If you're reading this

I know the song is more suited for a soldier but I couldn't help myself. I made some lyric changes to suit the situation. The song is still not mine and neither are the characters. Sorry that it's so short.

Rated T for death. There is a happy ending I promise.


Penelope was sitting on the edge of her bed waiting for news of Derek. Spencer came walking and she smiled. He shook his head. The universal sign of "No he's not okay." Reid handed her a letter in an unmarked envelope. "He said to give this to you if a case ever went wrong. He wrote it right after you guys found out the sex of the baby. He said it made it all the more real." Garcia nodded and read the letter.

Baby Girl,

If you're reading this, my Mama's sitting there

Looks like I only got a one way ticket over here

And War was just a game we played when we were kids

So now I am laying down my gun, I am handing in my badge

I'm up here with God and we're both watching over you.

Penelope's tears flowed down her face. Her Hot Stuff blown away by some psycho terrorist, literally. "It was a car bomb." Reid said. "They found an African American male, late 30's. No positive identification could be made…" "But who else could it be. It fits the description and it was his BAU suburban." Penelope said. Derek's mom came over and put her arms around Penelope as she continued to read.

Lay me down in that open out on the edge of town

Know my soul is where my mama always prayed that it would go

If you're reading this I'm already home

If you're reading this halfway around the world

I won't be there to see the birth of our little girl

I hope she looks like you. I hope she fights like me.

Stands up for the innocent and the weak

So I'm laying down my gun, handing in my badge

Tell Dad I don't regret that I followed in his shoes.

Penelope laid her hand on her abdomen. She could picture the little life growing inside her. Carmel skin, her green eyes, his black hair. Her name is going be Alicia. She was due any day now. Penelope once again fought to gain control of her emotions.

Lay me down in that open field out on the edge of town

Know my soul is where my Mama always prayed that it would go.

If you're reading this I'm already home.

If you're reading this there's going to come a day

When you move on and fine someone else and that's ok

Just remember this; I'm in a better place

Where detectives live in peace and angels sing Amazing Grace.

NO! It's not okay! She screamed to herself. It would never be okay without him. Everyone is telling her to find a new normal. She didn't want a new normal, she wanted the old one. She didn't want to move on, she wanted Derek.

Lay me down in that open field out on the edge of town

Know my soul is where my Mama always prayed that it would go.

If you're reading this, If you're reading this, I'm already home.

She finished the letter and laid her head down on her pillow and cried. She cried so hard her stomach hurt. Oh wait. That wasn't the side splitting pain like crying would bring. Just then her water broke and she screamed for JJ and Emily. Soon they were in the Hospital and she was cursing and screaming for an epidural.

"We can't give you one yet." The doctor said. "But there is a man in the waiting room claiming to be your fiancée."

"Tell him my fiancée died." She said quietly. The doctor nodded and left her to the pain. Soon there was a commotion in the hallway and the door to her room flew open.

Penelope screamed. She got out of bed and limped to him. "Good morning, princess." Derek said.

"I'll show you a good morning." And she did. Alicia Raquel Morgan. 7lbs 5 oz. Carmel Skin, thick black hair, and beautiful green eyes."