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Never mine

By RawenclawBabe

Never mine

I loved you when I first saw you.

I loved you when we first met by the river near Spinner's End.

I loved you when I first saw you using you magical powers, growing flowers.

I loved you when I first told you about magic, when I called you a witch.

I loved you when you were angry with me for calling you a witch.

I loved you when we were dreaming of magic and Hogwarts with you.

I loved you when we were together.

I loved you when you were calling me Sev', no one else was allowed to call me this.

I loved you when your emerald green eyes were shining in adoration and happiness.

I loved you when we were sorted into different houses.

I loved you when you were Gryffindor and I was Slytherin.

I loved you when your house-mates bullied me.

I loved you when all your other friends and your sister hated me.

I loved you when you didn't take my concerns about werewolves and Marauders seriously.

I loved you when I saw you smiling at my tormentor while he was torturing me.

I loved you when I accidently insulted you –I wasn't thinking clearly.

I loved you when you called me Snivellus in return.

I loved you when you couldn't accept my apology.

I loved you when you hated me.

I loved you when chose my tormentor over me.

I loved you when you married the man who bullied me.

I loved you when you became friends with a man who tried to murder me.

I loved you when you sacrificed yourself for my bully's son – your son.

I loved you when it hurt to see your eyes looking at me with loathing out of my tormentor's face.

I loved you when it was torture to protect your son who hated me.

I loved when I saw your beautiful eyes in my tormentor's face while I was dying.

I loved you when you never loved me in return.

I loved you when I was never good enough for you.

I loved you when you were never mine to love.

I loved you when you were never mine.

I loved you.

Always…

A/N: Thinking about Severus' feelings for Lily, I decided to write this one-shot about his feelings – I think of it as an poetic experiment, all verses but one begin with an anaphora. Please review and tell me what you are thinking.