political figure for keeping peace, that's all" Heero interrupted him again.
"Yeah and did anyone ask you to protect her. The Preventers have tons of quallifed people to handle it. So why are you in charge of keeping her safe ... Because you volunteered to do it. The way treat her is just an act because you don't want anyone to know that you do care about her. Well congratulation it worked...if fact it worked so well that she left to go back to Earth. It worked so well you can't even tell that your in love with her" With that said Duo marched out of the room, slamming the door behind him. With Duo gone, it left Heero alone to ponder over his thoughts.
~End flashback~
As Heero drove around town, he kept thinking about all the little 'what if's' in his head. What if he told her? What if she had stayed? What if he never saw her again? What if she gave up on him for good? What if she found some one else?
God what would he give; just to go back to when she was here. To say he was sorry and that he did love her. He just didn't see it; at least not until Duo shoved it in his face.
Not to mention Duo locked him out of the house this morning when he went to get the paper because he though Heero needed some more time to think and he wouldn't get it cooped up in his room.
All Duo really said was "I'm was just giving you time to think ... whether ya liked it or not."
Heero could have gotten back in the house if he wanted to but he decied Duo was right, for once. That's how he wound up driving around the city with no place to really go. He turned on the radio wanting some music to help ease his thoughts. He had to get his mind off what happened but Fate had other things in mind. Fate didn't want Heero to think of anything but Relena, what happened, and what could have happened.
*if she only knew
what I knew but couldn't say
if she could just see
the part of me that I hid away*
Heero almost changed the station because of the songs hunting words. 'I wish I told her how much I loved her. I wish it before it was too late. Maybe it's better this way; I mean if she knew about all the things I've done, the people I killed, she would be repulsed by me.' He couldn't stop all the thoughts that were going through his head now.
*If I could just hold her in my arms again
and just say I love you
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew*
Heero feel the song just fitted what was going on. 'I wish I had just said, I love you Relena.'
*If she could just feel
what I feel here in my heart
she'd know it was real
pure and true right from the start
but I'm just a man who didn't understand
what she was going through
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew*
'I just didn't understand what I was feeling. I'd never been loved before, never loved a person before. They trained me to have no emotions. A soldier didn't need them. Except I'm not a solider anymore I don't need to hide how I feel. I can be free to love and to show that love'
*and how, how did I let her get away
'cause love, love is so easy to feel
but the hardest thing to say
if she could just see
what I see when I close my eyes
all that I dream*
Thinking back to his dreams, he realized that in every one of his dreams there was Relena. His entire dreams were of a future with Relena. His heart was trying to show him what he wanted but he was too stubborn to listen.
*Surely she would realize
but like a fool I waited much too long
to let her know the truth
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew, *
'Damn it, how could I have been so stupid to let her go with out tell her. I can't believe I just stood there watching her leave didn't even try to do a thing about it. God how it must have hurt her to see me walk away with little more than a shrug'
*Tell me, tell me how,
How did I let her get away (tell me)
cause I guess that love,
Love is so easy to fell
but the hardest thing to say
If she only knew
what I knew but couldn't say
if she could just see
the part of me that I hid away
if I could just hold her in my arms again
and just say I love you
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew, if she only knew*
'I have to do something about this. I can't just ... it's... I mean… oh hell I love her so much I have to find a way to show her that I love her and want her back. Even if she wont have me anymore, I need to tell her I love her ' Heero thought to himself.
Just as the song finished, he pulled up to the house where he and the other pilots have been staying. He hopped out of the car and raced up the walkway to pound on the door.
"Duo let me in, I don't have time to waste picking the lock. NOW DUO!! I need to hurry and I don't feel like replacing the door if I break it down" Heero said as he continued to slam his fist on the door.
"Well, well, well did your brain start working again?" Duo said sarcastically as he opened the door.
" Shut up Duo I need some help" Heero said as he walked into the living room. Duo fallowed him and replied with a quick, "you got it buddy"
"Get the guys and come up to my room" Heero shouted on his way up stairs.
"Soo it looks like our little plan is working" A smooth rich voice stated from his point in the kitchen doorway.
"Aaaaahh… huh? God Trowa don't sneak up like that" Duo said while cluching his hand to his chest.
