Story summary: Bella's just turned 18, she has a hot boyfriend who doesn't seem to mind that she's a walking hazard. Perfect life yeah? WRONG! Because Edward is ready to pack up and leave…

Fast forward a few months later and Charlie has been assigned to Denali. Once again Bella finds herself in a very familiar predicament. New School, new faces, and a familiar smirky boy who had once broken her heart.

Will two foolish hearts finally realise that they are meant to be a little bit more than a beautiful disaster?

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Welcome to the sequel! If you haven't read the first one, then I suggest you go ahead and read it! Once again thanks for those of you who read the first diary of a secret crush. Please review or just drop a comment if you want to! ENJOY

DISCLAIMER: we are all up to the sequel…yet I'm still not Stephanie Meyer


Diary of a secret crush: Beautiful Disaster

Party

Diary II

Forks, Washington D.C

Note

So lets just say that I'm sad and have no life. Once we've gone over that fact let me tell you one thing; unbelievable as it may seem, I am not sad, and I do have a life. Actually I can safely say that my life is better than most, but hey, I really should shut up, I could just be jinxing myself.

Despite the fact that I am a 24/7 walking hazard, I just had the best Summer. I know, I know, Summer should be hot sweaty, not cold, green, and wet, but I really don't care.

You might be wondering why I'm writing in a brand new diary. Problem is, I've hidden the diary before this, away from Charlie's prying eyes, and since I have such great luck, I don't exactly remember where I've put it.

So let me summarize everything for you in simple detail;

-Moved to Forks

-Fell in love with a certain bronze haired boy on the first day of School.

-Became best friends with his sister

-Patched up all the parental drama

-Reunited with the crazy Striker twins (Sam and Sean)

-Found by psychotic enemy

-Said psychotic enemy got the boot and ended up in military school

-After kissing and making up, Edward and I are finally together

-Totally rocked out 'Romeo and Juliet'

So as you can see, my life has been anything but ordinary lately, I have come to realize that having a little excitement in life may not be too bad after all.


September 13

I know I shouldn't have been dozing off during work hours, but it's not my fault the Newton's Olympic Outfitters is such a crap place for a part time job. I mean I love Mike for recommending me to his parents, but as usual he's being a complete pain. He's doing everything, while I slowly wilted on the front counter in boredom.

So he's entirely the one to blame when I woke up screaming. Yes, I still get night terrors, and yes, I am aware that it is daylight. I feel like twacking him where it really hurts, but I wont. One, because I'll get fired, two, Charlie will probably ground me once again, and last but not the least…it will give Sam and Sean satisfaction.

The twins has been badgering me endlessly. Usually the twins didn't agree much on anything, but for once they both agreed on something; Mike Newton was an egotistical maniac who needed to be 'kicked and tossed', hey don't ask me; it was their words.

As tempting as it may sound, I don't think I could do that. Sure, he's annoying when he gets all macho with me, but Mike is an okay person over all.

Besides, he isn't my main worry. Like I said before I just woke up from a pretty horrible nightmare. I've been having a lot of nightmares lately, and its not the type where you are walking down a corridor filled with people and you suddenly realize that you're only wearing underwear. No, it is so much worse than that.

In my dream I am in the middle of the same meadow Edward had shown me a couple of months ago. Weirdly enough as I stepped in to the light I could see a full body length mirror. I looked around the meadow, not really sure of what to expect.

I walked slowly towards the mirror, the sun reflected on the mirror, emitting all kinds of colour. Transfixed, I started walking towards the mirror that shines like diamonds beneath the sunlight. As I got closer the wind began blowing rapidly, leaving my hair in complete disarray.

I could feel the wind get stronger, so I pushed harder, leaning against the wind, driven by the desire to get to the mirror.

I felt the earth beneath me start to shake and I pushed harder, breaking to a run, desperate to get to the mirror before it shattered. I could feel it in my grasp, the wind kept trying to pull me back, as I pushed forward I finally came within grasping distance of the mirror.

I smiled triumphantly to myself and placed both of my hands on the edges. I took a deep breath, my very own anticipation made the air thick. Once again I felt the earth shake, I looked around, my face fell as I saw the ground cracking, I cringed slightly as the loud crumbly noises grew.

My hands gripped the edge of the mirror tightly. A movement from the mirror caught my eye. For a second I stood there rooted on the spot. I could see Edward, his flawless face more beautiful than ever, his bronze hair glinted, and his eyes shone green. I felt all of the worry leave my body as I extended my fingers so I could touch his face. But I gasped, all I could feel was cold metal.

I left my hand on the mirror edge for a second, but another sound escaped my mouth. It took me a couple of seconds to realize why there was too much moisture in my eyes. Standing next to Edward was a beautiful girl. Her strawberry blonde hair was fanning her perfectly rounded face, and a pair of cold eyes matching the colour of the ocean stared back at me smugly. She wrapped her slender arm around Edward.

Edward smiled gently down at the girl, moments later their lips locked in a passionate kiss. I felt the earth crumble beneath my feet as I watched them. I peeled my eyes away for a second, wanting desperately to run away. But to my horror, everything around had had collapsed, leaving me stranded in the middle in a piece of unstable platform, with no where to run, no where to hide from the sight that I tried so hard to avoid. I leaped, I jumped from the safety of the platform, and plunged deep into the deadly crevice.

