CHAPTER 1- Options
"Never let the challenge of the unknown limit your decisions. We do not improve ourselves through changing exactly the same."
Little did I know that my daily blog entry would be words that I myself would need to follow but life always works in mysterious ways. Alone in my room, I stare into the mirror thinking about last night as I try to decide what to do, I know have a decision to make. This is not like any other I have ever made before. It is unbelievable what difference one night can make and how just one person can open up a door to a new world of possibilities. This world will change my life and me completely but what scares me the most is will it be for better or for worse?
I never thought of myself as different from most. I am just your average 25 year old. Graduated from college, got a job that I love as freelance writer, I pay taxes and I want what everyone wants: to be loved and have someone to share my life with. But all my life it's been a constant struggle looking for love. 'You will find someone,' has been said to me over and over again throughout my life. 'You will find someone who is just right for you,' but I have been burned so many times that I have just given up looking. I don't want much, just someone to share my thoughts with, someone to send a quiet night with and someone to make me feel like I am worth spending time with. However, I've grown used to being alone.
Being alone has grown comfortable to me. I live with my best friend and most of the time she is off with her boy toy of that week so I have the place to myself but she constantly drags me out trying to push me at guys or guys at me. Ignoring her doesn't work, she just brings them back to our place so knowing that when she texted me to bring my ass out to the local bar last night I knew I better just do it. After pulling on my fave jeans and a black top I stand in front of the mirror. I roll my brown eyes at my reflection and pull my long brown hair up as I brush it letting it fall back down over my shoulders. I am just considering trying to make an excuse when my cell goes off and it's my roomie again. I sigh as I take the call and head to the bar quickly. Sitting at a bar table with my best friend and roommate Kari and her new boyfriend I am rolling my eyes at their latest attempt to play matchmaker. He is cute enough but so obvious as he asks me why a girl like me is still single. I shake my head, making my long dark brown hair move across covering my right shoulder as I fix my chocolate eyes on him. Leaning forward I roll my eyes at him, "Sorry, I have tried the boyfriend/girlfriend thing several times and yeah that ended badly. Then I tried the fiancée/fiancé twice...was married the once 'til we both realized that we wanted different things. I am too young to give up my career to have a house full of kids that I am not sure I want at all. So now, I am just looking for someone to have fun with. I have given up on love." I watch his face pale and then stand up to head to the bar.
After my harsh words Kari is glaring at me as I walk away from my intended date who is just watching me blankly. I am halfway to the bar when Kari catches up to me. Her eyes are bright blue flashing with anger at me. "Vi what the hell is your problem tonight?"
I shake my head at her, "Kari don't start this again, did I ask you to do that?"
"I have to ask to get my best friend to meet a nice guy now?"
"Do we really need to go through this again here?" I pull her to me and whisper furiously to her. "How many times do I have to be hurt before you let me just be happy being single?"
Kari shakes her head at me this time, "I will never let you be single. Victoria would you please listen to me. You deserve to find someone who loves you like David loves me."
I can't stop myself from rolling my eyes at her as I hiss back, "and how long have you two know each other?"
"Oh wait okay I can see this is hopeless right now. Fine go be happy and single for the night." She walked back to the table with the guys. I see they are both watching me but I just shake my head again and turn back to the bar. Leaning against a bar stool sipping my beer is where he found me. Just a brief glance made me wonder what was it about him...as I peeked over at him I felt weak in the knees, so I bowed my head to let my hair tumble over my red face. I sigh and then heard him ask, "So, is this seat taken?"
Slowly lifting up my head, I pulled my hair to one side as I fixed my eyes on his. I had to turn my head up, seeing as he towered over my tiny 5'6 height. I guess him to be well over 6 ft tall and in his eyes, those bright green eyes, I see a twinkle of mischief and his face draws my interest as I stare at him. I laugh softly to cover up the nervousness he makes me feel, before I answer him. "That seat is not taken and neither is this one," I motion to the seat I am just leaning against.
As I stare at him his face suddenly changes to a stern look that makes me stand up straighter as he questions me, "if I buy you a drink will you sit?"
His words feel like an order, like a challenge and it leaves me breathless. What the hell is it about him? He makes me want to say yes to whatever his orders are but I shake it off trying not to show his effect on me. "I already have a drink, thanks." His lips curl into a frown that makes me bite my lip, I don't like knowing I have displeased him...this random stranger who has such as effect on me already so I whisper softly, "but if you want to buy me another I will sit."
