All Around Me

She is gone. She is really gone, but I won't accept it. It won't except that I can't see her anymore. Every day, I reach out my hand, hoping that maybe, maybe, I have enough power to feel her. It doesn't even have to be a feel, a brush even.

My hands are searching for you

My arms out stretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

I'm tempted to call out her name. My voice is so dry from not murmuring it. I want it. I want to see her. I want her. There is this… emptiness is my chest that I cannot seem to fill. No amount of food or friends can fill it. Because I know that she is still here.

She is here, but I'm just a human. Just a powerless, normal, human.

My tongue dances behind my lips

For you

A fire burning through my being

Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive

I'm alive

I want her embrace once more. I want to hug her or carry her. I want her to talk to me; I want to hear the song that is her voice.

My hands fly up above me

And you whisper you love me

I close my eyes, and go into a world here I can see her again. Where I can hold her, where I can talk to her. I want to dance; I don't care if she's a good dancer. I don't care if she steps on my feet or yells at me. We are alone in this world, just us.

And I begin to fade into our secret place

The music makes me sway

The angels singing say we are alone with you

I am alone and they are too, with you

She is a bright light, an angel. I almost cry thinking of seeing her looking that beautiful.

And I so I cry

The light is white

And then I see you

I feel more alive than I am right now in that place.

I'm alive

I'm alive

Memories get me through my day. Her voice, her laugh, her smile, even her smell. I can't live without them.

I know that you're there. You once told me that you would never leave my side, I believe that you still keep that promise. I believe.

Take my hand

I give it to you

Now you own me

All I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you

I believe

In my heart, I can feel you every day. Not in the way that I know other people are with me, but deep in the chambers of my heart, I know you're here. In the sounds I hear, in the air I breathe.

I wish I could go back in time and take back every mean word I said to you, and remember every moment. You healed me, and I wish that I could still have that feeling; I'm holding onto bare scraps of it.

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding onto what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healed

Because, the truth is, I love her. And I can't figure out how to let her go.

Song fic. First fanfic that's a songfic, so don't hate. I love the ichiruki pairing, and I know that he can see her anymore, so I figured what the heck?

I don't own the song, but I own this story :)