ALMOST A LIFE TIME
CHAPTER ONE: LIFE AFTER RORY?
Logan awakes with an awful groan. Hung over yet again. He told himself, it was the influence of having after work drinks with colleagues at a bar called, Marbelle's Cove. A random woman by his side almost every night. Working long hours for months on end. He liked it though. It kept his feet firmly on the ground. It felt good to see the drive and force behind everyone in his team. That is what he has been looking for. A team that worked as well and as hard as he did. What more could he want in his life?
He sighed; as yet another dreamed of Rory engulfed him. Floods of what he missed the most went through his head. His body actually ached for her touch, for her kisses, even the smell of her favourite perfume seemed to linger in the air. He turned and rolled over in an attempted to get out of bed. That action proving to be very hard, as his head felt like it was pounding so hard, it was like a car was parked on his head. Man he ached all over. He had tossed and turned all night long.
'Hey Logan, you're up?', the female voice asked as though this was something they often did. He irked in the feeling of having to be polite and thinking of way's to get her out of his apartment. He has got to put a stop with all these random what's-she-called. It wasn't doing him any good at all.
'Yeah, I've got to get to work. Early starts and late finishes. That's what I've got to do when you are head of your division. Well you better get up and dress. You don't want to get late for work as well do you?' he tried to seem like he cared about her. He hoped she couldn't see through his falseness.
He headed for his adjoining bathroom to have his much needed long hot shower. That may cure his drumming head. He heard footsteps and another body in the shower with him. He groaned, and she had mistaken that for an invitation to do something more than just shower. He didn't need this. He felt terrible as it was already.
He recalls a memory of Rory doing the same thing. They had both ended up skipping class, and spending the day in bed, making glorious love to each other. How that day felt like a million years ago. When everything smelt so good, and he's belly felt so full of life. He fantasized with this woman and accidentally yelling Rory's name as he came in a flooding explosion. He was thrown back to reality, with a slap on his face, and the slamming of his bathroom door. He felt even worse, having used that other woman to appease his hunger.
He had often fantasized about her in his dreams, even sometimes when he was wide awake. Man did he really do that last night? My god, what was he turning himself into? Another one night stand, with some skunk from a bad dream. He didn't even know her name. He shook his head at his bad behaviour. He felt like a robot, as he dressed himself in his black Armani suit, that his sister had sent him a week ago.
He knew what he had to do. He had to do his best to get Rory back into his life again. He just had to think about how he would do that exactly. I mean, he was the one who walked away, right? He wanted more than she was ready for. He had envisioned a whole life, which he had just walked away from; when he hadn't received the answer that he had wanted. What a mistake was that? Finn should have kicked him for such a terrible choice. He had the perfect woman in his life, who would have eventually been ready to settle down and marry him one day. Why had he been so damn impatient with things going full ball. New career. New town. New life. He screwed things up big time!
That is it! Who else would know her where about? Lorelai! 'Hey Lorelai. It's me Logan'.
'Hey Logan', she didn't seem so impressed with who was calling her.
He didn't let this deter his original plan. 'How are you Lorelai? How is the Inn?' he really just wanted to speed up the conversation so he could find Rory.
'Yeah I'm fine thanks, Logan. The Inn's doing fantastic. Real busy this season. You know what I mean? So how are you? How is your new job treating you?' she seemed so sad. Maybe even upset that he was calling to know where Rory was situated and had moved on with her life. Tearfully. He felt like a damn jerk!
'Work is flourishing, as I thought it would...' hesitating a little, he pushed himself to ask the question. 'How is Rory doing? How is her new job going?' he was starting to lose composure a little, in his excited about talking about her again. He hoped to sound more in control of himself.
'She's doing very well thanks for asking... Any how I'm very busy at the moment Logan. Thanks for calling...' she knew the question he wanted to ask her. She was a very clever woman.
'Ah Lorelai, before you go... I know I don't deserve to know. Leaving the way I did and all. Being a total jerk and all that...' he knew she would be agreeing with everything he was saying to her. 'I'm going outta my mind without her Lorelai... I thought I could be strong and move on without her.. but i realized that I just can't escape her.
I dream about her every night. And wake thinking she was right next to me again... and everything else was just a nightmare... and when I realize that, that was the dream.. I always wake feeling so shattered!
I know I don't deserve any bit of her.. But she's the only thing I can see... I pushed myself into work, hoping that would be enough of a distraction, keep me occupied and I'd eventually get over her. But even that is started to become hard work now. Lorelai! I just can't live without her!' he almost cried there and then. He had to pick himself up and recollect himself.
'Well... I don't know Logan...' Lorelai sounded so sad. She knew what it was like to be without the one that you love. She had been through it all before. 'You hurt her so much, and walking away like that, without so much of a glance back her direction. Not even a phone call to see if she was okay.
I mean you shattered her, Logan. You broke her heart into two... and I don't know if I can really let you do that to her again. Would you, if you were in my position Logan? Do you understand what I'm trying to say?' he could hear her guard slipping, and new she would eventually tell him where she was. She knew how her daughter was feeling. Exactly his description of life.
'I know I don't deserve a second chance Lorelai. But I love her so much! I am losing my battle with staying away from her, but I can't control my emotions any more. I need her to feel complete again. She is my whole life. These six months have flown so fast, though some days I don't actually know how I get from A to B.
I guess I'm just do things mechanically. I don't even know how I get my work done sometimes. But yet it is there in front of me, typed out, and printed...' he knew he sounded so pathetic and silly, but he didn't care. All he knew was that he had to have her back, or he wouldn't last another month. He would end up searching the world for her until he found her again.
He heard her sigh into the phone, and new she was defeated. She told him exactly where she was. He thanked her profusely, and said their goodbyes. His next phone call was his work and gave them the same reason he had given Lorelai. He would be back as soon as he could. They wished him well and said they'd be holding down the fort until he returned.
The airlines booked him the next available flight. He didn't care which seat he was given, or what time the flight would take off. All he knew was that he had to do all he could to get her back into his life again. He packed his bag and rang for a taxi that would take him directly to the airport.
