AN: My first venture into the "Twilight" fandom. Rosalie/Emmett.

I wasn't lying, when I told Bella I've never tasted human blood. That doesn't mean I haven't been responsible for several deaths, though. The murders, she knows about, and nothing will ever make me regret those. They deserved to die, the monsters.

Emmett, though... I saved him from the bear, only to take his life in another way. I begged Carlisle to change him, not trusting myself to do it. I was afraid to do it myself, worried that I might get carried away, not be able to stop once I tasted his blood. Carlisle was reluctant, and I don't blame him for that - he doesn't like to change people, you know, especially when they aren't about to die. Emmett would have healed, in time, lived a normal human life, married, had children. I was, I admit, completely selfish at the time. Still can be, sometimes.

Even now, the guilt still flares up occasionally. What right did I have to take away Emmett's life, to create a vampire, eternal and immortal, for my own selfish desires? I wouldn't be the person I am today without him, I can tell you that. He was, and still is, exactly what I need. I love him, that will never change.

It hurts when I see that Bella is so willing, even eager, to give up being human for the sake of love. She's throwing away a precious gift, and she doesn't even realise it. Could I do that, if it were Emmett and me in their situation? The honest answer is, I don't know. I'm not against the idea of having Bella as a sister, you need to understand that. Alice already thinks of her as part of the family, as do Carlisle and Esme. I'm the reluctant one, the one who cannot welcome her in the way I should. I'm working on it, believe me. I'm working on it.