"The Last Time"
This song-fic was inspired by "The Last Time" by Taylor Swift and Gary Lightbody. Hope you enjoy
I kept telling myself that I wouldn't keep doing this to myself. I always left here feeling worse than I did when I arrived. But like all the times before, my feet seemed to lead me here.
I pull up and sit underneath you window, wondering what you're doing in your room. Are you alone? Are you thinking about me? I decide I can't take it anymore and walk to your front door. I knock on it lightly, hoping you won't turn me away.
As soon as I see you, I feel my heart breaking all over again. I never understood why we couldn't go back to when we were us and life wasn't so complicated.
"I know I said I would stop showing up like this but I just…I was sitting at home and I couldn't stop thinking about you. I know I said I wouldn't ask you anymore but I have to know why. Why we couldn't be something beautiful."
I open my door to find you standing there once again. I can see the pain etched clearly on your face. The apologies fall from your lips before you even tell me why you are here. And then you dredge up the past as always and try to figure out why the reason would be different now than it has been before.
I consider letting you in this time but then I think back on all the times I did before only to discover you gone in the morning. I make my peace with it and avoid you when you come back again, in the hope that everything will be okay.
This time we bear our souls to each other. Laying it all out for everyone to see. We expose ourselves like we use to back when we were still…us. I tell you this will be the last time I explain myself to you. "Every chance you had, you broke my heart and I couldn't be your punching bag anymore."
"You can't keep doing this to me. It's not fair."
"Don't worry I won't keep coming round rehashing the past with you."
"I can't move on if I keep letting you in"
"I understand. I won't come round here anymore."
As I watch you leave, I call out, "Marry him Bells and let me move on."
