AN- Hey guys. I was reading New Moon a week ago and thought about this...so yea. Hope you like it! R&R!
Disc. Thankfully, I don't own Twilight...Trust me. That would be terrible.
Bella POV
" Bella? Bella!" Charlie sounds worried. That thought floats through my head.
I'm lying on my bed, staring at the pillows. Remembering. And it hurt. It hurt so bad, but yet, I couldn't stop.
He always comes creeping back into my thoughts. Like he crept into my heart and shattered it into a million tiny pieces. And I still couldn't find them all, to put my heart back together.
" Bella! You can't hide in there forever! Listen to me. He's not worth this. And you're much stronger than this."
I just sigh and ignore him. He doesn't understand. No one does.
They all say that it will get better. They're all wrong, it doesn't get any better. In fact, it gets worse.
Everyday when he's not there. Everyday that silver Volvo doesn't wait for me in the driveway. Every night when I try to sleep, and I remember him. How he used to hold me in his cold, hard, strong arms and hum my lullaby.
Bella stop. You're only making it worse, I reprimand myself.
Forget those times. He's gone. He's moved on. He doesn't love you anymore.
Those words cut like a knife.
I don't realize I am crying until I hear my sobs. They wrack my body, making me shudder. Gone. Really Gone.
The scream that rips out of my throat fills the room. Echoing my pain and slams back into me.
He did this to me. Broke my heart. And now I couldn't fix it.
I curl into a ball, ignoring Charlie, and pull the sheet up over my head.
I allow myself to cry until no more tears will fall. Then I simply curl up tighter and battle ferosioucsly with my thoughts.
My mind cruelly taunted me with flashes of his face. His velvety voice saying he didn't love me anymore.
Finally, finally, I pull myself together. I will not spend the rest of my life in here, mourning. Tomorrow I will get up and pretend. Tomorrow I will forget about him.
I knew that wouldn't be possible, no matter how stubborn I was.
Because, even after what he'd done to me, I loved Edwatd Cullen.