A wide grin appears on his face and the twinkle returns to his eyes, "good girl, good answer," is his reply while he motions to the bartender. To his words I feel as if he is laughing at me but then our eyes meet and again I am overwhelmed. Something in his eyes takes me over and I sit down quickly on the bar stool. He grins again, "good girl."
A few drinks later I am finally feeling myself with him when we start asking each other questions. I laugh when he asks for my name while he runs his hand through his short brown hair making it stand straight up. "My name is Victoria. What's yours?"
That grin of his is there again as he answers, "Robert, that's me. So tell me Victoria how are you here drinking all alone and how hard it would be for me to whisk you off someplace more private?"
"Nice to meet Robert and you are forward but I like that. I am single by choice and where would you whisk me too?"
"If I said you ask too many questions and you should just trust me, would you Victoria?" I look into his green eyes and see that challenging look again. I don't speak but just nod.
From that point on I let him have control of the night...he chose where to take me and no questions were asked. When we arrived at his place I found myself being pushed against the wall while he kissed me for the first time. That kiss was hard and deep as he took me by surprise. I gasp at the force he used to push his tongue into my mouth as if claiming me then he whispers to me, "Do you know what a Dominant is?" I stare at him and shake my head confused. "If you let me I can teach you so much."
My eyes widen as I listen to his words making me then frown. "Dominate me, exactly what does that mean?"
He kisses me again then starts to whisper in my ear what a Dominant is.
Dominant is one who assumes a role of power or authority in a power change relationship. A dominant takes over psychological and physical control of another giving order to be obeyed.
His kisses come at me harder and harder making me breathless but his hand in my hair keeps me there. I can't move away till suddenly he pulls my hair hard making me wince as my neck bends backward. "Victoria I want you as my sub."
"What is a sub?"
Submissive is one who assumes a role of submission in a power change relationship. A submissive is a person who seeks a position of or occupies a role of intentional, consensual powerlessness, allowing another person to take control over them.
"So you want me to be your slave?" I scowl at him.
"A submissive is not a slave Victoria. You will very taken care of and I know of no other bond as powerful and strong as the sexual connection between a Dominant and his loving Submissive." I stare at him as he suddenly pulls my hand leading me down a long hallway in his apartment. "Come let me give you one night, one example of what it would be like to be mine. Will you consent to that?"
He stops outside a door gazing into my eyes as I whisper to him, "One night, yes. Show me what you want from me."
TO SERVE- the Submissive shall serve the Dominant in any way the Dominant sees fit and shall endeavor to please the Dominant at all times to the best of her ability.
As the door swings open, he reaches to turn on the lights. I blink in the harsh light as I peer around me. The walls are black and there is not a lot of furniture. I see a large 4 post bed in one corner with ropes attached to each post. I swallow nervously as I don't recognize anything else in the room. There is a chair that is covered in harnesses and the legs, oh lord. The legs are full-length also covered with harnesses and its looks like the legs move so the person strapped in would be suddenly tied down legs spread wide open. I turn to him and shake my head. He doesn't say a word but points to the other side of the room where a large cross is attached to the wall. It is also covered in harnesses and next to it is a wall of what looks like whips and canes. I start to take a step back towards the door but as I move I feel something brush my head. I gaze up to see a cord with attachments hanging from the ceiling. I try to speak but at first my voice fails me then I manage a whisper to him, "what is all this?"
He looks around with a look of pride shining in his green eyes, "these are my toys. This is my playroom where you will serve me."
"What exactly do you mean by serve? Do you mean sex?"
"There is more to it Victoria than just sex. As my submissive you would allow me to train you, to control you and to discipline you as we explore your limits and your desires."
"Explore?" I gasp at those words and feel my knees shake. He comes to me taking a hold of my arm pulling me to the bed to sit down as his green eyes look me up and down. "Yes explore, how do you ever know if you like something if you don't try it? I will help you test what you enjoy and don't as I train you. As you tell me what you enjoy we will focus on those things alone. Shall we begin our example night? Or are you too weak for it?" I shake my head no and he pulls me back to my feet in front of him then kisses me hard. He breaks the kiss to whisper in my ear, "from this moment on I am in control of you. You will call me Master and as you serve me you will obey my orders without comment or hesitation, do you understand?"
"I do." I answer softly then he changes in front of me. His jaw tightens as he orders me to strip to my bra and panties and his eyes seem to harden. I open my mouth to question him but just a raise from one of his eyebrows I am reminded of my place. I strip down at once under his stern stare as I remember I am to obey my Master always.
