English is not my first language so I am really sorry for the mistakes that you might find. I have my beta for most of the chapters. There are already many stories about Lily and James but I hope that you will enjoy and like this one. I have already more than 20 chapters written and the final one written aswell.
hope you will like it.
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August 1977
A deep blue sky, a hot summer breeze and the glitter pattern of sunlight on a wind-ruffled sea, it was one of those warm summer days of August.
The window was opened, the young woman was enjoying the feeling of the breeze ruffling her long hair and skin. She bit her lips, the sea air was giving them a salted taste that she liked.
She closed her eyes and tried to forget about everything.
...
She had been spending the all summer thinking about those two things, they were not linked but somehow in her head it was as if they were because both awoken the same fears.
She was trying to forget that in two weeks she would be there, her last year as a student and she would have to, to. No, that was still too complicated and confused in her head to get a clear thought about IT. She was afraid to think about what IT meant.
She was also trying to do not think about the darkness, about the rumors of war, trying to avoid the fears that she could feel and read in people's eyes.
People could not give up, they could not abandon without fighting. She was one of those persons ready to fight for what she thought was right.
People had to remember that the respect of people's differences was the clue to a better world, your skin color, your social background or the blood in your veins were not making you a better person. Unfortunately, it looked like many decided to believe the contrary and they were ready to do everything even to kill innocent people just to demonstrate that they were right.
She could not understand how they ended up in such a terrifying situation, it was making her shaking.
Lost in her thoughts, her fingers with her blue painted nails, an idea of her best friend, grabbed the curtains rubbing them with her thumbs. The contact of the delicate silk on her skin was pleasant, comforting.
...
She was so lost in her own thoughts that she was barely listening to the voice of her best friend, who was talking to her.
In her defense, she knew that it was nothing important, she knew that her friend was probably just asking which lipstick she should wear or if she should go for the mini skirt or the mini short.
She sighed and tried to forget about everything, again but she was hopeless, there was just too much going on in her head.
When her best friend called her and invited her to spend 10 days in the south of France, she did not think twice as she believed that she would finally be able to think about something else but she was wrong.
Deep down she knew what her problem was, she was scared. She was feeling lonely, anxious and guilty. Something could happen to her sister and her mother because of what she was and she could not deal with this idea, she did not know how to protect them, how to keep them safe.
She was strong and she was ready to fight but she was afraid to loose all the people that she loved. She was scared to be forced to live a life without any type of love or to die before to have experienced other aspects of the definition of love, like being in love.
She sighed again, love, what was love. She could not tell, not really. She was seventeen but she did not have really experienced anything yet in this field.
The constant refrain of her best friend was resounding in her head.
Why is someone like you who is so kind, so emotional, so intelligent so afraid of love. I know what you've lost and I know that you've been hurt but love might be all we have to save us. Love will conquer all, maudlin, I know but it could be the title of a love song and one day it will. Lil, love and live because we might die soon and once we will be gone it will be too late to have regrets.
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She opened her eyes, briefly looked at the sea before to turn over. She looked at her best friend and smiled, her best friend was so inspiring.
In silence, she observed her friend and thought that may be her friend was right and the all point of the story was to live as if everything was fine, as if the hardest thing was actually to decide if red was matching green eyes better than dark pink. Live just live...
Suddenly, a pillow hit her, she did not even see it coming. A bit surprised, she looked into her best friend's eyes. Her best friend was stanting in front of her, a confused expression on her beautiful face. The young witch with her wavy blonde hair floating on her shoulders looked like a princess.
She frowned, she was looking for the piercing green eyes of Lily.
« So what do you think. » asked the beautiful blonde
Lily blushed, she had no idea what her friend was talking about.
«Think about what exactly. »
« How come about what. » sighed the blondie as a sign of exasperation
« I did not really understand the question. » lied Lily
This sentence made her friend smile.
« Lil, are you even listening and please don't pretend that you were, I know you and I could see your eyes closed through the glass of the window. »
Confused, Lily turned crimson and looked at the clothes on her friend's bed.
« The red dress is cute. » she said as it was pretty obvious that the question was about the clothes
« Lil, this is not what I was asking you. »
Or may be not, Lily thought
« I was asking you if you think that we should avoid or go to the party since you know who might be coming. I don't think he will because he has been teasing me all summer but who knows. What if this time he is there, at the party, tonight. What should I do or say because I am really lost here but as far as I can see you are having deepest thoughts than I could ever have. »
She made a pause, she did not like the worried expression on Lily's face.
« What's going on Lily, I thought that we were having fun. »
She knew that Lily was hidding something and she was pretty sure that it had nothing to do with the dark times that they were living in. She was dying of waiting but apparently Lily was not ready to talk about IT and only Merlin knew when she would be...
She invited Lily to spend 10 days in France because she believed that it would help Lily but the expression on her favorite ginger head was making her doubt.
Lily replied that she was having fun but a part of her could not forget that the holidays were coming to an end and that in few days they would be on the train, on their way back to school. She said that she was scared because everything looked so bad and it was getting worst day after day.
She insisted on the fact that it was becoming really hard to know who to trust.
« That's all. » asked her friend suspicious while she was brushing her long blonde hair
Lily nodded and smiled because any word would be a lie. There was something else, something that hadn't been leaving her since THAT day but she was not ready to talk to Marlene about it, not yet.
She did mention something but not everything, she had to clarify her thoughts first.
Marlene was not stupid, something had been bothering Lily since the beginning of the holidays, no actually it was even before the holidays. It started about 2 weeks before the holidays and even if Marlene did not know what happened, she knew that it was something very strong as it had been in Lily's head, confusing her thoughts and so much more since then.
But unfortunately as Lily was not ready to speak about it, Marlene could not really be helpful.
And since the conversation was not going to end up anywhere she decided to jump onto the next subject.
« If you say so Lil. Now focus, I will wear the red dress and what are you planning to wear because I've heard that this blonde guy Victor has a crush on you so may be and I am just saying may be you should have some fun tonight because since S pronounced the word and James stopped asking you out at the end of our 5th year, I swear that I haven't seen you in contact with the other gender unless it was totally unavoidable or during classes, for more than a year and no Remus doesn't count.»
Lily rolled her eyes
« Trying to play with Cupid's arrow again Marlene. »
« Well don't you think that it is time for you to forget about S and unless I am wrong, you weren't even dating so move on. »
Lily knew that she should not reply, she knew Marlene too well and she knew where this conversation was going to end so she bit her lips but it was too late, the words were already out...
