All Around Me
She is gone. She is really gone, but I won't accept it. It won't except that I can't see her anymore. Every day, I reach out my hand, hoping that maybe, maybe, I have enough power to feel her. It doesn't even have to be a feel, a brush even.
My hands are searching for you
My arms out stretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
I'm tempted to call out her name. My voice is so dry from not murmuring it. I want it. I want to see her. I want her. There is this… emptiness is my chest that I cannot seem to fill. No amount of food or friends can fill it. Because I know that she is still here.
She is here, but I'm just a human. Just a powerless, normal, human.
My tongue dances behind my lips
For you
A fire burning through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive
I'm alive
I want her embrace once more. I want to hug her or carry her. I want her to talk to me; I want to hear the song that is her voice.
My hands fly up above me
And you whisper you love me
I close my eyes, and go into a world here I can see her again. Where I can hold her, where I can talk to her. I want to dance; I don't care if she's a good dancer. I don't care if she steps on my feet or yells at me. We are alone in this world, just us.
And I begin to fade into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too, with you
She is a bright light, an angel. I almost cry thinking of seeing her looking that beautiful.
And I so I cry
The light is white
And then I see you
I feel more alive than I am right now in that place.
I'm alive
I'm alive
Memories get me through my day. Her voice, her laugh, her smile, even her smell. I can't live without them.
I know that you're there. You once told me that you would never leave my side, I believe that you still keep that promise. I believe.
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
In my heart, I can feel you every day. Not in the way that I know other people are with me, but deep in the chambers of my heart, I know you're here. In the sounds I hear, in the air I breathe.
I wish I could go back in time and take back every mean word I said to you, and remember every moment. You healed me, and I wish that I could still have that feeling; I'm holding onto bare scraps of it.
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding onto what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Because, the truth is, I love her. And I can't figure out how to let her go.
Song fic. First fanfic that's a songfic, so don't hate. I love the ichiruki pairing, and I know that he can see her anymore, so I figured what the heck?
I don't own the song, but I own this story :)
