Title: Hesitation
Disclaimer: I only own Naruto in my mind when he is making out with other boys.
Memo: Hi guuuyyyysss It's Ami again. I'm sorry...really I am. You know, for not writting for so long. Maybe some of the people who used to like my fanfiction find this? Well...I hope you like it. If you think it's not very detailed, it's a short story. Only a couple chapters? Well it's depressing of course. I hope you like it3 Next chappie up soon.
PROLOGUE
3
I don't have much.
I don't have much. I live in a place that is dark and cold. Deep inside my mind…and the world around me. I'm in the "ghetto" of the city and it's so cliché that it makes me want to believe none of it is real.
Well wouldn't that be nice.
My blonde hair and my blue eyes are funny to me. It's like a neon target in the darkness I've been put in. I remember one day in middle school, on the last day, when my old friend from elementary school came up to me. She had left me after I drove her away, not wanting her to have to deal with me and all the pranks and teasing I received. Not that she was aware of that.
"Naruto, I remember when no matter what, you seemed so happy… how could you lose that?"
I turned, as if she had never spoken, and walked out the doors of the school, never to return. "You can't lose what was taken from you Hinata."
I still avoid her eyes in the halls.
The only person I ever really loved, that I ever really wanted to live my life with is far away from me. In my mind? No, he's taken a permanent residence there.
Every day…I think about how I'm alone. I know it sounds depressing and stupid, but I can't help it. I used to try, you know, to pretend to myself that everything is fine, will be fine. My mum said to me once before she left me, "If you fake it enough, eventually you even believe your lies."
I don't.
