A/N: this is my first real story. hope you'll like it. tell me what you think because I may not continue it if no one likes it

Disclaimer: I dont own Detective Conan......unless someone wants to give me a Kudo Shinichi for my birthday...*silence* I guess not...


Chapter 1: Letting Go

" Ran, what is it now?"

"Come on Shinichi, I barely ever call you and you are always impatient and going on about you cases and -" she broke off. Then all he heard was a blood curling scream on the other side of the phone.

"Ran, Ran are you there? Are you okay? Can you hear me? RAN! –"

"Haven't heard your voice in a while, Kudo Shinichi." A calm voice, dripping with venom.

"Gin!"

"oh yes, it's me. You sound so surprised." He let out a cold chuckle. "Oh how I wish I could see your face when I tell you that your girlfriend has 5 hours to live. HAHAHAHA!....."

*****

He threw off his bed sheets and sat up. He was covered in sweat. It's only just a dream. Well that's what he's always been telling himself. It seems that recently his whole life felt like a dream, or more like a nightmare that he desperately wanted to get away from. Everything has been happening too fast for him to get his head around. Ran has already finished her senior year and will be off to college soon. Too soon, in fact, she'll be leaving in a couple hours. She's off of to a college on the other side of Japan, in Hiroshima.

Well that is definitely a problem as without Ran his life is pretty much heading for disaster, as he will be stuck with Ran's dad, a drunk and hopeless detective. Which leads to the next problem, his body is an elementary boy, who has grown very attached to his "Ran-neechan".

Sighing, he got out of bed to find something to drink the in the kitchen. As he walked down the stairs he heard a faint sound. But loud enough to bring his guard up. As any noise at this hour would appear suspicious. But as he tip-toed into the kitchen, he saw Ran sitting on the couch with a box of tissues instead of a thief stealing the television. As he reached for the lights, she spoke up.

"Please, Conan-kun, don't turn on the lights. I don't want you to see me cry." Her voice was shaky and it was like she was struggling to speak. He slowly walked over to the couch and sat next to her. As he looked up to her face he saw what he always saw. A pair of ocean blue eyes that makes him feel like he's drowning in them, a flawless and beautiful face, and soft, silky hair that framed her face perfectly.

"Ran-neechan, will you forget me when you're gone?" What a silly question, why would I care if she forgets "Conan-kun". He thought to himself.

"Ah Conan-kun, you're so silly. How can I ever forget you? After Shi-Shinichi left you seem to be the person who makes me laugh when I'm sad and saves me from dangerous situations. You're already a big part of my life, I won't nor can I ever forget you, Conan-kun." It was at that moment when that he actually wanted to be that "Conan-kun". But it still scared him that in a mere few hours Ran will be gone from his life, whether it's Conan's or Kudo Shinichi's. She will leave, go to law school, graduate and possibly move on. Move on from these childhood memories and if he never gets his body back, one day she will stop waiting for Shinichi. This fact scared him, it has always plagued him, but he never realised how likely it will happen until this very moment.

"Don't go Ran-neechan." Those words flowed out of his mouth before he could stop them. "Don't leave. I will miss you a lot and so will....so will Shinichi-niisan." Emotion flooded her face as her eyes watered once more.

"You know Conan-kun, Shinichi always appears out of nowhere and then leaves. I wished so badly that maybe tonight at my farewell party he would appear out of nowhere with a bouquet of roses and say those words to me. Oh how I wished. But of course, he never showed."

"Would you stay if Shinichi-niisan asked you to?"

"I don't know, I don't know anything anymore. I don't know whether I really want to go to law school or if it's just my mum's wish. I don't know if I'm ready to leave this place, this place with so many happy memories. I'm lost Conan-kun, but it seems too late to change my mind now." She gave a humourless laugh. Wiping her tears away with the back of her hands. "It's late, Conan-kun. I should go to bed, I have an early flight to catch tomorrow and you have school too." She gave him a sad smile. "Good night."