"Oh you know he didn't mean too Duo" Quatre said as he came up behind Trowa.
"Yeah sure Quatre whatever" Duo said unconvinced.
"What are you complaining about now Maxwell" Wufei said as he came in from the backyard.
"Oh nothing Wu-man" Duo said casually.
"Don't call me that Maxwell" Wufei yelled.
"Don't call me Maxwell" Duo replied.
" both of you stop we need to move on to part b of our plan" Quatre stated calmly, being as used to these fights as he was.
"Yeah Quatre's right. I can't believe how well that song we requested worked, I just glad the station didn't mind playing it for an hour" Trowa said with a smile.
"Well we better go up stairs and 'help' Heero" and with that, the four pilots went upstairs to 'help' their friend.
To be continued.............
All right, there it is revamped and ready to go I hope this is a better version. I didn't really change much. But I fixed the capitulation problem and made some things make better since by rephrasing things. I hope you all like this better. It was also under my old pen name Angel of serenity, but I guess you can tell I changed my name.
Obsidian Hearts
If she knew
'Man I'm such an idiot I've been driving around the city for about 45 minutes and all I have been doing is thinking about how stupid I am" Heero just didn't know what to do any more. Hell he hasn't known what to do since he meet her. He thought once she was gone he be able to think about other things besides her. Oh, God was he ever wrong. All he can ever think of is her. Even when he's sleeping he's thinking of her; thinking about being with her. "I can't believe I let he go, Duo's right I am an ass"
~flash back to yesterday morning~
"bye Miss Relena we'll miss you" Quatre said in his normal cherry tone even though he was just as sad as the rest. All the Gundam pilots decided they would show up to say good-bye to Relena and wish her good luck after she told them she was going to move back to Earth.
"I've told you before Quatre, just call me Relena, no Miss needed. I'll miss you too," She said back to him as she gave him a gentle hug.
" We'll all miss you Relena ... won't we Heero" Duo asked the dark haired pilot at the same time giving him a jab in the side. "Hn" was the only reply he gave before leaving.
"Maybe not all of you Duo" Relena said sadly.
" He'll come around Relena" Trowa said trying to cheer up the depressed princess.
"Maybe Trowa but I don't know how much longer I can wait. Every day that I see him and he barely acknowledges me, breaks my heart a little more. Leaving is all I can try to do to ease the pain," at this point Relena was near tears. "Good-bye everyone." With that, she got into her car and drove off to the airport.
~*~*~*~
Heero was up in his room working on his laptop (again), when suddenly Duo came bursting in.
"Duo go away I'm" Heero started before he was cut off.
"An ass ...that's what you are. That girl really loves you and you just blow her off. I know you like her ... hell you lov..." Duo ranted at him until Heero exploded.
"Shut up Duo! Don't even say it. I have no feeling for Rele...." Heero tried to say before Duo cut in again
"The hell you don't. I see the way you look at her every time she walks into the room. I know that's the reason you always save her. If she died, I don't think you could bare it that's why you always put yourself in charge of her safty. You don't trust anyone but you to take care of her," Duo yelled at Heero.
"Duo it's my job to protect her. She's an important political figure for keeping peace, that's all" Heero interrupted him again.
"Yeah and did anyone ask you to protect her. The Preventers have tons of quallifed people to handle it. So why are you in charge of keeping her safe ... Because you volunteered to do it. The way treat her is just an act because you don't want anyone to know that you do care about her. Well congratulation it worked...if fact it worked so well that she left to go back to Earth. It worked so well you can't even tell that your in love with her" With that said Duo marched out of the room, slamming the door behind him. With Duo gone, it left Heero alone to ponder over his thoughts.
~End flashback~
As Heero drove around town, he kept thinking about all the little 'what if's' in his head. What if he told her? What if she had stayed? What if he never saw her again? What if she gave up on him for good? What if she found some one else?
God what would he give; just to go back to when she was here. To say he was sorry and that he did love her. He just didn't see it; at least not until Duo shoved it in his face.
Not to mention Duo locked him out of the house this morning when he went to get the paper because he though Heero needed some more time to think and he wouldn't get it cooped up in his room.
All Duo really said was "I'm was just giving you time to think ... whether ya liked it or not."
