Title: All or Nothing
Author: CC
Summary: The musing of an abused heart
Rating: PG
Dedication: The Lovely Ladies who keep me grounded, you know who you are.
Disclaimer: No money, not JK, Don't sue.
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It's always the same. Every night of the week before a full moon, when the need is the worst, he slips into my bed silent as an illusion. We make love, some times soft and slow, sometimes desperate and needy. Then when it's over, just as I'm about to pull him close and snuggle down to sleep he slips from the bed. He whispers "I love you," gives me one last kiss and returns to his bed.

When at last the moon is full and Moony and Padfoot run together in the pale light of the moon we are truly mates. We run together and lick and nuzzle and communicate in ways even I don't understand. During a full moon I simply know he truly loves me. Even Peter can see it.

And yet during the other twenty-one days of the month he rarely so much as gives me a kiss or a tender look.

But tonight will be different. Tonight I'm going to tell Remus that my heart is all or nothing and leave the choice to him.

...I can only hope he chooses all.