Beep! Beep! Beep! "Uuugh!" I mumbled as I turned off my alarm. The clock read 6:00 A.M. I had to be at school 8:00. It was a Monday and my last day of school. What a weird day to be the last day of school. It was my last day because after school I have to be stuck with my mother and drive for hours to our new home. I live in in Washington and have been living here all my life, but unfortunately I had to move to California because of my mother. Her boyfriend, Andrew, wanted her to move in with him. My brother and I had to move too. "Allison Munroe, get your lazy butt off that bed and go to school!" yelled my mother from her bedroom. I was still in bed and did not want to go to school because I didn't want to say goodbye to my friends. "Come on Ally, get up before mom goes crazy like usual", my brother Ryan said as he stuck his head in my bedroom. "Fine", I said as I got up. "Hey I know that you are upset about the move, but think about it we are going to start all over in California and meet new people and get to know all the cool places and plus our friends would be jealous". Ryan always looked at the bright side in everything. "Yeah that's true". Our friends always wanted to visit the golden state because they wanted to get a tan. Everyone was white here. Ryan is my only sibling and the best brother ever. He was 21 years old and yeah he still lived with my mom and me. He was about six feet tall, brown eyes and hair. He was good looking. Girls are always all over him. As for me I am 17 years old, black hair and brown eyes and some guys are interested in me but my mother doesn't let me have a boyfriend. I don't understand how she can have a boyfriend and I can't. She says that men are horrible, they only break your heart and she doesn't want be to go through a heartbreak. She made me scared to love someone. My father abandoned us when I was 7 years old. I had no idea why he left. He was the best father in the world. My mother has never wanted to tell me why he left. Ryan knows, but he also doesn't want to tell me. I remember my father very well. He used to tell me I was beautiful and gave me a nickname. He called me Sonny because I always had a smile on my face and well I was simply sunny all the time. Since he left no one has called Sonny in ten years. I miss him and think about him every single night. I wonder where he lives and what is he doing. Does he even miss me? Since then my mother has hated me. Did I cause him to leave? Why won't anybody tell me what happened? I am very health conscience and was at risk of being diagnosed with an eating disorder a couple of years back when I was barely starting of high school. Like I said my mother hates me and makes me feel like crap and useless. I am now a junior and make people think that I got over my health obsession. Some of my friends know and of course Ryan and mother know. When I get to California I don't want anyone to know about my secrets.

"Ally I am going to miss you so much!" my best friend Lucy said while I was cleaning out my locker. "I'm gonna miss you too Luce". Lucy and I have been friends since kindergarten and have never been apart. "I swear I'm gonna text you and call you every day. Awww man why did your mom have to get a boyfriend and drag you guys all the way to Cali?" I ask myself that question every day. "I know right" I said as I closed my locker. I didn't know I had a bunch of crap inside. "Do you think your mom is finally gonna let you have a boyfriend in California?" asked Lucy excitedly. "I highly doubt it; she hates me so much that she won't let me have a love life". We were walking out of the school and we stood waiting for my mom and Ryan to pick me up. We were leaving to California right away. "That sucks, if I were you I would have like a secret boyfriend and sneak him in the house at night when everyone's asleep" oh Lucy she was a rebel and has had multiple boyfriends. "You know what I don't really want a boyfriend. I don't want someone who checks up on me 24/7 and break my heart or uses me". It was true I have seen my friends' relationships end in disaster and I didn't want to go through that. Sure it would be nice to have a nice guy around to tell me nice things and make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world and…."Allison!" I heard my mom yell from the car. Whoa I must have zoned out. What the hell? Lucy and I turned towards each other. "I guess this is goodbye" I said tearing up knowing that I won't see her in a very long time. "Yeah it is. Don't ever change Ally. Don't let California get to you" she said as we hugged "I won't change, I promise." We let go and she put her hands on my shoulders. "And Ally please please PLEASE stay healthy and strong. Don't compare yourself to others and don't fight with your mom that much". We were crying. "Alright" I couldn't say I promise.