Have you ever stared into an abyss? Felt it rock your very core?

I have.

I would again and again, let the coldness and darkness take me over, swallow me whole.

Every time I can, I look into his eyes. The darkness, the way he moves, it swallows me. It consumes me. I can't stop looking. The feelings I get, so contrary, but I love it. The way he makes me feel, I want it so much more. The hate that boils within me, the attention he gets from other people, the love I feel and when he looks at me - I feel like I'm the only person world.

His face, though. It's just a mask. He never shows how he really feels. He's so different. He's a mystery. I want to unravel him. I want to rip his mask off, look at the way he really feels. I'm sick of that face. I want to punch him, kick him, stab him, kiss him.

He's betrayed me in so many ways, he just walks away from me, he doesn't stop to talk to me when he sees me, he goes off with other people! Not me! Sometimes he goes out of his way to make me feel alone.

In other words, he's an arse. An utter arse. Why can't I stop thinking about him?!

I hate him! I hate him, I hate him, I HATE HIM! ARGH! I just want him to die! Then no one else could look at him! He'd be mine alone!

But then I couldn't see him, I couldn't see his real emotions, the ones that betray him in moments of weakness. When they shine though it's amazing. He can have so many expressions. Why can't they be about me? Why does he have to hide it? Why can't I just tell him?

Because of who he is. Because of all the reasons I love and hate him.

I'm just so scared.

But sometimes he looks at me! It can't be chance! His mask even slips when he sees me, but I can never be sure.

Because of who he is, the way he is.

It's like Hatori says. He's a ripple. I want to catch him though. I want to be where that ripple starts and ends.

I love you Shigure.

Notice me.

Let me brighten your abyss.


It's short and hopefully good. I had this idea at 2AM, so I'm sorry if it's no good. But I like it. Maybe I'll do a better version one day…