What I've Done
Xander wanted to clear his slate. It didn't matter how much he lied to himself or tried to convince him self otherwise things would never be the same, he'd messed up big time with Faith, with the Scoobys. Things would never be the same again. Faith would never love him ever again. Love? Every time he heard that word it cut through him like a knife, like Faiths knife.
Xander stared at the floor as he walked, trying to clear his head. He didn't even see his attacker as a knife stabbed him. As he lay on the floor, bleeding to his death it finally made sense.
Life is nothing without Faith
