"Can you atleast come with me?" Ellie asked Sean, giving him her unoriginal stare down when she was annoyed with him.
It's been a month since the shooting yet he was still distancing himself, and Ellie was coming to terms with the fact that this distance thing had maybe even been there before the shooting..
..and it all had to do with her.
Ellie turned her head to see Sean staring at something down the hall from them, her, Emma Nelson.
She was walking with J.t Yorke, who from all the way down the hall, she could still hear him talking about the stupid annoying play the school was doing that he was directing.
Ellie's emerald eyed hardened on Emma. She didn't get why it was so hard for Sean to let the little activist go...they dated too young to be in love so it couldn't of been that, that was emotionally pulling him towards her, right?
Ellie felt wrong, but the fact was she ignored it, Sean was an amazing guy and she wanted to stay his girlfriend. . she wanted the other girl to get lost. Emma was pretty, she won't lie about that, so she could have anyone.. so why keep Sean on a short leash? Ugh. Maybe that was horrible for Ellie to think about her own boyfriend.. and I guess it wasn't Emma who was telling Sean not to let go.. it was his fault.
He wouldn't let go.
And he tried so hard to fight it. The guy didn't see how obvious he came off and Ellie didn't mind Emma being a blind idiot to it either because that meant she had more Sean to herself.
"Sean!" Ellie said and he finally snapped his eyes to her.
"What, EL?" he asked, sighing a bit as he ripped his eyes from Emma and tried really hard to focus on her.
Ellie had to admit, he did this even when they had begun dating.. she always had to say his name twice to catch his attention, she'd always find him in a haze, he'd always not want to talk and it was because there was another girl on his mind.
"Nothing, nevermind." she stiffened a smile and leaned in, kissing him quickly and insisted, "Meet me after class." he nodded, as the bell rang and she made him think every day since the shooting that she did go straight to class.
But she didn't.
She went to the bathroom, and while in there she would stare at herself in the mirror, she how tired her eyes looked, how tangled her red hair was and just what a mess she was.
No wonder Sean nor Marco nor any other guy or even her Dad could stand to be around her.
She dug into her bag and grabbed her 'handy dandy tool kit' . . sorry, too dark comedy for you? She unzipped her razor binder and opened it as she then rolled her sleeve up and reached for the blade best today..
..she'd go with the small one.. since at least today didn't hurt as much as the other days.
She finished, and slid her razer back into her binder and when she went to tuck it into her bag, it fell and she seemed to crash onto the floor with it, choking on her cry and trembling. She gasped in sharply and put one hand over her mouth for crying so hard, and one over her wrist that was in pain.
The door opened and Mrs. Suave stood there and her eyes widened in horror and a mixture of sadness slipped in as well, "Ellie." she whispered, shaking her head no, "What have you done?"
Meanwhile.. Emma had finally ripped herself from J.t, sighing in some sort of relief. You may ask, what did that even mean? Some sort of relief?
Well, Emma barely felt any kind of emotions anymore, nor did she want to. She had gone into shock the day of the shooting and she guessed she never shook it off... maybe she didn't want to.
She liked the way it was when you couldn't feel the pain around you and maybe sometimes that costed her from feeling any happiness too but thats fine...since happiness could be ruined as well in a blink of an eye.. trust her on that.
Emma stopped walking as she adjusted her little leather back over her shoulder. Her head was hung a bit down and through her bangs across her forehead she noticed a couple against the lockers making out and when she looked up more, she noticed it was Jay and Alex.
Funny. She remembered Jay this morning feeling her up behind stage at JTs play rehearsal. She wasn't shocked though.. course he was some scumbag cheater.. but it did kind of bring ideas to her when he did it, and she had let him, because here are the pros and cons of fooling around with Jay and no strings:
CONS:
1) Jay can be really annoying
2) If Alex finds out, there is going to be an Alex&Emma #2 showdown
3) She kinda goes against everything she stands for...respect, loyalty.. virtue.
PROS
1) She can hang this over Alex's pretty little head.
2) She can also remind Jay whenever he tries to make fun of her, that he wanted her.
3) It gave her enough boy problems to worry about so she could avoid relationship drama because this would only be about sex.