Heero could have gotten back in the house if he wanted to but he decied Duo was right, for once. That's how he wound up driving around the city with no place to really go. He turned on the radio wanting some music to help ease his thoughts. He had to get his mind off what happened but Fate had other things in mind. Fate didn't want Heero to think of anything but Relena, what happened, and what could have happened.
*if she only knew
what I knew but couldn't say
if she could just see
the part of me that I hid away*
Heero almost changed the station because of the songs hunting words. 'I wish I told her how much I loved her. I wish it before it was too late. Maybe it's better this way; I mean if she knew about all the things I've done, the people I killed, she would be repulsed by me.' He couldn't stop all the thoughts that were going through his head now.
*If I could just hold her in my arms again
and just say I love you
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew*
Heero feel the song just fitted what was going on. 'I wish I had just said, I love you Relena.'
*If she could just feel
what I feel here in my heart
she'd know it was real
pure and true right from the start
but I'm just a man who didn't understand
what she was going through
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew*
'I just didn't understand what I was feeling. I'd never been loved before, never loved a person before. They trained me to have no emotions. A soldier didn't need them. Except I'm not a solider anymore I don't need to hide how I feel. I can be free to love and to show that love'
*and how, how did I let her get away
'cause love, love is so easy to feel
but the hardest thing to say
if she could just see
what I see when I close my eyes
all that I dream*
Thinking back to his dreams, he realized that in every one of his dreams there was Relena. His entire dreams were of a future with Relena. His heart was trying to show him what he wanted but he was too stubborn to listen.
*Surely she would realize
but like a fool I waited much too long
to let her know the truth
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew, *
'Damn it, how could I have been so stupid to let her go with out tell her. I can't believe I just stood there watching her leave didn't even try to do a thing about it. God how it must have hurt her to see me walk away with little more than a shrug'
*Tell me, tell me how,
How did I let her get away (tell me)
cause I guess that love,
Love is so easy to fell
but the hardest thing to say
If she only knew
what I knew but couldn't say
if she could just see
the part of me that I hid away
if I could just hold her in my arms again
and just say I love you
but she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
if she only knew, if she only knew*
'I have to do something about this. I can't just ... it's... I mean… oh hell I love her so much I have to find a way to show her that I love her and want her back. Even if she wont have me anymore, I need to tell her I love her ' Heero thought to himself.
Just as the song finished, he pulled up to the house where he and the other pilots have been staying. He hopped out of the car and raced up the walkway to pound on the door.
"Duo let me in, I don't have time to waste picking the lock. NOW DUO!! I need to hurry and I don't feel like replacing the door if I break it down" Heero said as he continued to slam his fist on the door.
"Well, well, well did your brain start working again?" Duo said sarcastically as he opened the door.
" Shut up Duo I need some help" Heero said as he walked into the living room. Duo fallowed him and replied with a quick, "you got it buddy"
"Get the guys and come up to my room" Heero shouted on his way up stairs.
"Soo it looks like our little plan is working" A smooth rich voice stated from his point in the kitchen doorway.
"Aaaaahh… huh? God Trowa don't sneak up like that" Duo said while cluching his hand to his chest.
"Oh you know he didn't mean too Duo" Quatre said as he came up behind Trowa.
"Yeah sure Quatre whatever" Duo said unconvinced.
"What are you complaining about now Maxwell" Wufei said as he came in from the backyard.
"Oh nothing Wu-man" Duo said casually.
"Don't call me that Maxwell" Wufei yelled.
"Don't call me Maxwell" Duo replied.
" both of you stop we need to move on to part b of our plan" Quatre stated calmly, being as used to these fights as he was.
"Yeah Quatre's right. I can't believe how well that song we requested worked, I just glad the station didn't mind playing it for an hour" Trowa said with a smile.
"Well we better go up stairs and 'help' Heero" and with that, the four pilots went upstairs to 'help' their friend.
To be continued.............
All right, there it is revamped and ready to go I hope this is a better version. I didn't really change much. But I fixed the capitulation problem and made some things make better since by rephrasing things. I hope you all like this better. It was also under my old pen name Angel of serenity, but I guess you can tell I changed my name.
Obsidian Hearts
