(Gerard`s POV)
I am sitting outside his window like some sort of stalker Gerard thought to himself. I know he is in there with him even in his mind he practically spat on the word him. How could he do this to me my own brother went after the guy I love. Mikey knew exactly how I felt about Frank but no that did not stop him from going after him while I was away at Rehab.
(Frank`s POV)
I knew he was outside; Gerard always came and sat outside my window when Mikey was over. I knew I should be a little creeped out that my best friend was stalking me, but no matter how hard I tried I could not be mad at Gee. I did of course love him, but I also loved Mikey. I glanced down at my lap where Mikey laid his eyes closed in peaceful sleep. I sighed then looked out my window wondering if I should message Gee and tell him that I know he is there.
"Gee why must you sit outside my window, making me love you even more? I love Mikey, but that still does not take away the feelings I have had for since I was 13" I sighed to myself glad that Mikey was asleep and could not hear me talking to myself.
(Mikey`s POV)
I was laying in Frank`s lap in a half sleep state, my eyes closed but my body not fully shut down in sleep mode. I was getting ready to open my eyes and kiss him when I heard him talking to himself.
"Gee why must you sit outside my window, making me love you even more? I love Mikey, but that still does not take away the feelings I have had for you since I was 13" he sighed. As soon as those words had left his mouth my heart nearly stopped. My Boyfriend loves my brother, and my brother loves him, but so do I I thought as I continued to pretend to be asleep so Frank wouldn't think I had heard him. Frank laid down gentle enough not to disturb me he was slightly crying and all I wanted to do was hug and kiss him. I knew I should be mad but I couldn`t be mad at him. I had put him in a really tough position. I knew exactly how the two felt for each other but I was selfish and wanted Frank all for myself, and now it was all my fault that he was upset and crying.
(Gee`s POV)
I could hear Frank crying from inside his room and the sound broke my heart and brought tears to my own eyes. I stood up slowly dusting the dirt and grass off of my faded black jeans. I turned to stare at his window one last time before I slowly headed towards the street pulling up my hood to hide my identity. The night air was cold against my face and it stung my face where the tears had stained it. I couldn't help but cry. The guy I have loved since I was 16 was in his room lying in my brother`s arms crying and there was nothing I could do about it. I continued to walk down the streets, the signs and houses all blurring and missing with my tears. I had decided not to bring my car so it wouldn't look to obvious and right now I was wishing I had brought it.
(Frank`s POV)
I laid there crying for who knows how long until I fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning Mikey was curled up to me dried drool on the corners of his mouth. I couldn't help but smile at how cute he looked sleeping, but no sooner than I did that I remembered why I had been crying last night and I almost started crying again.
(Mikey`s POV)
I woke up to find Frankie crying again. He didn't know I know I was awake and staring at him his eyes were shut and tears stained his face. I leaned up and kissed him his face tasting of salt and sadness. He stiffened a little startled by my kiss.
"Please do not cry Frankie" I pleaded as he continued to cry. He pulled away from me and got up. He stumbled and nearly fell as he ran into the bathroom that was attached to his room and slammed the door in my face. I could hear him in there sobbing and I had no idea what to do so I just grabbed all my things and left.
(Frank`s POV)
I was startled when Mikey leaned up and kissed me and then I did the worst thing I could have done I got up and ran to my bathroom like a little girl. I shut the door behind me and began to cry even more. I could hear Mikey outside my door gathering his things and leave. I sunk down to my knees pulling them close to my chest. I couldn't stand this. I loved Mikey, but I loved Gee more…why did Gee have to get himself addicted to drugs and leave me? I thought to myself as I banged my head against my knees.
(Gerard`s POV)
I woke up in extreme pain. My body ached all over and my wrist was throbbing. Instantly I knew what I had done. I opened my eyes slightly and looked down and saw that my wrist was all bloody and meaty looking. I cringed closing my eyes as the memories flooded my mind. I ran into my room slamming the door behind me. I cried and cried. I was thinking about how much pain I was causing and that everyone would be better off without me. I had jumped up and ran to my closet where I grabbed out a shoe box. I sunk down to the floor opening the box. Inside the box lay an old kitchen knife caked with blood, and an old razor that was tinted crimson. I picked up the razor and laid the box down beside me. The tears blurred my vision and I had just started cutting every which way not caring if it killed me even though I knew the razor blade would not go deep enough to cause damage. I opened my eyes as the memories died. I looked back down at my wrist and crawled to my bathroom.
(Mikey`s POV)
When I got home all I wanted to do was talk to my big brother and have him help me with my problems I walked upstairs to Gerard`s room opening the door slightly as soon as I did that the pungent odor of blood flooded my nose. I threw the door open and turned the corner and saw a huge puddle of blood in front of his closet with his razor laying in the middle of it. I slowly approached the puddle and saw the trail leading to the bathroom. I was about to knock on the door when I heard a huge crash from the other side.
(Gerard`s POV)
I fell to the floor with a loud crash when I had tried to stand up causing the cuts on my wrist to reopen. The blood slowly just pooled at the surface of my skin but then it burst out and flowed onto the floor, and then everything went black.
(Mikey`s POV)
I threw open the door where I found Gee passed out from the loss of blood, My first reaction was to scream for our mom because that is what I had done in the past but when our parents found out we were both gay the kicked us out of the house. I sank down to my knees and cradled Gee`s limp body before I reached into my pocket and grabbed my cell phone. I opened the phone with shaking fingers and dialed 911.
