The bank account read -374

I let out a small "fuck" withdrawing my card from the machine that has successfully ruined any chance of a good day today. I get back in my borrowed car. Thank god for Zack and his kindness. I'm now currently on the downhill side of a bad Xanax Overdose, the doctors say I need one or two to keep my sanity...15 of them seem to do the trick, only problem is the hangover...two days later...you feel like a zombie or "unreal" so to speak. They told me never to take that much because of the respiratory side effects...basically it slows down your lungs and eventually you just stop breathing and while a month ago I would have been fine with that, I just found out that I have a child on the way, so now I must stay alive for her and my unborn child. I really do love Tifa, we have been dating for about three weeks...and yeah...shes pregnant. For what its worth my heart is still there, it has suffered some in the past but as soon as I saw Tifa for the first time it was her's. I never believed in Angels or God until I found her. I think she is God's way of apologizing.
So I guess I should introduce myself.
My name is Cloud Strife. I'm 20 years old.
My girlfriend's name is Tifa Lockhart. She is 17.
I live with Three guys in a small house in a decent neighborhood.
Zack who is 21, he also owns the car I drive everywhere Zack is my brother in every sense of the word. The only thing we dont share is blood. But even that wouldnt make us any closer. He goes to college and during the day I take his car.

Barrett who is 23, Again another brother minus the blood. If there there is anyone you want to be on your side in a fight its him. 6'5" maybe? Huge dude. Nicest guy you would ever meet until you endanger his family.

Vincent who is 17, Vincent...well Vincent showed up one day and never left...I mean we all did in a sense. Vincent is his own person and takes some getting used to, I wonder who's heart is further buried...mine or his...

So now I'm on the way to pick up my underage pregnant girlfriend from school. I'm trying to get her out of her house for good. Her father is very abusive and right now I fear for my child's life. One problem, she defends him because of some god awful mind fuck she has...so she won't let me kill him which sucks because the Xanax would.
I missed work the last two days because...well I was blacked out from Xanax... I don't remember the last two days. I hope my boss will help me out. My child will have to eat and Tifa isn't gonna be able to work anymore in a few months.
I wish I could explain to you why she loves some asshole like me..But I don't know why I just know it's real by the way she looks at me...

So if you haven't figured it out yet I suck at writing a diary, but honestly I don't care, read it if you want. I'll try to keep things at a slower pace than my mind.

I pull up to the school and see her standing out front, of course, my heart softens once I catch a glimpse of her. She gets in the car and kisses me

"How was your day baby?" I say

"Fine, I'm tired and a little sick to my stomach"
"you shouldn't go to work today"

She gives me sort of a blank stare.
"Cloud, I have to work...we need the money"
She rubs her stomach gently.
"I know, I'm waiting on my boss to call me."

We drive to her job...she works at a restaurant making 8 bucks and hour. It's better than nothing but I fear the smell of that crappy food will make her sick..she doesn't seem to mind. We pull up and I park the car.

"Baby are you sure you want to go in today"
"Yeah...and I have to go home tonight"
The sound of that sentence tears through me

"Please...don't...stay with me"
"I can't baby...he will call the cops again"
That stupid motherfucker..she says she won't move out until she is 18...6 more months...that is...if she is allowed to stay after her father finds out she is pregnant...I assume it will end up in a brawl in her front yard...I'll take care of it when it happens.

She steps out of the car and kisses me goodbye...

"I love you Tifa and I promise I'll get us on our feet"
"I know you will Cloud...That's why I love you.."

She walks inside. I take a bottle out of the glove box containing some pills. I take a 4&2 or in non-pill popper language 4 ibprofen and 2 excedrin migraine. I can't shake the headache I have now. Fuck you Xanax..It's a love hate relationship with me and Xannys.
I leave the parking lot looking back to see her tying her apron on..

I wisper to myself "I promise I'll make this better Tifa..."

Lord knows I can't break a promise...not anymore...

So welcome to my life, if your interested than read on.. I'll try to be better about the details but there you have it for a basic outline of my life...

My name is Cloud Strife and I have alot on my mind...


So this is just me translating my current life into a FF7 fan fiction. True story...just the names are changed. I'm posting this to see if I should continue..do you guys think I could have a good thing going here? Review and let me know if it is worth it.

It is kinda weird...my life works pretty well as a fan fiction I think. Even odder to call myself Cloud. But whatever, let me know.