My madness is my life. Here is how it started. When I was born the doctors put too much fluid in my brain which caused me to be disabled with cerebral palsy, four days after that my twin brother died of cerebral palsy and chronic lung disease. I always felt as if I was the one to blame for his death. I feel as though he gave his life for me.

CHILDHOOD

My childhood was hard, being a little creative chubby girl with a left hand which was bent downwards walking along the grubby white walls wearing splints that were all different colours. Everyone stared and laughed. Things got me through it like my best friend but the thing that got me through it then and even now is books , I just loved how a couple of pages can make all your worry's disappear for a few hours . My parents were great my dad worked, my mum helped with nearly everything I needed, she was and is my rock to this day. the thing that changed my life for better or worse is that I moved , I moved 180 miles away from my best friend , school , my grandparents and the only life I had ever known . It broke me to tears for months. Now I had to do my last year of primary school in a new place away from everything and everyone I knew and loved. that year of school was the hardest I ever had , I got bullied and called a Spastic that year however I did make new friends which was some of the happier memories that I have . I couldn't wait to leave that school

HIGH SCHOOL

High school was hard but not impossible, the reason it was hard was because I went to a mainstream (normal) school and being disabled I was bullied but I got over it as I was determined not to let myself feel hurt or doubt the way I did that was to bottle my emotions up inside and not release them till I nearly exploded because every time I got bullied it tore me apart mentally to thing just because I am physically different that I wasn't accepted. You would think that the teachers would sort bullying out, of course not they just turned a blind eye until it got violent. My GCSE revision was where I exploded, it was a Friday afternoon lesson I was in hospitality and catering and I was having an emotionally struggling day until someone swore at me and the volcano of bottle up feelings spilled out, I ended up punching a wall and crying.

College

I have just started an IT course at college and it a lot more relaxed and not too pressured when it comes to exams, also there is no tolerance of bullying and the teachers are more aware of bullying at college than at high school I find.

Personally I don't think I'm a warrior I think I am just an average person that has a secret superpower because I may not be able to stick up for myself physically but I have a bog verbal punch x x