Oh no!

She'd been sick in the mornings lately and had been trying to hide it from the team especially since Hotch's engagement and the fact Beth was pregnant. It still really stung that this was happening. She'd come back to Quantico to see if she had a chance with Hotch and there clearly wasn't if he was engaged. She'd learnt she was in love with him while in hiding and she'd been trying to wake up the courage to tell him only to see him get together with Beth.

There had been a chance two weeks ago but Beth had called up the next morning to tell him she had something she needed to tell him. He'd come over after having a fight with Beth and they'd gotten drunk ending up in bed together. Shortly after they woke up together and she felt happy at last Beth had called. Turned out she was pregnant and next she knew they were engaged and having a baby.

It was just like her to do that and sometimes she wondered if Beth had done it on purpose. Emily hadn't seen Beth since high school but back then she'd stolen every guy she'd expressed an interest in. She had no idea how she'd even found out about her feelings for Hotch but part of her believed she had somehow. For his sake though she hoped Beth had changed and it was all coincidence. After all it had been years since high school and it would be childish if she really was doing this.

As long as Hotch was happy she'd put up with her. I mean it was childish to let this rivalry return and Hotch wasn't some prize to win. He was a human being with feelings and if he didn't love her so be it. She would always love him but she wouldn't fight for him if he was happy. If he loved Beth then she wouldn't stand in the way no matter how much it hurt.

She had a doctor's appointment this morning which he'd let her have time off for. He'd been avoiding her since that night and it hurt so badly. He wouldn't even look at her when she asked for the time off to see the doctor. Was it going to be like this from now on? Did he regret sleeping with her? It had meant so much to her now he wouldn't even acknowledge her.

Whilst at the doctors she had to take a urine sample and they tested it. They looked back with a smile on their face.

"What is it?" she asked anxiously. Why were they smiling? She was being sick every morning and the doctor was smiling. Oh god no! She couldn't be!

"Congratulations you're going to be a mummy," the doctor answered. Emily's face fell further even more. She was pregnant. No this was terrible. She could never give up this baby as she'd always wanted to be a mother but there was only one man who could be the father and he was engaged and expecting a baby with another woman.

"No! I can't be!" she answered in disbelief feeling her heart sink. This couldn't be happening. If she was pregnant she had to leave Quantico. She couldn't stay around and complicate Hotch's life. It would only make his life difficult if she stayed around and had his baby but there was no way she was going to get rid of this child. It was the only connection she would ever have with the man she loved.

"Well the evidence says you are..." she nodded numbly and decided to accept she was finally having a baby. Just not the way she had hoped. Just not the way she had hoped. She was on her own. The father was engaged and having another baby with someone else. There was no hope. She wasn't the kind of woman that broke up a relationship. He couldn't know about the baby. It would only mess things up for him and Beth was the first woman he'd had since Haley. She knew if she told him he'd run after her.

The doctor looked confused at Emily's reaction and asked, "Would you like me to schedule an abortion?" Emily looked at him horrified. She could never go through another abortion and definitely not of Hotch's child. This was all she was ever going to have of him. There was no way in hell she was going to get rid of this baby. Her biggest regret had been her abortion when she was fifteen but it was probably for the best.

"Absolutely not," she answered though she felt she'd lost control. What was going to happen now? She had to leave but to where? There was no way she could stay here. She was having her boss' baby; the boss she was madly in love with but was engaged and starting a family with her high school enemy. She wouldn't complicate his life or stay and watch him being happy with another woman and raising their kid when that was all she'd ever wanted with him. It would slowly kill her inside and her child didn't need that.

Where was she going to go? If she stayed in America there was always the risk of running into him on some case and she never wanted to see him again as it would only stir up feelings and she had to hide her child from him. She had been offered a job in London running the Interpol office. Maybe she should take it. She could make it a desk job so she could be there for her child.

It was the best option she decided as she called Clyde Easter to accept the job and explain she was pregnant and had to get out of the country. Via her iPad she booked herself a plane ticket for tomorrow. She knew it was too sudden but knowing she was pregnant with his baby she had to get away. She could never let him know about the baby. Also with the knowledge of her pregnancy it was going to hurt so badly to carry on seeing him daily and him making a life with Beth.