××Warning: Yaoi, gore, swearing

Trigger Warning: Mentions of rape!

•Anime: Gravitation

© to Maki Murakami××

Have you ever thought that life would get better if you were happy? Like you could make the world happy just by smiling? I used to think like that. And then I met Eiri Yuki.

Yuki was your typical "tall, dark and handsome" kind of guy. Blonde hair, gold eyes...for a Japanese boy, he looked American. He had a short temper and was rather cold...he had a dark secret, too. He told me about it...I could never forget it...

~Yuki held up a small picture of him as a kid, and another, older male. "It might not be much of a consolation prize, but...I'll tell you a secret." He had a slight pained smile on his face as he narrowed his eyes slightly.

"About what?" I blinked, stunned. Was he finally going to tell me his past...?

"About the missing chapter in my life...about that sexy young boy in the picture with me." His smile vanished as he stared at the picture.

"...! You...you mean..." I gasped, taking a step back. N-no way...my heart and head were pounding now.

"That's right." Yuki grinned as he held out the picture. "The guy that I /killed/." I looked down at the picture, many thoughts racing through my mind. "His name was Kitazawa...and at the time, he was my tutor."

My eyes sparkled as I held the picture, clasping a hand to my cheek as I gasped. "Ahhh...a home tutor...your family was wealthy, wasn't it, Yuki?" I smiled up at him as he paled slightly.

"Yeah, you could say that's the way the dice landed for me." He leaned back against the railing at the Disneyland in Tokyo. "I know I mentioned it to you before...I had a hard time as a kid because I didn't look Japanese. The other kids picked on me because of it...eventually, it started to mess with my head, and so they sent me to New York."

I stared at the picture curiously. "And that's where you met this guy? He seems cool." I blinked and looked up to him; his face twisted with anger.

"He helped me with English...until he tried to rape me. I fought him, and it pissed me off, so I killed him."

My eyes opened with shock and tears flooded my eyes. 'Really...? Is that true?!' "That's so wrong..." I clutched the picture tightly.

"HEY!" Yuki's yell startled me, so I looked up with a sniff. "To be honest, the attack wasn't that big a deal. He didn't get very far." Yuki was looking out over the water, his eyes lost in his memories.

I felt a sob build up and choked it back, muttering "Then why...?" He looked at me then past me.

"How do I put this...he brought a friend with him, and the guy was kind of amped up." It took seconds for the meaning to click in and my eye twitched. "This other guy, he offered the tutor ten bucks if he could have first crack at me. And Kitazawa-kun said 'be my guest'." Yuki shuddered at the thought. "That probably hurt the worst."

The whole thing seemed so wrong. He was so hurt, so damaged, and yet I still asked, "Yuki...were you in love with him?" He continued to look away, his only response being that he didn't know.~

I laid back. It's been a long time since then. Well over a year. He said I grew up a bit.

Oh geez...I never introduced myself! My name is Shuichi Shindou! I'm now 20 and I let my black hair grow out so that only the tips are pink. My eyes are violet and I'm pretty small for my age. But anyway...

This story is about how I killed Eiri Yuki.

~~~TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW~~~