Thoughts and Memories

I lie there wide awake in my room in the academy thinking about my childhood living with my awful mother Medusa. She never let me do what I wanted and made me kill animals even though I was 5 years old she never cared about me; I was a pawn in her plan. I'm glad I met Maka and that she became my friend and helped me out of the darkness I was in. "Thank you Maka."

I start to think about loneliness.

Loneliness, I know what this means I've known what it is for all my life it was my life, I hated it I had no one to pick me up when I fell, when I was upset or when I was hurt. I was left by myself to be independent at such a young age, to defend for myself but if I did anything my mother disliked I was locked in a dark room with Ragnarok, who always beat me up it wasn't my fault if I didn't want to kill an animal I was scared, it wasn't MY FAULT!

Maka's name comes into my head, friendship is what she granted me.

Friendship, the thing that brings me happiness, the gift Maka gave me. With Maka's help I've made so many new friends such as Soul, Black Star, Kid, Liz and Patty, Tsubaki and so many more, I cherish the friends I've made they help me when I'm stuck, they cheer me up when I'm upset and they look after me when they don't have to. I love my friends for helping me walk in the light. I thank them from the bottom of my heart.

The darkness I can feel it sometimes at night.

Darkness, it flooded my heart as a child but now with the help of others it's starting to clear my heart of it and let the light take its rightful place. Darkness corroded my heart after I killed a baby dragon I wasn't scared of it anymore I craved it I loved the darkness it was the only thing keeping me sane, but they I couldn't control the darkness inside me I lost my mind and the black blood that I had didn't help. Maka saved me she brought the light into the darkness in my heart it reached even into the darkest bits of my heart.

Light is what I feel when I'm around them.

Light, my friends brought it into my life. I know that it is defeating the darkness in the black heart. I know that this black heart is starting to turn the correct colour that it should be instead of the cold black stone that is called my heart. I love my friends they helped me through the pain and darkness and are bringing me into the light and letting me see the meaning of life.

A/N Hope you like it, it's my first fanfic so please review and let me know how I did, I got bored so I felt like writing some of my feelings and putting them into Crona's point of view because I can really understand him a lot in soul eater.