(Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note or any characters therein)
There was a song on the radio today while I was driving, and never before had I related to the lyrics of a song so much in my life. I would love to trade every mistake I'd ever made for sheep Matt, just for you, so that when you cant sleep you could count them so you could get some rest. I doubt that you'd even get to the end of the sheep. The opposite wouldn't work nearly as well; you've not made close to the amount of mistakes that I have. I've made so many… and my last one was you.
Don't take that badly Matty, you weren't the mistake, but my pursuit of you was. I should have left you alone, not get you into the case I'd taken on just to get back at Near for. My warped desire to become L skewed my thinking, and if I knew then what I know now I'd have left you the fuck alone. I'd have pretended I didn't even know you if that's what it would have taken.
Gawd Matty, I'm so sorry. I didn't have any intention of you biting the bullet. Not even figuratively, let alone literally. Why did you let me do it? Why did you even agree to that stupid plan.
I accelerate my bike faster, my goal now in sight. Nothing can stop the guilt, not as I see it. There is a very singular solution, Matty, and that is this big brick wall looming at me as my speedometer climbs over 60...
