Perhaps the Reality
I don't own Naruto…I just borrowed the characters for my stories
By: Mikayel~ (11:27pm)
For all those times, I just wasted my time, hoping, believing, and wishing for you to come back. I didn't give up on every chance that I could get just to see you, but in the end I didn't get anything from always trying hard to search for you, instead you always let me down multiple times.
It's just I'm so fool to figure everything out that late, you were damned and even if you know well that I can help you, you wouldn't even give a chance to change.
I have my life now; free and happy with who and what I have.
And now you were in front of me with your fiery dark-gray eyes, you were in front of me saying the words I don't expect you to say even from the beginning.
"Look sakura…I'm sorry" You said looking sincere.
Do you think it will be fine? Just because you came back and just because you say sorry that's enough? Do you think that I can just forgive you in just a blink of an eye? No…not this time.
Actually I don't know what you have on your mind, I don't know why all of a sudden you came back, I don't know why the heck you were standing in front of me saying those "SORRY" words, I really can't accept them.
"Sorry?" I repeated almost chuckling
In my eyes you use to shine so bright, you use to be my number one, my only love and my strength. But that was fucking long ago.
Do you think that you could still attract me with your looks? With your eyes? With your smirks? With your hair-style? With the way you stare? Fuck no! I'm no longer a stupid child.
I let it all fade, all my feelings were absolutely gone, my anger, my sadness, my tears, my scars and my love for you and to tell you the truth I didn't change…I just grow up, just the way I should be.
"Yeah i said sorry" you repeated still with that sincere look on your face
I breathed in and sighed softly. Truthfully that sincere look doesn't really suit you.
"I can't forgive you" I said it, simple as that
I don't know I just can't, it's just right for all the things and hurtful things that he did…
You were here, you were back, but I don't, won't and will never care you know. Even if you apologize a thousand times, my answer will always be the same.
I had given him a lot of chances, I stopped him when I was twelve, I tried convincing him for the second time and I even propose that I could go with him but he attempted to kill me, and he appeared in front of us to help in the war but his intentions are just fake.
He don't really need to beg, I understood his reasoning now why he did all of those crimes. No need for further explanations.
He can tell me that he's sorry but I won't believe him. Ever.
"Sasuke…thank you" I said consistently
He frowned and he stared at me curiously.
"For what?" he asked genuinely
Every start has an end, and for us, it's just that way, forget, forgive and move on.
"For not loving me back" I said bluntly
Perhaps in another world, time and story we could be together, merrily love each other.
"Sakura…I did that because I…" he stopped because I made him to…I pressed his lips using my fingers and wiped it in his clothes…
"Because if you did? Probably, I would never realize how much I don't want you" I said breathing comfortably.
I don't even want him to stop his sentence, it would just hurt me anyway, I'm contend, with who I have, what I have and how I live my life these days, I just don't want to ruin it again.
I turned around and walked away silently.
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~whew…finished 12:34AM ~
I love sasusaku…but I always wonder why stories like this come up on my mind when I think of them… anyway…maybe next time…I'll try writing in a different style….
