Disclaimer: I do not own Castle and The Vampire Diaries. This is purely a work of fiction.
AN: This story has been written by my co-author- the world's most dramatic fangirl, my best friend, (she who shall not be named) and myself.
It came to us around the time of the Peoples Choice Awards this year, when Stana Katic won Favorite Dramatic TV Actress and Ian Somerhalder won favorite sci-fi / fantasy TV actor. We've been playing around with the idea for months now, and have finally finished putting together this story for all you Castle and TVD fans. Hope you enjoy. Don't forget to leave a review :)
Chapter 1
If anyone knew what the wrath of the universe felt like. It was Kate Beckett. Her life till date was the most adventurous that any woman of her age might have had. The universe had its way of giving her something beautiful and then snatching it away from her when she got too attached. The universe clearly hated her, or held a grudge against her or something. Because clearly, it never failed to prove to her, that it's only ambition was to ruin her life, her happiness.
It's only aim was to make her life miserable. A living hell.
She should have suspected that the universe was out to get her the very moment she had her first real fall after she had learned to use her two feet for the reason they were created. Yup, she should have known it was the universe every time she was at the peak of something big and was pulled down by some force. Every time she lost something, it was the universe playing with her emotions.
The biggest blow had been when the universe took her mom away. The universe disguised as senator bracken. And time and again after that, there were innumerable instances she could describe that had messed with her happiness. It wasn't until 6 years ago, that she was able to regain some faith in the good side of the universe. 6 years ago, when a man named Richard Castle walked into her life and became her universe. He was everything.
And she didn't care about what the universe was doing collectively to them both, she didn't care that they had found themselves in a colorful variety of life or death situations, including a bomb, a serial killer, explosions, a freezer, a trunk of a car, a water body, nuclear threats, kidnapping, confronting a tiger, no. None of that mattered to her these past 6 years, because as long as he was by her side, not even the wrath of the universe could bother her, as long as he was by her side.
If only he had stayed by her side.
If only he had stayed by her side, she wouldn't have gone back down this abyss of absolutely losing all reason to believe in the universe again. To believe in good, in destiny, in karma, in magic and in everything he believed in. She couldn't believe in anything. Her belief was numb. She was numb. Her heart felt numb.
The tears would come often, ever since that faithful day, 12th May 2014. The day that was supposed to be the happiest day of her life. But no. That was the day, the universe only proved to her that it still hated her and was still out to make her life miserable. It made her question why she was even put here on this earth. Every purpose she lived for was destroyed.
Kate Beckett had fought the universe all her life. Every time it took away something from her, she fought back. And she had survived all of it. But now, she was tired. She was tired of fighting. She was tired of breathing. Breathing hurt. It pained her chest with every bought of oxygen she took in. The pain was because of her continuous crying, sobbing and heaving at nights, nights when she slept alone in his bed.
She was tired of fighting. Because this, this was the last straw. This was the only thing left to happen for her to break, the only thing capable of breaking her strength. This was all it took to crush a woman as strong and brave as Katherine Beckett.
As she sat on the green lawn of his Hamptons home, at the exact spot that she would have said her vows to him, she watched the sun setting on the horizon. She could feel nothing. She could think nothing. The only thing left to stop functioning in her was her heart. She wanted it all to stop. It had no reason to go on.
And as the reflection of the orange sun shining in her tearful eyes, began to go down, her resolve broke further. The last bit of the sun disappeared behind the blue waters, leaving a purple hue all around the then blue sky. She closed her eyes, and the tears fell. Her hand clenched the grass near her thighs and she whispered to no one in particular "Where are you babe?"
Kate believed that Castle was out there somewhere, staying away for a reason. While everyone was losing hope, she hung onto the possibility that he was still out there. After they had found that burning car that evening, she had almost lost it at the scene. She had ran towards the car, she didn't care if she had to get burnt, she was going to try to get her groom out of that car whatever state he was in.
She was either going to get him out, or die trying, but she was determined. But the officers, even Espo and Ryan pulled her away. They used all their strength to hold her back while she used all her strength to fight them and get closer to the car. She doesn't remember much after that, they told her later she had collapsed, fallen unconscious.
They told her there was nobody in the car. And they searched the area too, they couldn't find him. They suspected he flung himself out of the car before it skid off the road and burst into flames. He must have rolled out the side of the road with the impact of the fall, and well...There was cliff at the edge of that area. They said no more.
But Kate knew what they were implying. They were implying that her Castle is dead. But she refused to believe it. She'd never believe it. He wouldn't leave her that way. Not on their wedding day. He wouldn't let that day be a day of sorrow for her to live through every day of her life.
So no. she didn't believe them when they said he's dead. She didn't believe them when they said they found scraps of material, material of his tux close to the cliff that may have torn off of him when he fell.
She didn't even want to picture what they were insinuating.
None of them wanted to believe it. Martha, Alexis, Lanie, Espo, Ryan, they were all going through almost the same pain as her. Castle wasn't dead. He disappeared. He was either kidnapped or forced to go away. And she would hang on to that hope for as long as she could. She didn't want to believe anything else.
She was driving back to the city, and she suddenly didn't feel like going home tonight. She needed a change of space. She wanted to go someplace else. Anywhere that would let her forget for a while that her life was in ruins. She drove on in another direction than her intended route, and speed dialed Alexis' number.
The phone rang twice and then she picked up "Kate… Hi" her voice was soft and vulnerable. Castle's disappearance had broken Alexis to pieces. Kate had never seen this side of Alexis before.
"Did you have your dinner Alexis?"
"I don't want to eat Kate...Please…"
"No... Don't say that. You need to eat. You've lost so much weight in the last 4 months Alexis, I don't want you falling sick."
"Okay... I'll eat with you... You're coming home, aren't you?" All of them knew Kate would go out to the Hamptons every evening to watch the sunset. They never questioned or stopped her. They knew she had her reasons for going up there every evening. They knew how hard this must be for her.
Kate hated to do this. She knew that it's important they stick together, to be each other's comfort through this. But she couldn't get herself to turn around.
"Alexis, sweetheart, I need to go somewhere tonight… I just need…"
"It's alright... I understand... You need a little time alone. It's okay. I'm okay."
"I'll sleep at my apartment tonight... and I'll come by tomorrow morning. We'll go out for breakfast, you and me."
"I'd like that"
They said goodnight after Alexis promised Kate she'd eat something. And then Kate hit the acceleration. She didn't know where she was going. She just wanted to go far and fast. She wanted to feel that rush of doing something reckless and she wasn't scared of anything right now.
She steered where her heart led her, and didn't care that her mind was telling her to slow down, to stop and ask where she was, and for directions back to the city. No she just wanted to drive, and drive far. She wanted to think of it as driving away her sorrow, but she knew the sorrow was stuck with her like a parasite, sucking out the life from her day by day.
And it wouldn't let her live until she saw his face gain. Until she was sure he was safe and breathing. Even if it meant they weren't going to be able to be together, her only prayer every night, was that his lungs still took in oxygen and that his heart still beats, and that blood still flowed through his veins.
Kate hadn't eaten since the afternoon. It was 9 pm now, and her stomach needed food. But she couldn't care less. She didn't want food. She needed a place to run away to, for just one night.
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