A/N: This is an idea that sprang into my head after watching David's reaction to seeing Keith and Eddie and the disco with Kurt in "Life's Too Short." It contains references to "Open Book", "Crossroads" and "Life's Too Short."

It's rated R for a few naughty words that come from David's mouth.

As always, the characters of David, Keith, Eddie, Kurt et al. belong to Alan Ball, HBO and the actors who play them. I swear I won't hurt them...well not much anyway! ;)

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I hate him.

I hate him with a passion.

I hate the fact that he's kissing Keith instead of me. I hate the fact that he gets to wake up beside Keith instead of me being the one to wake up beside him. I hate the fact that Keith is no longer in my life.

I knew that dating Kurt so soon after I had broken up with Keith was a bad idea. Don't get me wrong...He was gorgeous--- A body to die for, the most amazing blue eyes of anyone I've ever seen, a mouth that could turn any man to Jell-O. But there was one small problem...My heart belongs to Keith and his heart belongs to another.

I hated Eddie from the moment Keith introduced us at the club. Mr. Superguy Fucking ER had his hands on My Beloved...he was kissing Keith in front of me! It took all of my strength not to snap his neck then and there.

I can vaguely hear Kurt taunting me. I look him straight in the eye and kiss him. I feel his arms tighten around me as he deepens the kiss. I open my eyes and see Keith walking away with Eddie. //Good.// I think as I watch him walk away. //I hope this hurts you as much as you hurt me when you left me standing in that parking lot.// I think as my eyes drift close and I continue to kiss Kurt.

With Kurt, it was only about fucking...it was never about making love. With Keith it was about making love...about driving each other wild with lust, desire and passion.

Now Eddie is making love to him....It should be me!

I know being with Kurt was a mistake...My heart belongs to Keith and will always belong to him. He was my one weakness. The one thing that could bring me to my knees...He was the one thing I needed to survive more than food, water and oxygen.

And I had no-one to blame but myself for losing him.

I would do anything to have him back in my life again. I love him and I'm not ashamed to admit it anymore. I need him in my life...I want him in my life...I would do anything to have him in my life again....back where he belongs.

I hate him.

I hate Eddie.