Title-Love of my blood, flesh of my soul Author-KDaWGkELLY CASS

*Its amazing How you make your face, just like a wall How you take your heart, and turn it off How I turn my head, and lose it all*

Buffy's eyes closed as she walked down the street. All she could think of was Angel. The days they spent together, everything. And especially this one day wehre she went to his place and kind of didn't remember anything else. But it had been almost 2 years so Buffy figured her memory might be a little bit hazy. Often Buffy just sat and thought about the days before... well before she died. Buffy missed it. Well really, Buffy missed Angel. He always made her feel special, like she really mattered. Buffy was going to see him to basically ask him to remind her what her life was like. Lately Buffy's life had been so...crazy. Spike, he could hurt her. And she'd been...well...she'd been having SEX with him. Buffy sighed. 'I always have a thing for the vampires.' And that thought led her back to Angel. 'Oh Angel. What are you doing right now?'

*It's un-nerving How just one move puts me by myself There you go just trusting someone else Now I know I put us both through hell*

Angel gulped down a cup of blood as his baby slept. Cordy was in the other room having sex with her new boyfriend. Gun and Fred were off eating dinner and Weasley was somewhere moping around. Angel was thinking to himself. 'That there is my son. My HUMAN son. How did a human come out of 2 vampires?' Angel sighed and walked over to his desk. He sat down and went searching through his drawers to re-read the profecy. And then he came upon a picture. He unfolded the small thing to reveal the one woman in the world he thought he would ever worship like he had. Buffy Summers face started up at Angel. She was standing next to Xander and Oz and Oz had his arm around Buffy and Xnader held her hand. It was the night of graduation. She looked so...troubled. Her eyes were a bit sunken and she could only half smile. She must have known Angel was leaving. Angel sometimes still wonders how he ever left her. Buffy would always haunt his dreams. He suddenly had a flash of visions just go through him. They're first night together, her sending him to hell, all the kisses, the touches, the I love you's. Angel would never forget about Buffy. Of that, Angel was certain.

I'm not sayin' There was nothing wrong I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me And i'm not sayin We ever had the right to hold on I jus didn't wanna let it get away from me**

Buffy found herself at the Sunnydale bus station. But she wasn't running away from something this time. No, this time she was running TO something. Or, more likely, someone. She walked to the booth. "One ticket to Los Angeles. Please." The teller punched in some numbers. "Sure honey, that will be $4.75." Buffy handed the old man the money, took her ticket, smiled, and walked towards a bench.Buffy sat down and felt her whole body just kinda of like collapse. She began to cry. Suddenly she felt warm arms encircle her. "Buffy, I know what your going to do, and i'm not letting you go alone." Buffy looked up into the face of one of her best friends in the whole word, Xander Harris. Buffy just let out a weak smile and fell into Xander. The bus pulled up. Buffy gulped as she stood up. Xander pulld out a ticket. They got on the large bus and sat down. Buffy layed her head on Xanders chest and closed her eyes. 'This is where your life begins Buffy. With a person to love and a person to want.'

*The sky has lost its color The sun has turned to grey At least that's how it feels to me Whenever you're away I crawl up in the corner To watch the minutes pass Each one brings me closer to The time you're coming back*

Angel decided he needed to get out. He walked into the lobby. "Wesley, i'm going for a walk. Watch the baby okay?" Then Angel threw on his duster and slowly walked outside. It took about 10 minutes before he realised he wasn't really controlling where his feet were going. Before he knew it, Angel was out in front of the Bus Station. And then, a large GreyHound bus marked 'SunnyDale' on the front pulled up. Angel tensed. 'Your being foolish Angel. Why would she come back now? You told her to leave one to many times. She probably forgot all about you.' But still Angel felt as thought he was glued in place. And that's when he saw her. His love. Buffy. Getting off the bus. She was exquisite. Her blonde hair was straight. She had a little black skirt on and a black tank top. She looked skinny, perhaps TO skinny, but she still looked healthy at least. All in all, she looked amazing. Buffy had always been beautiful to Angel. From the first time he saw her he loved her. She was perfect. And behind Buffy was one of her friends, Xander. He placed Buffy's hand in his. Angel knew that they were just friends and Xander was probably just showing his support. Angel slowly walked towards them. When Buffy saw him coming, he saw the obvious shock on her delicate features.