To obey-The Submissive shall obey the rules at all times set out in this agreement.
"Victoria, lie down on the bed face up." I obey without comment letting myself sink onto the large bed as he watches. "Good girl, being a good sub means to obey without a thought. To give up all control to your Master and to trust that your Master will never hurt you. If you obey as you should you will not be punished but rewarded."
I can't stop myself from asking, "Punished?"
"As you are trained, there will be limits pushed as I will show you. Now reach your hands over your head and spread your legs wide to the sides." I nod and obey at once but my eyes are wide with fear, he sees this and leans down to kiss my lips softly, "good girl, don't worry I don't plan to punish you until we have a signed contract but I want you to understand how I will be testing you." As he speaks he ties down first my wrists to the headboard then moves down to my ankles. As I realize how trapped I am I start shaking. I feel exposed and not sure this was a good idea. Tears come to my eyes and I can't stop them. "Victoria this is not about scaring you. This is about pleasure, trust me." He stands up and takes off his shirt before he moves back to sit next to me on the bed. He moves slowly to sit between my wide spread thighs but does not touch me yet. He leans down so I can feel the warmth from his breath over my clit as he speaks. I wiggle as much as I can while restrained and moan. "This is all about trust; trust that I will not hurt you. Obey without question and let your Master guide you. For tonight only I will ask for your permission to touch you as we do not have a signed contract yet."
"But why do we need a contract?"
"To let us both know what the limits are and so you know what's expected of you. This is not a boyfriend and girlfriend arrangement Victoria. I will expect more of you than any boyfriend but I will respect you more and care for you more as well."
I nod and gaze at him, "so this is more than just a sex thing?"
"Victoria, it is but no more questions tonight or I will just untie you and this will be over, is that what you want?"
He is still breathing his hot breath on me and its making me wetter by the moment. "No please don't stop. I will ask no more questions.
TO SUBMIT-The Submissive shall submit to any sexual activity demanded by the Dominant and shall do so without hesitation or agreement.
"Then it's time for you to submit to me tonight, give yourself into my hands." I watch as he suddenly moves from the bed and then comes back to straddle me. His jeans are rough against my bare skin and my heart lurks in anticipation of what he is doing as he leans over me with a black satin blindfold in his hands. "Before we continue and you submit I want you to know that I will not fuck you without a signed contract but I will give you a taste of what to expect. Do you submit?"
"Yes." I whisper.
"Yes what and louder." He demands with the blindfold still in his hands.
"Yes Master."
"Good girl." I hear his words as he slips the blindfold over my eyes and I am now blind. I listen intently as I feel the bed move under me. I feel his jeans brush against my leg as he moves back down between my legs. "Now I'm going to touch you Victoria but if you need me to slow down the safe word is 'yellow' or if I push you to the point you can take no more the safe word is 'red' and I will stop at once."
"Yes Master." I whisper then I feel him touch me for the first time as his finger tips brush down my cheeks then my neck. Then his fingers are tracing my breasts through my bra moving lightly over my nipples as I moan.
"Good girl, now what are those safe words again Victoria?"
His fingers pinch my nipples hard making me cry out my answer, "yellow and red Master."
"Yes, now let's start." He leans down and I feel his tongue moving over my nipples through my bra then he pushes my bra up so my breasts are exposed. As the cold air washes over them I feel his warm lips on my nipples then a hard bite making me cry out. He pinches them harder and harder till I cry out as it makes me wetter and wetter. Then he starts biting my nipples moving from one side to the other over and over again harder and harder until I have no choice and cry out, "yellow." I feel him stop and then he moves on, his fingers trailing down my stomach lower and lower making me shake as I know where he is headed.
"For tonight only you can cum at will but part of your training to be a good sub is asking your Master if you may and learning how to control them if I deny your request. If you can, tell me when they are coming." I feel his fingers moving over the edges of my panties as he moves closer and closer to my clit still moving over my panties which are now so wet.
"Yes Master." I breath in hard as he pushes my panties to the side then continue to trace over me hitting my clit and the spreading my lips open so he can trace over me there alternating slow and slow teasing strokes with hard and fast punishing ones that leave me moaning for more. I want more, I need more and this feeling is just growing. I am on the edge so damn close but I can't arch my hips against his touch so I start to whimper.
"Don't whimper, tell me what you want Victoria."
