Decisions I Can't Make
They say they forgive me, they show it very well.
But it's those feelings deep inside me that I just can't tell.
It's my own type of curiosity that keeps me away from you all.
And it's the fear of my own past taking over me by call.
If my evil ways come rushing by, they would all abhor me.
It's a second chance that I'll ruin and the pressure will bore me.
I'll break that opportunity-I know that I will.
And no one will forgive me then, it's going to be my job to fill.
Upon the boat to loneliness, there I stand alone.
It'll keep me from breaking a promise that for years I have known.
I will always remember it is here I belong, it is here that I stay.
And there I will keep my word and let my evil fade away.
They know I mean well, they know I won't lie.
If only I could trust my own change in this life of mine.
Let me be alone, this is what I desire,
Then maybe I'd find the courage that I admire
To finally reach the point and state:
It is not the past… It is my future… That I greatly hate.
And it's life's tough decisions… that I just can't make.
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Hikari Takaishi b