Prompt:
'InthefreefallIwillrealiseI'mbetteroffwhenIhitthebottom'
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I guess there's something written in the stars. There's always been something planned out for you, situations given knowing what choices you will make. There's no doubt in your mind that you'll have times wanting to go back and change your decisions but you can't. That's just the way things work. And that's just how things worked out between Teddy and I.
We've been taught at a young age that trying times are no time to quit trying. Nevertheless, this lesson is gradually forgotten as time goes on. Just as things begin to get harder, you lose grip on the reality that you've been holding on to for such a long time. For this, major consequences are given. But we've been told that if we take what we're given, no matter the situation, we'll come out stronger. Or at least a changed person. However, this isn't always the case. We can, unfortunately, take what's been handed to us with high hopes of a self-esteem boost and get disappointed by being knocked down a few spots on the totem pole. And this is exactly the situation I've been presented with.
The whispers around the dinner table I could deal with ('He finally found a way to get into the family!' or 'Charmed him just like her mother charmed her father!') But the rumours speculating the Great Hall were just too much ('She only hooked him with her looks' or 'He doesn't really love her. He just wanted into the family') People say if you hear something enough, you start to believe it. That's exactly my case. I believed it all and eventually fell off the hypothetical cliff I was loitering the edge of. Whilst free falling, I quickly realised that I was better off the way I was before the second I hit solid ground. And as cliché as this might sound, I would kill for one more night with him, one more second alone.
He doesn't know. He doesn't know that with each look at him, the flesh wound reopens and bleeds the tears I cry. That though he's moved on, I've got my feet firmly planted on the ground. He doesn't know that I still love him.