"Yes Master, I want you to touch me."
"I am touching you." I whimper again and then bite my lip as his fingers continue to trace over me only.
"I want more."
"Victoria, just tell me what you want." He stops moving his fingers over me and I groan in protest.
I blush bright red and whimper again, my need so great I just can't stay on the edge anymore, "I want you to make me cum, fuck me."
"Victoria I won't fuck you the way you want right now but I will fuck you this way." I feel one of his fingers slip into me massaging me gently first running around and around my clit as he darts it in and out of me slow then fast. I moan and try to rock my hips against his touch but being tied down I can't. "Good girl, let me give you the release you need. And then I want you to think about how much more I can teach you when you are mine." I hear his words but before I can answer he thrust two fingers deep inside me finger fucking me harder and harder until I feel my thighs shaking and as I am covered in sweat I whimper once then cry out as I explode, "Master."
"Good girl, let go." His words are soft and I let go. I cry out over and over again as my body convulses around his fingers. Over and over again he brings me to climax. He changes from two fingers to one and from fast to slow. It feels like he is testing my limits each time it is a bit more intense, his touch varies but he never stops. I feel him slip 3 fingers into me and I moan out again. He continues his touch moving deep and hard then soft and slow. I suddenly feel myself being stretched wide as his fist enters me. I scream out and try to sit up pulling against my restraints as I cum so hard. My voice has grown hoarse from my cries until finally I can take it no more. As his fist darts deep in me I cum hard again and then once more I scream out but this time the safe word of "RED!" flies out of my mouth. His fingers move from me at once. I breathe in hard trying to slow my racing heart as I feel him untie my feet then my wrists. As he pulls off the blindfold I blink then stare at him. As I watch him he brings his fingers to his mouth licking them as I stare. "You are somewhat innocent aren't you? Just think of what I can teach you Victoria. I want to take you to places you have never been. Please consider this offer very seriously."
The first thing I do when untied is to rub my wrists as I stare at Robert. He lies down next to me with a grin on his face. I grin back at him breathlessly and nod, "I will consider it very carefully."
"Victoria you handled yourself very well, now after you serve me I reward you."
"Reward?" I feel my voice choke out that word as my eyes widen while I stare at him. "What that was not reward enough?"
"Oh no Victoria, that was not your reward but you see that serving me comes with build in rewards. I think I know something you might enjoy until we discuss formally your rewards." He motions for me to roll onto my stomach then he straddles me massaging first my neck then moving down to my shoulders. "Mmm that feels so good and you know you can just call me Vi, all my friends do."
Robert's hands grip my shoulders tighter for a moment as he answers, "No I like Victoria, here in my playroom that will be what I call you and you will call me Master. Now Victoria relax and enjoy your reward, no more talking." I nod and let myself drift off as he moves his hands down to my back. His touch is soothing and I wake up hours later confused not sure where I am. I hear a noise and realize he is curled up behind me, as I shift my body his hand pulls me back against him and I feel him hard brushing my leg. I don't want to wake him but I have to turn my head to stare at him, then suddenly his green eyes are open and gazing at me. "Shall I take you back to your car now?" I nod and he leaves the room while I dress. I peek around me again and wonder if I can ever feel comfortable in this room. All these things look so scary but yeah some intrigue me. I wander over to examine one of the chairs as he comes back into the room with my coat and purse. I hear him laugh softly, "See you are already wanting to learn and know more. Oh Victoria, that chair...I can see you naked and strapped in." He lets out a low whistle then comes to me holding out my coat. There is dead silence as we walk to his car and in his car the radio is the only sound to be heard. Suddenly I am nervous with him now. I can still feel him in the raw heat between my legs where his fingers were. Damn it's like my first time all over again and that thought makes me shift in my seat rubbing my thighs together. I glance over at him, he is watching me intently. I point to the road making him smirk at me. "And what is that smirk for Robert?"
"Just you Victoria and the things I want to do to you." He winks at me then turns his eyes back to the road. At my car he leans forward to kiss my lips softly and just as I lean closer wanting more he is gone. He watches till I am safely in my car then he leaves.
The next day I wake up a mess in my apartment soaking wet, sore as hell and with him on my mind. I try to pull him out of my mind as I start to work on my latest project but just then my cell lights up with an unknown call. I eye the number and refuse the call. Almost immediately I receive a text message.
"Victoria, I do hope that you can still feel me. This may be forward but what address can I send the contract to?"