"Good night Ran-neechan." He watched as she left the room. A millions thoughts raced through his head and a million what-ifs plagued his mind. But his thoughts were rudely interrupted by a call.

"Hello?"

"Kudo-kun, I didn't think you'll be awake at this hour."

"I couldn't sleep."

"Why?"

"Do you have to ask?"

"Oh right, Ran's leaving tomorrow."

"So why are you calling so late?"

"I think I've found the antidote for APTX 4869, I'm not sure if it's like the other ones and just wears off after a few hours, but I was wondering if you could come over, maybe tomorrow, to try it out."

"How about I come over now?"

"Now? I suppose that would be okay, but you-"

"Okay, I'll be there in ten." He hung up. His pulse was racing, Haibara has found the antidote! Praying to some unknown god that it'll be the answer to his problems, he raced off to Professor Agasa's house.

On the other side of the phone, Haibara smiled. "Always so impatient."

*****

"Otou-san! Are you ready yet? The flight is leaving in less than two hours."

"Not my fault I drank too much last night, it was your farewell party."

"Oh and have you seen Conan-kun anywhere this morning? He seems to have disappeared to somewhere?" Oh just listen to myself, she thought. "just disappeared to somewhere", sounds like an individual I know. Shaking her head she waved of the unwanted thoughts in her head.

"I forgot to tell you, Professor Agasa called this morning to say that Conan's parents suddenly arrived and took him somewhere. I don't think he'll make it back in time. He left you a note, it's on the table."

She picked up a piece of neatly folded paper from the table. "I'm really sorry Ran-neechan that I can't see you off today. I'll miss you. Conan." The note was short and to the point, grammatically perfect and was written in perfect handwriting. The handwriting looked a lot like Shinichi's and the fact that Conan drew a little picture of Sherlock Holmes beside his name was just like Shinichi. Gah, why am I thinking of him again? Whether he will or won't come to the airport today is definitely something I can't control. Along with a lot of other things...

She took one last look of the house she has lived in for 18 years as she went in the car. So this is really happening, whether she's ready or not, she's off to law school. It will be in a new environment, with new friends and new beginnings. But is it really possible for her to move on. Move on from what Ran? A voice in the back of her head asked. The question was relevant. Was it my high school days, my dad and mum or my totally non-existent romantic relationship with Shinichi? Questions like these constantly plagued her mind as she got closer to the airport.

At the airport her dad was checking her in as Ran was desperately trying to stop Sonoko from crying for the seventh time.

"Ran, do you swear on your karate skills that you will call me at least 3 times a week and write to me every week?"

"Yes, Sonoko, I've told you a million times, I will. But law school may get busy at times but I'll call and write, I promise."

"Good, because I don't want you to turn into Kudo Shinichi and just leave without a word." Ran fell silent, as that hit a sensitive nerve.

"Sorry Ran, sore subject..."

"It's okay Sonoko."

"Speaking of him. Where is that smartass anyway? Shouldn't he at least show his face today?"

"Maybe he's busy with some case..." Busy with some case, huh, am I just lying to myself? Maybe he doesn't even care anymore, maybe he's already forgotten.

Her Dad came running towards them, stopping her train of thoughts. "Ran, there's only 10 minutes before you flight leaves, you should go." Without another word, she hugged her dad.

"I'll really miss you otou-san." Tears were brimming on her eyes again.

"And I will miss you too my dear." After a few more tears and promises Ran walked through Gate 38. She looked behind her and waved at her dad and Sonoko. But really she was just delaying herself, hoping that Shinichi would suddenly appear. But he didn't, and as the entry of the gate became smaller and smaller she turned around and kept walking. She continued to walk towards her flight entrance with blank eyes. Her hopes for Shinichi to show up has gone, he once again has failed her.

But as she was showing the flight attend the boarding pass she heard a distant cry. "RAN! WAIT! RAN!"

She turned around and saw the shape of a person sunning towards her. "RAN, WAIT!" That voice, so familiar and calming. The approaching figure got closer and closer. Could it really be -

"Shinichi!" She ran into his arms, tears flooding her eyes once more. "You came!"

