It was the first full day she was in New York City her emotions were high consdering this time yesterday she had thought everything was perfectly fine. But she was wrong. She found herself sad, but she was where she knew she needed to be and where she wanted to be. Just something was missing and that thing missing was Finn. She didn't understand why that he loved her so much he would just let her go like that but she also understood that he had loved her enough to let her do this on her own. She missed him so much already and it hadn't even been 24 hours yet. Her dads were annoying her. Everything they said had bugged her really.

Today they were going to NYADA to look at dorm rooms, she didn't really like any of them really, but her dads ended up deciding on one for her. The whole day to her seemed like a blur. That she was just standing there and the whole world was moving so fast. Everything happened to fast. It felt like her whole high school career went by too fast and she didnt like it. As she layed in her bed that night whenever she closed her eyes her face was there. She had to burry her face deeply in her pillows to keep from her dads hearing her in the other room. She didn't want to worry them. But boy was Rachel berry sad.

Two months passed by and her dads were no longer with her. She was pretty much alone. Untill school started in just two days. She looked forward to it. Hopefully to at least make one friend to not seem so alone. She talked to Kurt almost everyday and everyday she asked about Finn even he didn't have any information about him and it scared her. All she wanted to know is if he was okay and that he was doing alright for himself. After all he was her person her best friend not just the love of her life.

Today she decided she was going to go out and buy herself something new to wear on the first day. She was seeing how some of the girls dressed her and she wasn't in high school anymore she needed a change. New scenery equaled a new Rachel. She wished she had a girl with her with trying everything on but she delt with it. She was sending pictures to Kurt about some of the clothes she tried on and ultimately just used his opinion. After all of her shopping she went back to her dorm room and just put the headphones on and started to sing. It had been a while since the last time she sang it felt good but then again it made her sad. She just didn't want to feel sad anymore. She wanted to be wherever Finn was, she wanted to be back home. But she needed to be here and it wasn't about high school anymore it was about her future something she has been dreaming of doing since she was a kid. She just needed to get back into the determined Rachel she was not the love struck Rachel. But she knew she couldn't do it alone she needed someone by her side and she wish she did have someone.

The first day of school was okay most of the kids made fun of her because of her nose. When it came time to sing in class everyone was stunned but it didn't feel as good to sing in front of them as it did when she sang in glee club. Oh how she missed all of them so very much. The day had came and went very quickly. After class she was walking in central park when her phone started ringing. Kurt always called her at this time.

"Hey Kurt what's up?"

"Oh nothing much just walking around and taking in some exciting scenery how about you?"

"Just got out of school on my way to get myself some food" After everything he has been there for Rachel for he could always hear when she was sad or upset.

"Rachel... Are you okay?" There was a long pause until she had said anything she had to fight back hard tears

"No everything is just wrong, I miss Finn, I hate it here, I miss everyone and school sucks"

"Want to know what would make it better?"

"going back to graduation day?"

"No silly if you look to your left" And with that they both ran to each other like they were long lost lovers in a romantic movie. Tears were streaming down her face. She missed him so much.

"Im here Rachel. now lets go look apartment hunting because im here to stay. and i need my best friend by my side at all times"

They spent most of the afternoon chatting it up while looking for apartments. That night she went back to her dorm and packed all of her stuff Kurt asked for her to spend the night in the hotel with her and in Two whole days they would be living in their new apartment. They were excited and Rachel was so happy to finally have somebody there with her. She didn't feel that much alone, but her heart still longed for Finn.

So right before bed she decided she would send him a text telling him about her day she didn't care if he didn't respond she just wanted to feel like she was talking to him.

' Hey Finn, today school was interesting I can already tell dance is going to be a hard class. Hope your okay and know that I miss you a lot and oh Kurt is here with me ! yay!. miss you. - Love always Rach 3'

And she fell deeply asleep hoping when she awoke he had replied.A smile was on her face . She knew he wasn't going to say anything because he was giving her distance but she needed to do it. She needed to hear that he was okay or something.


I used to write a lot of fanfiction and I just now decided to get back into it but couldn't remember my old account stuff. So im sorry if this isn't that great its been a while. A lot has happened in that time for us glee fans. RIP Cory youll always be loved and remembered. Im kind of writing this story in how I would be making glee nowadays. so bare with me it will get more interesting I promise!:) anyway. thank you all and please review!