No Matter how many times James Potter had bullied him, No matter how many times he wished ill of James, He did not want him dead. Seeing Lily happy with James wasn't what he wanted but he knew all too well that she was happy and that's all Severus wanted..He wanted Lily Happy

The night when he saw James laying motionless in the stairway hearing a baby crying,he rushed into the bedroom his emotions ran over him as quick as a train passing knelt down next to her cradling her cold body in his arms "Lily!" he yelled,

As Weeks passed...
Severus couldn't dream of anything but her motionless body in his arms,he loved her,he wanted her to be thought that this was all his fault wanting to follow her,he couldn't He could think was "Why Lily! Why not me?" those words ran though his head day in day was no escaping this,no escaping that he had finally lost her in the end.

When Severus was told about her son Harry,He knew right away what to do he was going to protect the he hadn't seen the child since that unforgettable night.

His nightmare had finally stopped haunting him,He looked up from the table noticing the young boy walking in the Great Hall for the first time,giving a slight smile hoping no one would Dumbledore looked up noticing gave a slight knew what he should do but how could he? he had a Severus Snape was known as the worst teacher at Hogwarts,he couldn't just give this young male love and protection.

When he laid his head down on his pillow for the nightmare appeared again but differently,it wasn't a nightmare but a dream...