A/N: Hey Guys! So, I just restarted Please be nice, Um.. You guys can call me Kat, and if you ever want a part in my story, PM me c:
That's pretty much it.
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The memories of how I got here are still fuzzy.
All I remember is the fight.
The last words I said to Him.
I was so angry then, so full of hate. Even now, all I can think about is how much I hate myself, and how much I hate the situation I am in. Everything about me is so hateful, even if I don't mean it to be. How could I hate him? How could I say the things I said to his face..? All he ever wanted was to make me happy.. I never thought I'd even make it this far without him, it's obvious I can't make it much farther. There's a voice calling my name.. It's his voice. I know it's his voice, I remember how it sounded. Even if I can't remember anything else, His voice is imprinted in my brain. I don't want to open my eyes. I refuse to, but I still hear him calling my name. It's getting farther away. With each breath I take, the less I can hear him, the fuzzier his picture gets in my head, the less I remember his smile, or his eyes. Everything is slowly getting louder, drowning out the memories I'd so carefully stored away. The memories of him, of our time together.. Of everything we'd worked so hard to get.. and how I threw it away.
Through the near deafening silence, I struggled to listen to the fuzzy words being said.
"Should I attempt to wake her?"
"No, too risky."
"Levi's right, we can't afford to lose her. She's a much too valuable asset-"
"STOP TALKING ABOUT HER LIKE SHE'S SOME DAMN WEAPON!"
That voice. I know that voice.
I feel my heart rate spike at the sound of it, I want to wake up. I try to move my arm to get their attention, but my arm suddenly feels like it weighs a million pounds. I begin to panic, What happened to me? Why was I not able to move, or wake up? I tried to scream, I screamed at the top of my lungs, but it appeared that only I could hear it.
I was scared now, what's happening? Where am I? I feel a pair of cold hands against my own.
"Don't worry.. I forgive you. I know you didn't mean it, I-..." He stopped. I wanted to cry, He forgives me. After all I said to him, He forgives me!
"I love you." His voice became very choked, Now I really wanted to cry. I wanted to throw my arms around him and comfort him. He still loves me.
'I love you too.' I thought, I feel a tear of his fall onto my cheek.
"I should've protected you! I shouldn'tve let you run off all my your damn self.."
'No, don't beat yourself up.. There's nothing you could've done!' I wanted to say, I feel him gripping my unmoving hand tighter. 'You couldn't stop it from happening to me.'
"I SHOULD'VE BEEN THERE!" He yells, as if he knows what I would've said. "I should've been there.. I-I should've gotten you out in time.. I shouldn't have let you go."
I realize now why he's crying. He thinks I'm leaving him alone in this world. 'No, Don't say that! I'm not leaving you! I'm right here!' I try to gather every last ounce of strength in my body to gently squeeze his hand back, but nothing's happening. Internally, I am screaming, I want to throw my arms around his neck and bury my face in his chest.
"It's all my damn fault."
'No, It's not.'
I feel him let go of my hand, a female voice speaking to him.
"There's nothing you could've done differently.. She will wake up. I promise you." The woman says, She's leading him away. His radiating warmth is leaving me. I soon enough only hear one more person in the room.
"Tch."
It's Lance Corporal Levi.
"Whether you live, or die, It's all up to you, Brat. We've done all we can. All that's left is for you to wake up."
I listen to his words, I feel trapped. I try my hardest to open my eyes. Nothing.
"Don't you dare leave him alone in this world, he won't last without you. He's so broken up. He believes it's his own fault you went and tried to get yourself killed."
I hear the emotion in his voice, Is... Is the Corporal.. crying?
"Why'd you have to be such a dumbass? We could've made it out alive, but no. You had to be the hero didn't you?"
I feel my heart pick up it's speed again, I listen carefully now.
"It's up to you." He whispers now, I can hear him choking back sobs. "You've got what you've always wanted. You have the final say, Life or Death. It's your choice."
My choice. I didn't want this choice, I don't want this. I want to wake up, I want to let him know I'm okay. I can't imagine such a strong man crying over me. Was I really that important to him?
"Choose wisely, you stupid brat.. You aren't just deciding for yourself anymore.. You decide for all of us."
I understand what he's saying, If I choose life.. I come back, I fight for my life, Everyone will react to my return.. If I choose death, I will die here, my body will eventually wither away, or worse, Become titan food. My loss will affect everyone. Levi, Hanji, everyone.
I hear Levi whisper something in french,
"La vie est pour la vie."
I remember when he used to teach me french, and bits and pieces of those memories returned. 'Life is for living.'
I couldn't quit now, I had to wake up. I had to.
Nothing was going to stop me now. I had to wake up, I had to hold them again. I had to see Hanji smile again, I had to hear her rant on and on about titans and how amazing they were. I had to survive, I couldn't just.. Leave that behind.
Could I?
A/N: This is the end of the pre-story. I hope you guys found it really interesting. Leave me some constructive critisim please c:
Thanks for reading.
