Len`s POV : :
Don't look at me like that. Stop turning around, just stop . . . You know I can't take it. I won't be able to bear those violet eyes, catching my reflection in them for a split-second ; then you're gone. Hand in hand with her, the girl who stole you away from me. I'm too horrible of a person to take all this in. I'm selfish, I know . . . You know, this wasn't supposed to happen. But forever is just a word. You said it before, you didn't want it to end. Did you . . . ? Where has the time gone ? Tell me, please, I need to know if you miss me. I want you to, badly. No. . . you don't. I'm wishing pointlessly now. Did you ever tell me goodbye . . . ? Perhaps I wouldn't have fallen as hard as I had if you just said . . . Goodbye. Hey, now, it's too late for that. Don't try it, because it won't work . . . Damn, don't turn around okay ? I can't let you see me cry. Stop it, ne ?
Don't wipe my tears, your touch hurts me more than you think ; more than you know. Turn away, alright ? Don't look at me with your apologetic eyes . . . I know your words are meaningless, thats what I tell myself. You don't mean it. You never did. Hey, don't frown like that. You'll make me worry about you. Silly, just stop hesitating to place your hand on my shoulder. Dont try yo comfort me anymore. It'll hurt to feel your familiar warmth, you smell like vanilla. No contact. These tears will grow. Oh, you're going now ? Alright, I understand-- she's waiting at home for you. Why can't I let go yet ? Why . . . ?
Goodbye, perhaps I'll see you later ? Your phone rings, a sweet little melody. You answer, smile and talk quietly. Why am I hurting right now ? Because I know who's calling ? She really loves you . . . I watch as you murmur a sweet 'I love you, too' into the phone. And you turn back to meet, smile slowly fading. You glance out the window, I follow suit. It's began to snow. You turn back, we stare blankly at eachother for a moment. Tell me, why are your eyes so regretful right now. You say I've gotten taller, I manage the smallest of smiles. Ruffling my hair, you do something I wouldn't have expected. You pull me into a hug, but why . . . ? Why have I started to cry harder, into your chest. I miss this feeling of warmth, happiness and security. You simply sigh and slowly pull away. I allow without struggle, I feel my face burning and I frown -- I looking away from you. You say goodbye once more, completely releasing me. And I walk you to the door, you adjust your scarf and smile softly at me.
I smiled back a little, wiping my eyes. And you leave, after saying a final goodbye, it still doesn't make up for that one time. Oh well, I watch as you pace calmly through the snow. Then you're gone. I slowly sink against the door, sobbing. You didn't turn around this time, I'm glad you didn't. Your violet eyes just hurt me . . . You dont look back at me. And even if you do, I won't be looking back. Because now . . . I think I've finally learned to let go.
Mainly based on abother role play. : D
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This is my second one ~
I have a Christmas Fanfic, too.
I need to upload it ; even though Christmas passed. DD|
