A void. That's what I find myself in. A void of endless despair and misery. The pain encloses me, makes me feel like I was nothing. Soon, it feels like I'm vanishing. Disappearing until there's nothing left...
Chapter 1
I feel my eyes closing. Oh no, I shouldn't be doing this. She'll be so angry, but I just can't help it. It was overtaking me. I felt tired. I felt sleepy. Goodness, I don't think I can last another minute. I close my eyes, feeling the bliss of sleep overtake me. I'm sorry... I let you down...
"Takahashi-san!"
I scream, raising my head and flailing my arms. "I'm sorry, Saotomi-san! I just couldn't help it! I felt so tired and this is so boring and..." I stop when she gives me that stare. I gulp, hugging myself. I see her write something down and I know it's a detention slip. I groan as she hands it to me.
"Maybe you should go to the office right now and show them that you have detention after school," Saotomi-san says, glaring at me. I nod, getting up and going out the door. This was so embarrassing. I know who volunteers in the office with the administrators and I didn't want him to see this. He knows I get sent to the office regularly in other classes for falling asleep, but he doesn't work there at that time. Saotomi-san was patient with me, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't stay awake. Now, the most embarrassing thing's going to happen to me and I couldn't get out of it.
I breathe deeply as I enter the office. The administrator was busy typing things on the computer and I know her too well to not interrupt her when she was typing away. I look around and see that Satoshi was not here. I sigh in relief, thinking I wasn't going to see him. That was until I heard the office door open. I didn't want to turn to see if it was him or not, but then he went behind the desk. He sees me and smiles. I look away. This was too embarrassing. "Ah, Takahashi-san," Nakahara-san said and I look to her, seeing Satoshi from the corner of my eye. "Another detention from falling asleep?"
I nod, handing her the slip. She looks and types on the computer yet again. "Hmm, Saotomi-san never sends you to the office. I guess you finally annoyed her enough." I remain quiet, seeing if Satoshi was looking, but it seems he was staring down at some papers. "You're silent today. Usually you would be talking away at something that was irrelevant to everyday life." She continues to type, but then looks up at me. "Are you alive in there?"
"I am..." I quietly say. She raises an eyebrow, not understanding why I was suddenly silent today. She rolls her eyes.
"I don't even want to know. With you, anything could happen."
I sigh, glancing to Satoshi. He was looking at me, quite amused with my embarrassment. I glare at him and cross my arms. I never wanted him to see this because of this reason. He was going to constantly tease me for the rest of the day. "Alright," Nakahara-san says, handing me a little sheet of paper. "Stay here for the rest of class." I nod, going to the seat near the desk and sitting down. I sigh, putting my chin on my hand and propping myself up so I wouldn't fall asleep. Yes, I could fall asleep on this chair if I wanted to... and if I didn't want to.
After a while, I felt the boredom creep up on me. I stare up at the clock and noticed it was only 1:30 P.M. Great, there's an hour left of class and I was stuck in this chair. I groan, my hands coming up to rub my eyes from sleep. "Makeba-san," Nakahara-san said to Satoshi. "I need to make a run real quick. Make sure that she doesn't leave." She glares at me and I raise an eyebrow. She truly hates me, doesn't she?
As she leaves, Satoshi suddenly sits next to me. I cross my arms and look away. "What do you want?" I ask. I see from the corner of my eye that he was just looking at me with that smug, little smirk of his. I glare at the wall. "I said, what do you want?"
He leans in closer. "You look cute when you pout," He says, smiling more because of the blush that happened to cross my cheeks. I knew he was my boyfriend, but I still needed to get my mind wrapped around it. It was hard knowing someone liked me more than a friend and I couldn't even believe that someone liked me at all. When Satoshi asked me to be his girlfriend, I thought it was a joke, especially since I liked him a lot. It went on for a few minutes before I realized he was being serious. "You're such a tsundere," He teases. I glare again. I hate when he calls me that, even though I know for a fact that it's true.
"Stop already!" I say, turning my body away from him as well. He laughs, only going to the chair on my other side to face me. I glare at him.
His smile turns soft. "Takiko," He breathes my name. "Why must you be so cold?"
I blush once again. "I... I..." I was lost for words.
"Is it because of me?" He looks sad. "Did I do something wrong?"
"No!" I burst out. "Of course not!"
He cheers up again. "Good, I don't like it when I'm the cause of your distress."
I look away. "I don't think you'll ever be..."
I see him smile and lean closer to kiss my cheek. "I hope not."
He stands up and I was wondering why. That's when Nakahara-san enters the office. I sigh, hating her even more for ruining a perfect moment that was happening. I lean back in my chair, preparing myself for a very boring time in this office.
