Hard to Live

A:N/ okay so this is my first straight fan fiction and of course the pairing is Izzie and George! I love this pairing with a passion that has yet to fade. It makes me so happy that I can actually stick to pairings that are good. I know it isn't exactly normal for a guy to be writing his like ninth story and it being his First straight one, but here I am writing one so….

Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy or any of the characters because if I did it would be very different.

Chapter One

Love Lost.

I remember I was talking to Alex then everything went black, it felt as though this weight had been dropped onto my chest and now I couldn't breathe. I walked down the hall quickly trying to get on the elevator before it closed my heart racing as I barely stopped it in time. I lifted my dress as I stepped onto the elevator; this dream seemed so familiar, Denny would be waiting when the elevator stopped as always, so I tried to put on my best game face for him. What I wasn't expecting for George to be at the stop in a military uniform with a vacant expression on his face. I tried to speak but I couldn't.

My mouth wouldn't even open, and I felt cold panic sweep over me when I realized the truth; I was dead, and I had signed the DNR papers, there was no reviving me, but Alex probably wouldn't have that, he would totally disobey my orders. That was one of the things I love about him. But if I was dead, what was George doing here. It hit me again, he was dead too. I tried to step out of the elevator but George put his hand on my shoulder and shook his head.

"You don't have a place here, I won't let you come in." He whispered into my ear. I tried to speak again but couldn't and I felt my eyes begin to sting telling me that I was going to cry at any moment. All I could do was shake my head and, grab his hand, trying to pull him on the elevator with me.

"No, it's my time, but you have your whole recovery ahead of you, you will be fine without me." The tears fell at a breakneck pace as I realized something that I had forgotten about for a while now.

"George I'm still in love with you." I sobbed out, surprised that I could still even speak. Then the elevator doors closed and I woke up. "George!" I gasped out, barely able to even talk.

A:N/ yeah sad right? I died writing this chapter, but this all going to be more, next chapter will be a lot longer, review and tell me what you think? No flames please…?