"Hello I need an Ambulance to 3136 West Wing Way. Hurry my brother is dying!" I practically screamed tears running down my face.
"We will be there as soon as we can sir." The woman on the other end said. I didn't really hear her as I shut the phone and sobbed as I held my brother. It seemed like hours until the EMTs showed up. When they barged into the house I shouted that we were upstairs they found me cradling Gerard`s body his wrist still, but slowly, bleeding. The hunky men practically had to use the Jaws of Life to pry me from my brother. They loaded him up on a stretcher and wheeled him into the ambulance. The ride to the hospital all seemed a blur, when we arrived Frank was there waiting and I didn't even remember calling him. The rushed Gerard back to the ER and told me I had to stay out in the waiting room. I fell to the floor and cried Frank wrapped his arms around me and tried to calm me down.
(Frank`s POV)
When Mikey called me and told me that Gerard had tried to kill himself I nearly had a heart attack. I was pretty sure Mikey was completely out of it because when he saw me he hadn't even remember he had called me. The doctors told him he had to stay in the waiting room and he just collapsed onto the floor. I wrapped my arms around him not sure what else to do. I was fighting back my own tears. We sat on the floor for what seemed like hours, hell for all we knew it had been hours, but finally a young doctor walked out.
"Michael Way?" he asked. Mikey looked up and the doctor walked over to him. I help him up off the ground.
"I am Michael Way" he answered the doctor his voice cracking. I just stood silently beside him holding his hand. The doctor looked down at his clipboard and took a deep breathe.
"Your brother lost a lot of blood, we were able to stabilize him, but we will have to keep him here for a few days to keep an eye on him" he looked from me and Mikey then continued "he has been put on suicide watch and will be restrained. Mikey nearly fell over when the doctor said that they would have to have Gee restrained.
"When can I see my brother?" Mikey asked as he regained his composure. The doctor told him that as soon as they get him into a room and all settled someone would come down here and let us know what room he was in and then we could go see him. We thanked the doctor then went and sat in the far corner of the room. Mikey rested his head on my shoulder and fell asleep.
(Gerard`s POV)
I woke up in small white room, I jerked startled but something wouldn't let me pull my arms up. I looked down to find that my arms had been restrained to the bed. A little further up my arm was an IV. The long clear tube was not as clear as it pushed blood into my body. Around was wrapped in a thick layer of white gauze. I heard footsteps in the hall and muffled sniffles and I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep
(Mikey`s POV)
I had fallen asleep on Frank`s shoulder exhausted from all the crying. When the orderly came to tell us where Gee was I had just woken up. Now I and Frank were walking down the hallway, the walls were so white and it felt like the place was going to close in around me. We walked into the room, Gerard`s eyes were closed and he looked so peaceful. I walked over to him and hit him in the stomach his eyes shot open and he glared at me.
"Why did you hit me?" he almost shouted.
(Gerard`s POV)
I heard them come into my room and I was about to open my eyes when someone hit me in the stomach. My eyes shot open and I say Mikey standing above me and I glared at him.
"Why did you hit me?" I asked and he just glared at me, and walked the corner of the room.
"Why the hell would you try to kill yourself? Why could you be so stupid?" he asked me and I could only seem to say one thing.
"Things would be better off without me" I managed. Frank looked at me and the look on his face told me that he knew I had been outside his house last night that he knew that I loved him, that he knew why wanted to die. I looked away from Frank and towards Mikey who was next to the bed again and this time he slapped me really hard across my face. A tear rolled down my cheek as Mikey left the room, left me alone…with Frank.
(Frank`s POV)
I watched as Mikey slapped Gee then left. I knew I should follow after him, but I was just so happy that Gee was okay and I didn't want to leave him. I walked over to his bed and rubbed his reddened cheek. He turned away from me and began to blush.
"Gee I was so worried about you. I thought I…that we had lost you." I told him and he looked back at me tears in his eyes.
"I`m sorry" he choked out as he began to cry more. I hugged him and wiped away his tears.
(Mikey`s POV)
I slapped Gee and left the room, left the hospital. I was so angry that I hadn't noticed that Frank had not followed me out until I was already standing at the bus lane. I felt betrayed, angry that my boyfriend cared more about my brother than me. I was crying now as I sat on the bench.
"Are you okay?" an angelic voice asked me. I looked up to see a cute guy with long fluffy curly hair looking at me. I was stunned for a moment and I couldn't answer. He sat down next to me and wiped away my tears. "Hi, I`m Ray."
"I`m Mikey, and no I`m not fine. My brother just tried to kill himself and my boyfriend loves him more than he loves me." I sobbed the strange angel wrapped his arms around me and cooed.
"Awe you poor thing, Shhh its okay dear, that's right just let it all out." I unintentionally curled up to the man and cried my eyes out. I cried for a good fifteen minutes and he just sat there and comforted me. After I finished crying I looked up at him his face was inches from mine, his warm breath was soft against my face, before I even realized what I was doing I kissed him to my surprise he kissed me back.
(Ray`s POV)
I was walking to the store when I say a really cute guy sitting on the bus bench alone and crying. I sat down beside him and asked him what was wrong. He told me then started crying really hard. I wrapped my arms around him and comforted him. We sat like that for a while him crying in my arms. When he stopped crying he looked up at me his beautiful brown eyes just staring at me. Our faces were so close and then he kissed me and I guess I surprised him cause I kissed him back.
