Hating You Is The Hardest Thing To Do But You Know I Just Have To.

She stared at a pink blade she's currently holding. Tears roll down her cheeks. Pain, betrayal, sadness, nothingness are painted at her small beautiful face. She slowly pulled out one of her drawer and pulled out a pink diary, tore a piece of paper with words already scribbled on it and put it in her pocket…….

"All the things that you've said were all lie. You never even love me; you shouldn't have said those three words." Sakuno murmured between lonely sobs. Before dashing out of her room.

You pledged your fake feelings to me at a stormy night. You didn't even court me, but then the idiotic side of me said yes. And that's what I regret for. To tell you the truth saying yes to you is the worst decision I've ever made in my whole life.

When I said yes, we started going out. We often go in Kawamura-senpai's sushi bar. I knew what you're trying to do then, I know you just want to show your friends that you're not a gay and I knew you're not and you know you're not. It's really funny thinking that even though you keep on pretending you don't care about what they think 'bout you, deep inside you care. And what's more fun is the idea of me letting you, to use me. But what can I do I'm so stupid to care.

The relationship we were in managed to succeed a month. We celebrated our monthsary in a really cheap hotel. I knew you didn't want to do it. And I didn't want to do it too. But being a fool you are you still insisted to do it. And I said fine. You were just teased by Momo-senpai back then, but you listened. And I just listened to you too. We did that and I really feel bad doing that without bless of you know. But what can I do… I'm blinded by your love. Blinded by a love that shouldn't really be called love.

Anyways I'll end all of those shits right now, right here. But before I do this I just want you to know that I'm two months pregnant. And that two months will always stay two months. Don't be too guilty about it. 'Cause I knew you're not.

P.S. Just want you to know that even though I really hate you, I still love you. Well obviously hating someone you love so much is the hardest thing to do…. But you know… for someone who hate someone who loves him at the same time.. hating is a must do.

Love and Grudge,

Ryuzaki.

Sakuno called for a taxi and headed to a hotel.

"Room for one please." Sakuno said at the receptionist.

"What floor do you want to be in ma'am?" The receptionist asked.

"What's available?" Sakuno asked back.

"Almost all of our rooms are available but if you want a nice view of a small temple shrine you should accommodate floor 14 room 25." The receptionist answered with a smile.

"Then it's floor 14 room 25." Sakuno answered back.

After she got the keys she immediately went for her room. She looked for her veranda and smiled at the view Echizen will surely see her here. Sakuno immediately dialed Ryoma's phone.

"Moshi moshi?" Ryoma lazily asked.

"Sakuno desu." Sakuno answered. "Please look out, out your window." Sakuno said.

"Why?" Ryoma asked nonchalantly.

"Just do it!" Sakuno ordered.

Sakuno looked out her veranda and just in time Ryoma looked out his window too.

Sakuno jumped out.

And as she slowly falls down…

She shouted words that Ryoma will surely never forget.

"I really hate you Ryoma, But I'm too idiot that I still love you……..!

And thus, Sakuno died….

END

A/N: Isn't it a crap?

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