Jerome

If your going to kill your self don't do what I did its better to do it a way that's quick so you don't have to watch the few people who actually care about you suffer. If you die quickly away from people who will try to save you, you will end up like me.

If you are a jerk you will laugh at the creatively stupid way I decided to go. I spent 3 hours pealing the plastic off my phone charger, tied it around my neck, plugged it in, and poured water on it. I'm surprised I'm not dead yet. But the doctor said I probably wouldn't last long. I've only been in the hospital for 10 minutes. That means I've been watching Mara and Trudy cry for 10 minutes. That hurts way worse than being shocked from your neck.

People say its worse to watch someone you love die, than to be the one dying. But the truth is its worse to watch the people you love suffer while you die and it's know it's all your fault. I wish I would have thought about them before I did this to my self. Now I realise that in a way suicide is selfish because you're taking away all your suffering and pain giving it to someone els. They don't deserve that.

At least I know they care, bury they will never know I do I can't speak. My vocal chords where burned. The shock is still going through very slowly it it is just know getting in to my chest and there is only about 1 minute until it gets to my heart. I have 1 minute to live. It will all be over in just 1 minute.

I can't stand to watch Mara cry any more, so I decided to close my eyes and wait for death.


I don't really know if that thing with the shock moving to his heart or his vocal chords being burned is even possible but it's fiction. It might not even be possible to survive that long after being shocked in the neck either. Oh well.