And lastly, her favorite, 4) She can get back at him.
Emma's eyes drifted to Sean, shuffling through his locker as she walked to her own. Ofcourse her and Jay would be discreet about this, she didn't want the school to find out, but she did kind hope Sean would.
It'd feel like the greatest revenge.. oh but damn, she wasn't ready to feel.. so maybe she'd hide it a bit longer til she was ready for some Sean drama...if he even cared that is.
Emma sadly opened her locker and leaned on the door of it, gazing inside numbly. She must of lost time, because when she swore she only blinked, all the students were almost all in their classes and she must of missed the bell go off.
She snapped out of it, already holding her book for her next class, so she slammed her locker door and went to run for fourth...to stop in her tracks a little.
Sean was slightly turned in her direction, and he looked a bit taken back when she turned so quickly and caught him looking at her, but she looked so numb. Did she know she had been just staring at her locker for 3 minutes straight?
He sighed in bitterness, watching her just half way roll her brown caramel eyes, completely ignoring him but also really not. He couldn't accept the fact he just bugged her by glancing at her (Okay stared, but she didn't know that)
She went to class, and he was last standing in the hallway, as the class doors closed. . making him late.
He glanced around at the empty halls a bit terrified like. He hated to walk down empty halls now... it just reminded him of the day of the shooting when all the kids ran through them and fled, leaving him, Emma and Toby alone in it.. to wait for Rick. He swore he could still hear the footsteps of Rick whenever he was in an empty hall like this, or Emma's whimper when the gun-
"Sean." Snake said, behind him
Sean jumped and he whirled around, glaring with anger in his eyes at Snake for doing that to him.
Snake instantly raised his hands but eyed Sean worriedly, "Sorry. Sorry. Are you okay?"
"Fine Mr. S" Sean then inhaled, and exhaled; calming down. Mr.S truly cared and he got that...he just kinda wish it was his stepdaughter that did.
But that was stupid, wishing for Emma to come to him after everything he put her through? Selfish of him to want. . but that didn't mean he could stop himself from wanting it deep down. He's tried, for almost a year now, and even tried to forget her with two other girls but this one just remained on his mind and it was killing him knowing he had no right to want her back after being the one to push her away, the reason why they even broke up. It killed him knowing she'd probably never come back anyways.
"Gotta get to class." Sean muttered, dragging his feet around Mr S as he rolled his head back to shut his eyes and curse at himself before walking off.
Snake crossed his arms, watching Sean til out of site.
"You do know what a blow job is right?" Jay smirked to Emma in the van. They had been hanging out at the ravine all night and Emma was a bit surprised Sean wasn't there with Ellie, nor was Alex...she only saw Amy. Shame Sean couldn't be here to see this..
Emma's eyes widened a bit when Jay said that though and he closed the van door, and she swore to you that she probably would of ran out of that van just then if it weren't for the Pros of this running through her head.
Revenge.
As he unbuckled his pants, licking his lips a bit slowly as he slowly did so, not sure if she was going to go along with this, she answered him with another kiss. That she was actually pretty good at but Jay guessed she had to be since its all she's ever done with anyone. . Now, he was going to be the one who made her go further..
Was it horrible he was doing this? And with the girl his best friend pretended to be done with? Sure. But it didn't stop him from doing it, infact, thinking about it made him want to do it more. He couldn't tell you what was wrong with him or why he was such an asshole, he just was.
His mouth fell pleasurably as he used Emma's hair to guide her as she bobbed up and down with her mouth on his cock. . and later, he'd return the favor. Yah.. he was mostly just going to use her for his needs, but now that Sean was around he felt he should do more since this might be his only change and well, lets face it, Emma was hot. He really did like her virtue and the more this went on, the funner it got, it even seemed like Alex was out of the picture. Would he date Greenpeace? I don't know.. Sean would kill him, and he had a huge feeling Emma didn't feel that way for him. He sometimes saw it in her eyes too when they passed another in school, sharing smirks, sometimes he swore she wanted Sean to catch it.
Kinda can't lie, made it more fun to fool around when he thought how Sean had no idea he was tainting his 'little miss perfect'.