"Of course I came silly." She looked up and saw him, the person she saw in her dreams every night. She gazed into those azure blue eyes and realised that she'll never be able to really move on from those memories.

"How did you get pass that gates without a boarding pass?"

"Oh I have my ways." Flashing her a dashing smile, the smile that always made her heart flutter. But before she could digest the dashing smile his lips were on hers. With so much force she almost fell back, yet they were so gentle, caressing her lips. She liked the feeling of his lips on hers, so she kissed him back. Then after what seemed like eternity they broke apart.

"Why are you here Shinichi?" That question was on her mind from the moment she saw him. It was a question that she desperately wanted the answer to.

"Because I am. Please stay, Ran. I wouldn't know how it would be like to live without you." That answer would have inflated any fan-girls' heart but she felt that it wasn't enough. It wasn't what she was after.

"Why though?"

"What do you want to hear Ran?"

"Three words, eight letters, say it and I'll stay."

"...Don't leave Ran?" She shook her head sadly, Kudo Shinichi was never the type for cheesy lines and soppy phrases. She knew from the moment she asked that he won't say those three magical words that every girl wanted to hear. But she just wouldn't believe it until she actually asked.

"Ran, what do you want me to say? I'll say it if you tell me. Just don't go. Please." Suddenly she felt her fuse burn; she was angry, angry at him and the rest of the world.

"I waited for you for 2 years. Two whole bloody years. All you did was call and every time I wanted something from you, you'd say "I'm busy with a case". This is unfair Shinichi. You expect me to throw away my future for you, when you never gave me anything, anything at all in the past years." He was silenced by her words of rage.

"I'm sorry, I never realised how..."

"That's the problem, Shinichi, you don't realise anything. You don't realise that I'm sad, I'm lonely or I just want to talk to you, as in personally, not just over the phone."

"Please let me explain-"

"There's nothing to explain Shinichi, you-"

"Excuse me Miss, I'm really sorry to interrupt, but the flight will be leaving very soon..." A flight attendant said very politely. What she said then was like her wakeup call, like her queue to leave.

"I'm sorry Shinichi, I have to go." And then without another words she handed the flight attendant her boarding pass and walked through those doors, but surprisingly, the tears didn't find her eyes, she walk onto the plane feeling unpleasantly calm, like she just ended something that should have been put to an end a long time ago. But still she heard a crack, as she felt her heart shatter into a million pieces.

*****

"You finally talk to her properly in your real body and that's all you could say?" A little girl with blonde hair walked out of the shadows and asked him in her monotone.

He couldn't say anything, there was nothing left to say. "Hey Kudo-kun, still there?"

"Yeah, I guess I was too late." This fact saddened him; he thought that maybe if Kudo Shinichi showed up Ran would have stayed. "But what were the three words she wanted to hear?"

"You are so oblivious sometimes Kudo-Kun. But I won't tell you, the answer if for her to hear and you to find out."

"I guess..." So that was it. It is the end of something he so badly wanted. His phone rang as he slowly made his way to the exit of the gate, as if this delay would mean that he'll delay Ran's departure.

"Hi oka-san."

"Oh Shin-chan, I heard from the professor you got your body back? Is it true?"

"Yes, oka-san. I was about to tell you if you gave me a few more minutes."

"Well that's great, I can't wait to tell you father. So are you going anywhere in the upcoming summer holidays?"

"Nope, no plans at all."

"Come to Hawaii with us then, it'll be just like before!" At that moment Kudo Shinichi realised it was time to leave, move on. This place seems to only hold sad memories for him.

"Yeah, I'll come. In fact would it be ok if I skip school and leave tomorrow?" He wanted to leave as soon as possible.

"No problem, you know Mummy will welcome you anytime."

"Okay, bye oka-san." He hung up. What he feared most has already happened, it was too late. As he walked out of the airport to hail a taxi he heard a crack as his hearts broke like a mirror hitting the ground.


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