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The bell rings finally and I shoot up from my chair. Heading to the door, I didn't even get a chance to touch it before it was opened by Satoshi. I look at him, seeing him smile at me. "Let me walk you home," He says. I give a small smile, so small that I don't even think he can see it, and nod. We head out of the office and to the front of the school. In that time, I see many people saying hi to Satoshi. He smiles and waves back to each and every one of them. And also in that time, I see many girls glaring at me, wondering why such a nice and kind guy was with a very cold girl. I knew that's what they were thinking.
We start to head to my house and I remain quiet. He doesn't say anything, knowing that when I'm quiet, I was thinking and rarely liked to be bothered with. I liked that about him. He understood when it was time to be serious. Not only was he cute with short brown hair and soft green eyes, he made sure to keep me happy. I never understood why he wanted to. I was cold to many people and I didn't think I deserved to be happy. It's not like I try to be mean, it just comes out... Why do I do that?
Satoshi attempts to hold my hand, but I pull away quickly. He looked surprised and then hurt. I felt guilty, very guilty. "I... I'm sorry. It was just a reaction and I didn't mean to-"
"It's fine," He says, smiling sadly at me. "I know you didn't mean to hurt my feelings."
I couldn't think of anything to say and we walk in an awkward silence. I hug myself and look anywhere that wasn't him. Why is he with me? It travels through my mind the reasons why he shouldn't be with me. I'm harsh, I'm distant, I hurt his feelings quite a bit, and I'm not even that pretty. Was he with me because he was sorry for me? No, that can't be it... Can it? I look to him and see that he was staring ahead. I'm sorry...
We get to my house, both of us still being very silent. I look down at my feet, waiting for him to say something, but it was quiet for a while. I look up and see he's only inches from my face. I blush. "Satoshi..." I say, backing away a little. He smiles again.
"Yes?" He asks, getting closer again.
"You're too close," I reply, trying to back away again, but he puts his hands on my shoulders. I gulp.
"What can I do to help you feel comfortable?" He asked. I shrug my shoulders. He chuckles at that. "Well, we've been together for 2 months now... Can I have a kiss?"
That's when I blush harder than I ever did before. I was pretty sure I looked like a ripe tomato because of that. He smiles wide, pulling me a little closer to him. I gulp, feeling my heart beating rapidly. Was he actually going to kiss me? He loses the smile to stare into my eyes. I try to look away, but I was lost in his green eyes. He leans in close and inside I was telling myself that I shouldn't be scared. Why was I scared in the first place? He gets even closer, closing his eyes. I lean in as well, but at the very last minute, I quickly move and kiss his cheek instead. As I pull away from him to have my own space again, he starts to laugh. What? Why was he laughing?
"I guess..." He continues to laugh. "I guess that will suffice." He laughs even more and I smile softly. After his laughing fit, we hug goodbye and I enter my house.
I look around my small home, noticing that the only light on was in the kitchen. I head to it, peeking through the door. My mother was looking through papers, looking very frustrated. I turn to leave her be, but she calls my name. I sigh, going in the room and sitting across from her at the table. She looks at me sadly, but attempts to smile. "How was your day?" She asks, and I know she truly cares.
"It... It was ok," I reply, looking at the papers. I notice the words "bill overdue" and "30 days". I look up to her and she looks at me. She doesn't hide the papers, nor does she try to make up any excuses. I grab her hand. "We can get through this," I say softly. Her light eyes look at mine. I know what she's thinking. I look too much like my father with dark, black hair and dark eyes. I know she's thinking those things, but she's trying so very hard to care for me. Maybe the fact that I looked like her helped. "I'll get a job. I'll work hard."
She smiles, putting her other hand on mine. "You don't have to. I know that I work almost everyday and I work really late at times, but please don't worry. I'll handle this. Just focus on school and being happy ok?"
I feel my lip quiver and I know I'm about to cry, but I hold it in. I nod at her and she sighs. "How about you rest up? I'll get on dinner in a minute," She says, patting my hand. I get up and head to the door. I stop though, looking at her. She smiles at me. "Go on, it'll be fine."
I nod again, going to my room. On my way there, I think of my father and how he was before he was gone from our lives. I glare at the floor, feeling anger course through me. Why? Why did he leave? I grab my doorknob and twist it open. And there on my bed was an odd looking cat staring at me, its lips in a weird smile. "Takahashi Takiko, would you make one single wish to become a magical girl and face a life of fighting witches?"
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AN: Hello there! It's Rosela and I'm here with a fanfiction of mine that I had in mind for a long time now! Of course, as I was writing this out, it changed from my original quite a bit. But it made it even better! So, I hope you enjoy and please review. It would help me a lot :) Leave helpful reviews if you can, tell me if I need any editing done or anything please! Thank you!
