The Truth Hurts More Than the Lies







It freaks me out

The thought of going through this life without you

I need you to help me make it through the night

The truth hurts more than the lies.

~Tom Wilson







Spike sighed to himself and leaned up against Buffy's -old- gravestone.

"Slayer, Slayer..." he mused, tracing the letters with his finger, "It's so hard. So damn hard. Why did they have to bring you back? I mean, not that I'm not thrilled or anything....but you're not, and that's way more important.

Why did they do it? I think Giles understands, I understand. I even think Anya understands. None of the rest do. I think Willow and Xander are delusional, and Tara is way too supportive of Red, she's blind. I know you want to go back.

I know you still have that death wish.

But, oh god please, don't leave us again. Don't do it. It would hurt more than anything. Besides, they would figure it out if you did. They would figure out that you were happy. I know, I know, the truth hurts more than the lies but maybe they do need to know. They'll find out eventually. You and I both know it. Just...tell them. Say something. You're just making them more worried than they already are."

He kissed the stone gently, " I hope whatever happens, you'll end up happy, Buffy. Honestly. You deserve it."