*Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own any characters pertaining to the shows "Angel" or "Buffy"

I watched him from the shadows which engulfed my body, leaving me unseen to all. He had so much confidence in his stride, so much strength. He turned his head, looking for his next victim. I traced his well-defined jaw with my eyes, wishing it could be my hand doing so instead. I knew that would never be so, couldn't be so. He could never love me, no one could. Who would want someone that looked like a child?

He leaned casually against a wall and studied the passerbyers. What was it that made me like him? I should have hated him. He was ruthless and evil. Yet there was something I couldn't quite place. Was it the fact that he was my "forbidden fruit", off-limits to me? I knew I could never have him.

I watched on as Drucilla approached him and adoration filled his crisp blue eyes. I envied her. I wanted so bad to trade places with her, to be in a woman's body, to know the feeling of having someone passionately in love with me. He whispered something in her ear and she smiled. Did she know how good she had it?

The two of them turned and started walking away with their arms about each other.

"Oh William, if only you knew," I sadly thought to myself as I turned and slipped further into the shadows, becoming consumed by the darkness.