A/N: Hi, I'm a first time fanfic poster so I apologize if I forget to say something. This is AU and will be Danny/Lindsay eventually even though he doesn't show up just yet. The idea for this story came from a Sarah Dessen book called Just Listen. The only characters that aren't mine are Lindsay and Danny. I made up relatives and their names as well as teachers and friends. All spelling, grammar and tense mistakes are my own.

Just a warning: There is mentions of rape and self-harm.

It was just another ordinary July summer day, but Lindsay Monroe had no clue how much her life would change that ordinary summer night. Lindsay was invited to an exclusive high school senior's party with her best friend Madison Shay. It was actually Madison who was invited but she was told she could bring a friend so that's how Lindsay was invited.

Madison was popular and knew all the right people; Lindsay was quiet, smart and kept to her studies. Lindsay and Madison went to an elite private school in New York City and were going into their sophomore year. They had met in class their freshman year when Madison and Lindsay were partnered in their science class. It was Madison who had made all the friends while Lindsay was friends by association.

While Lindsay was only 5'3", average weight but on the thin side with chestnut wavy hair just longer than her shoulders with sweet eyes and a young face, Madison was 5'7", thin with black straight hair down to her mid back and striking blue eyes with a sharp face. Boys seemed to gravitate towards Madison which is how she was often invited to parties. It also helped that she was dating the soon to be senior football star, Jason.

Lindsay's parents would never let her go to a party so she told them she was sleeping at Madison's house that night. Lindsay parents were very wealthy, living in a penthouse apartment having made their money years early when they still lived in Montana. They had high hopes for their only daughter Lindsay and constantly pushed her to only get straight A's.

On the other hand, Madison's parents were pretty young and tended to be more of a best friend to their daughter than parents so they let her have fun. They had both come from wealthy families and had rebelled, getting married young and having a kid young. In the end, her father had gone back to his family business which allowed them to live a lavish lifestyle. They didn't want to raise Madison in the strict form that they were raised so they were very lenient.

After getting ready at Madison's apartment, Lindsay and Madison headed to the party. It was at Steve's town house whose parents went to Europe for the summer leaving Steve and his older sister with the place. When they got to the party, Madison grabbed Lindsay's hand and said, "Follow me," so Lindsay followed as Madison led Lindsay through the crowd. It started off just fine; Lindsay followed Madison around for a while, taking a beer when it was handed to her. She had a few more and somewhere along the way she lost Madison. Lindsay decided she needed to get out of the crowd; she was starting to feel a little dizzy so she went into one of the rooms.

The lights were out so Lindsay tried to steady herself by leaning against the wall when all of a sudden she heard someone come in. The person got really close and said "shhh, it's just me Lindsay." Immediately, Lindsay knew it was Jason. He must have seen her go into the room and followed her. She had heard rumors that he eyed other girls possibly had cheated on Madison but didn't know what to believe until that night. She could make out his eyes in the dark; they were only inches from hers. The look on his eyes told her she was in trouble but she had had too much to drink so she couldn't think straight.

He pushed up against her and started kissing her with ferocity. She tried to push him off but her brain was working slower than normal. His hands started to move all over her until it got down to her skirt which he started to push up. She tried with more fervor to push him away but he was a football player and clearly so much stronger than her. He pushed her underwear aside and stuck one finger, than another into her. He was about to add another when the door to the room opened again and the lights went on. Jason jumped back and Lindsay tried to straighten herself out. When she looked to the door she saw Madison looking back at her first with confusion written on her face, then realization and then anger.

"What's going on?" Madison asked Jason.

"What are you talking about?" He asked feigning innocence.

"You know what I'm talking about!" She said more forcefully as she came closer. "Her!" She said as she pointed at Lindsay.

"Oh, she came onto me. She tried to seduce me but I told her I only had eyes for you. She wouldn't take no for an answer," he lied.

Lindsay could see Madison trying to decide who to believe and while she knew she should say something, try and tell Madison what had happened, she couldn't bring herself to talk. Lindsay couldn't believe what had almost happened and the alcohol induced fog she was in wouldn't let her think straight. Madison finally turned to Lindsay and her face turned hard. "How could you go after my boyfriend?" Madison hissed.

Lindsay tried to open her mouth to say something but her mouth was dry and nothing came out. "Slut," Madison spat.

"Slut," Jason agreed.

The sound of his voice again snapped Lindsay out of her trance and she pushed passed them. She didn't know what to do, she couldn't think straight. She found herself at a phone in the hallway calling 911 before she could stop herself. She was hyperventilating by the time someone picked up. "911, what's your emergency," the operator said.

"I'm at a party; I was just…some one just…" Lindsay couldn't say the words.

"Hello," the operator asked after a few moments of silence. Lindsay couldn't find her voice to respond. "We have your address and we're sending some one over now," the operator concluded.

Lindsay couldn't process what was going on, she just let the phone drop. Someone picked up in time to hear the operator say that the police were on their way. "You called the police?!" Some one yelled. More people started to look at her and get angry and panic. She could hear people passing it around, saying that Lindsay Monroe had called the cops. There was a lot of movement and a lot of confusion and some how in all that, Lindsay was able to get out of the town house before the cops came.

Lindsay ran as far away as she could before she slowed down to a walk. Her mind was whirring and she couldn't get his voice out of her head, "shhh, it's just me Lindsay." Her stomach hurt and she could feel him pushing his fingers inside her; she felt something coming up in her throat so she went to some bushes and threw up whatever was in her stomach.

She didn't know what to do, she couldn't go back to Madison's tonight and her parents weren't expecting her home. She was lucky enough that she brought her keys, wallet and phone with her and hadn't left them at Madison's. Lindsay decided to go home and just tell her parents that Madison and she were dressing up and then got into a fight so she decided to go home. She only hoped that they didn't smell the alcohol on her breath.

Lindsay made it home and up to her room without running into her parents which was a relief. She threw up again and then took a shower, brushed her teeth and cried herself to sleep. In the morning, she told her parents the prepared story and they believed her.

For the rest of the summer Lindsay's parents decided she should work at her dad's law firm. She did what she was told day to day but with no enthusiasm, she lost some spark that she used to have.

Before this summer Lindsay was always stressed and to relieve some of that stress she would cut once in a while. It was something she found that would relieve the pressure and panic she felt and it helped. She would hide the cuts with bracelets and wrist cuffs. After her encounter with Jason, the cutting became more prevalent.

When it came to Madison and other people from school, she found herself getting prank calls and IM's calling her a slut or a bitch or a whore. It looked like Madison had also told everyone about how she "seduced" Jason. Lindsay was dreading the beginning of the school year but it was getting closer and closer until it was finally upon her.


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