Disclaimer: This song is owned by The Fray (I think) and Ben and Alex belong to Anthony Horowritz

Ben's POV

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

Why didn't I listen? He told me he wanted to talk about this but I ignored him.
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

I wouldn't listen he told me he was fine but he really just needed some help
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right

He started avoiding me, and I let him not truly knowing what was wrong
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

This is all my fault. Why did I let him into our world? He's too, was, too young

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness

If I had listened he wouldn't have pulled that trigger
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

If I had know how to help you, you would still be here

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best

I don't, I let him do this to himself
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence

I tried to pretend nothing was wrong
Lay down a list of what is wrong

Me, that's what's wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you

I pray, that he finally found peace

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice

It wasn't like that. He told me he wasn't going on that mission, I forced him which drove him over the edge I was supposed to be there for him
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed

I lost the road, I was too absorbed in my own problems
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same

He chose the hard way, or maybe it was easy for him?
And you begin to wonder why you came

How to save a life

It's all my fault…
How to save a life

It's all my fault…
How to save a life

It's all my fault…
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How to save a life

Goodbye Alex, I pray you've finally found your peace

A/N: This is what happened, Alex refused to go on a mission, but MI6 was going to make him so he went to Ben and said 'I don't want to if I have to, maybe death is a better option' Ben ignored him and started yelling at him about being selfish and not caring about his country. So Alex went home and killed himself and Ben feels really guilty