A/N: This story begins near the end of New Moon. Rosalie did not tell Edward that Bella jumped off the cliff, and everything went as planned. Alice was relieved to see Bella alive, but the inevitable had to happen. I hope you enjoy! Also, at the end of the chapter is an Author's Note #2 specifically for fans who have read my other stories. But even if you're new to my stuff, please do take your time to read it.
Anyway, here's what you actually WANT to read. xD
-Chapter 1-
I could not prevent the tears from spilling over. Not now. Please. Not now. It's too soon.
"Alice, Alice p-please d-don't go…" I sputtered.
This was not me. I wasn't like this; I didn't cry in front of someone. But it didn't matter; my dignity was far down on my list. This was the last connection to my world that once was, slipping through my grasp like a handful of sand, and the tighter I held on, the more it fell.
"I'm sorry, Bella, but you knew I had to leave after I found out you were alive. Ed- I mean, he," Alice cut off when I flinched at his name, "was right to know that this couldn't continue. It's dangerous and wrong. I'll always love you, but we all have to move on," Alice looked like she would be crying, if she could.
Jacob stood behind me, protecting me as was usual these past few days, but he was silent with understanding of the pain I felt.
"I'm sorry, Bella, so, so sorry…" she backed further and further away, until she disappeared.
And that's when I fell.
The hole in my chest ached, it burned and contorted and throbbed, got bigger and smaller, ripped itself over and over again, until I was screaming.
I was screaming like I had never screamed before. It was hollow and empty and dead, but loud, so loud that all the birds fled from the trees, but quiet, so quiet over the roar in my ears, the sobs in my chest, the uneven beating of a broken heart.
I convulsed, contorted, cried out his name, then all of their names, begging for an answer, something, something, to let me know that maybe they weren't gone for good.
I felt warm hands, trying to stop me, to hold me. I was too weak to resist, but I was immune to comfort, even from Jacob. I continued to thrash until he had to pin me down and hold me securely in his arms. Finally I gave up and just shook in his embrace; I just sat there shaking with sobs that were not there. I was beyond crying. My emotions had surpassed human comprehension or understanding, so my brain had short-circuited and crashed.
Finally, Jacob took me back inside and set me on the couch. He lay down beside me, stroked my back, my hair, tried to rub life into me like a newborn puppy born without breath. Then he opened his mouth for the first time. His voice was soft.
"I'm going to have to heal you all over again, Bella. I will stitch the wounds created by those horrible people all over again. Thread by thread. But know that you are worth every single one. I can make you so much happier than you were, even before they left,"
I gained the smallest fraction of comfort from his words, something that shocked me, and sent a little static jolt of hope through my spine that quickly faded.
My wounds were beyond repair this time.
A/N #2 (Please Read): Hello all! Yes, I have returned! It's been what, a year and a half? Wow. Well, not a whole lot has happened. I'm in high school, and I think my writing ability has improved drastically, even though I have a really shitty writing teacher right now who does not help with encouraging me to write. I miss my old one, but I guess I'll deal.
Anyway, if you've read my other JacobxBella fanfic, Severed Trance, I'm so glad you're back! This one will be different, I hope a little more focused on emotion and less on action, and hopefully written more eloquently and much longer, and definitely more realistic to the characters in the book. I want to take time with this and make it right.
I know at one point I said I would do sequels to Severed Trance, there's a chance I might, but to be perfectly honest I don't like the direction that story is going. I've found the whole babies thing to just screw stuff up and leave you at a dead end.
LEAVE ME REVIEWS. Tell me what you think, what you want, where you want this story to go! They are always immensely appreciated. They keep me going. Please, please, please and thank you!
