Disclaimer: This song is owned by The Fray (I think) and Ben and Alex belong to Anthony Horowritz
Ben's POV
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
Why didn't I listen? He told me he wanted to talk about this but I ignored him.
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
I wouldn't listen he told me he was fine but he really just needed some help
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
He started avoiding me, and I let him not truly knowing what was wrong
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
This is all my fault. Why did I let him into our world? He's too, was, too young
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
If I had listened he wouldn't have pulled that trigger
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
If I had know how to help you, you would still be here
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
I don't, I let him do this to himself
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
I tried to pretend nothing was wrong
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Me, that's what's wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God, he hears you
And pray to God, he hears you
I pray, that he finally found peace
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
It wasn't like that. He told me he wasn't going on that mission, I forced him which drove him over the edge I was supposed to be there for him
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
I lost the road, I was too absorbed in my own problems
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
He chose the hard way, or maybe it was easy for him?
And you begin to wonder why you came
How to save a life
It's all my fault…
How to save a life
It's all my fault…
How to save a life
It's all my fault…
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Goodbye Alex, I pray you've finally found your peace
A/N: This is what happened, Alex refused to go on a mission, but MI6 was going to make him so he went to Ben and said 'I don't want to if I have to, maybe death is a better option' Ben ignored him and started yelling at him about being selfish and not caring about his country. So Alex went home and killed himself and Ben feels really guilty