*I still believe my feelings But sometimes I feel too much I make believe you're close to me But it ain't close enough I'd brave fire and I'd brave rain To be by your side I'd do anything*

Buffy felt herself fill with lust love and everything you could possibly feel as she saw Angel. Xander dropped her hand and extended his to Angels. "Angel, nice to see you.Buffy here wants to talk to you. So if you dont mind, i'll be out getting some coffee. Buff, call my cell when you need me." And then Xander made his quick escape. Buffy laughed at his jitteryness around Angel. Angel looked deep into Buffy's amazing hazel eyes. Buffy felt something inside of her spark and she wondered how she ever lived without Angels deep, chocolately brown eyes wich held so much pain, so much passion, and evidently, so much love. For her. Buffy smiled a small toothless smile at Angel. "So. How's life?" Angel smiled at her awkwardness. "It's fine. A little wierd but, I am a vampire with a soul, so you know." Buffy felt a pang at the word 'soul'. How many times had she thought about that in the past 3-4 years? Oh about 3 million. And each time she wished more and more his was, well his was permanent. "Your's?" Buffy thought about what she should say. Then she just came out and said it. "I died." Angel coughed. 'WHAT?! DID THIS MEAN...NO SAY IT ISNT SO.' "What?" Buffy smiled. "Not that kind of died. I had to jump into this portal thingy to save Dawn my sister and then I died and went to heaven but Spike, Willow, everyone, the just couldn't live without me. So Will did a spell...and it ripped me out of heaven. I went wacky for awhile. And i came back wrong. Spike, he can hit me. He can hurt me." Buffy took a deep breathe after she said that one and waited for Angel's reaction. He looked scared. Shocked. Then Angel put out his hand and ran a single finger down Buffy's cheek. Buffy shivered and leaned into his hand.

*Everything's so blurry And everyone's so fake And everybody's so empty And everything is so messed up Pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl*

Angel shivered with lust. She was, in all, a godess. "Well-" Angel said as he pulled away from Buffy. "I had sex with Darla. And I got a son out of it." Buffy looked shocked, as thought she had been brutally smacked across the face. "Really? You think that's wierd? I had sex with Spike! But not sex-sex, i'm talkin smash your bones- brake any normal humans neck- kinda sex." Angel almost threw up when she said that. "Before you judge me Angel. I only did it because..b-b-because I wanted to feel real. I wanted to know I was still alive. I could still feel." Buffy cringed as she said it. Angel did nothing but look at Buffy with his melting gaze. "Don't worry Buffy. I never judge." Buffy laughed. Angel was always so sincere. So cryptic. Suddenly Angel's lips were on Buffy's, his arms around her. Buffy moaned into his lips. Spike was amazing, but NOTHING was like kissing Angel. He made her feel like she was the most important thing in his world. Angel caressed Buffy's hair. This is how he was meant to be. With his arms around his beloved. His only star. 'If she didn't need to breathe, I swear I would never let this moment end.' Angel thought to himself. Then he realised that he and Buffy had been kissing for about 2 minutes and she still hadn't come up for air. Angel painfully broke himself away from the lips of the incredible creature. Buffy looked dazed, almost confused and she stared at Angel. 'Well it's obvious she didn't want it to end either.' Angel thought rather giddily. He always felt lighter, more at ease when he was around Buffy. Buffy let out a tiny mew-like cat noise and reached for Angel once more. But he took a step back. "Buffy, you said earlier that when you came out of heaven you came out wrong and now Spike can hurt you? What the hell are you talking about?" Buffy sighed. "Spike has a chip in his head that prevents him from hurting humans. The innitiative placed it in him. But a few weeks ago, we found out that he, he could hit me. And not get a terrible headache in doing so." Buffy felt her soul drop a little as she thought of Spike. What was the deal with her lately. It wasnt like she loved Spike right? I mean, he was just her fuck, her reality pill. But Buffy thought of what she had said to Tara. "The only time I feel alive, is when i'm with him." 'It can't be true. I dont LOVE him. I just feel like he get's me.' Buffy tried to assure herself. But Angel took her out of her train of thought. "Well I say we go visit Weasley and see what is up with you. Trust me, he's changed. Also, you'll be metting Fred and Gun and Cordelia's new boyfriend. And..and...my b-b-baby." Buffy grimiced when he said 'My baby'. But she just nodded and looked at Angel. Smiling. Angel took her hand in his and for the first time he realised just how small it really was. How powerless she seamed when you held her in your arms when her guard was down. He slowly walked with her towards his office.