I had woken up with a start. Well it was more like a bang really. I had fallen asleep and had woken up screaming, drenched in my own sweat. Mike had ran towards the counter instantly, trying to placate me. But I must have been trashing about wildly because when I finally woke up, I had managed to scratch Mike on the face.

Perfect, just perfect. I don't know what the dream meant, but it sure felt real. My heart is still feeling a little raw from the whole ordeal. I feel sick. I hate feeling weak, and to make matters worse, mike decided he wanted to become more unbearable…just put a chain around my neck, why don't you?!

Even now as he replaced stocks and equipment on the rack, he is still muttering on and on about how I should just go home. "Pfft! And she wanted to do some heavy lifting too!" he said to himself. He must have thought that I didn't hear him.

I was on the edge of getting up and hitting him several times, but I pushed down the urge. Who cares right? Edward will be here soon, my shift is nearly over. Sure, I know he'll be just as overbearing, but I know he'll do whatever I wanted, after all, today is my birthday!

Yes, I'm finally eighteen. I'm still the same if you ask me. Still awkward, with long dark brown hair, and overly sensitive brown eyes that always betrayed me.

I may look the same, but my life was different. It's changed for good, and all thanks to Edward. I have this picture of the two of us; He's sitting on a park bench, with me on his lap, both arms wrapped around my waist. He's looking at the camera happily, he has this peculiar expression on his face, you know, the one where he looks like he's got the best thing in the world wrap around his little fingers. Which in a way, he really does. Not sure about being the best in the world, but he sure got me…bad.

Being with Edward meant I had to tackle his Edwardism head on. Trust me, the boy can be so weird and moody sometimes. The bad thing is, I could never tell when his moods would switch from great to sour. Edward never got mad at me, but when he did have problems, he…had trouble telling me. A fact that saddens me, but what can I do?

I love him.

A good half of my summer had been a wreck, seeing as I was grounded. Nope, Charlie wasn't too happy when he checked on my room and found that his daughter had sneaked out. I thought I was going to be grounded forever!

After a month of suffering, he finally let me off.

Hmm, my shift is about to end, I can see Mike coming this way, and wait…is that the sound of a tire hitting a stop outside?


September 13 (much later)

I know its my birthday today, but which part of 'I hate bringing attention to myself' don't people understand? I could have gone without the birthday wishes, but nooo, seemed keen on bringing EVERYONE'S attention upon the birthday girl.

He means well, I know that. But I hate birthday greetings, I hate presents, and most of all…I hate surprises. Doesn't really help, considering my life is full of surprises.

So you can imagine my shock when Edward picked me up from work. His face seemed at ease, but I should have known that he was pretending. I definitely should have known when he missed the inter section that lead to my street.

My heart started fluttering when I recognised the road that lead to our little meadow. We can finally have a little time to ourselves! But my face fell when we missed the no through road that lead to the meadow.

I looked at Edward, his face was still perfectly composed. I wanted to say something but I couldn't form words. I knew he was taking me somewhere, and surprise, surprise, words can't describe how I felt when he pulled over on his driveway.

If the blinking lights that said 'Happy 18th birthday Bella!' didn't give it away, then the blaring music definitely did it for me. I stared in horror at the sight before me; Looks like Alice got a little, Edward's words, carried away and went on and invited the whole world! Well a little bit of an exaggeration, since she only invited the whole Senior Year!

I was gob smacked. I mean, usually I would have pulled away from the twins tight clutch on me, but I felt too stunned. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry, breaking something wasn't too far off from my mind either.

I opened my mouth but Edward stood in front of me and placed his forefinger on my lips. He leaned down, his breath fanning my ears. I felt like I was melting, I could feel my knees weaken as he whispered in my ear.

"Shh, I know you never asked for this, I'm sorry, but we just couldn't reel Alice in. You know how insane she gets…" he said softly. I felt my resolve melting as Edward kissed my left cheek. "Just…try and enjoy this…I'll make it as painless as possible" he added softly.

I couldn't help feeling safe. I twined my hands with his. I took a deep breath, when I opened my eyes, I gripped his palms tightly and put on a painful bright smile for Alice. Alice squealed, clapping her hands together joyfully. "OHMYGODBELLA!YOU'REFINALLYEIGHTEEN!ARGH!OHMYGAWSH!" she said elatedly, repeating the same intangible sentence over and over again.

I smiled goofily down at her. "Relax Alice, you're more excited than the actual birthday girl" I said in a deadpanned tone of voice. Alice bounced some more.

"HOWCANYOUNOTBEEXCITEDBELLA?!YOUREIGHTEEN!" Alice started once again. Then the counting off began.

"Firstly you don't need fake id anymore" she said counting with her fingers.

"Secondly you can get you own alcohol!"

"Thirdly you are officially an adult now!" she chirped happily.

I let out a sigh, and mentally made conversations with my self. Should I correct her?

I stared at Alice before acting like a walking and breathing correction machine. "Okay firstly, I would still need fake id, because you seem to have mixed up the official legal age to countries such as Australia and England" I started flatly. I couldn't see him, but I knew Edward was smiling.

"Secondly, I don't even drink alcohol Alice, so even if I was 21, I still wouldn't drink" I continued, mirroring her movements before. "Last but not the least-" however my last sentence was cut off when a hand wrapped themselves over my mouth. NOOO! I WAS ON SUCH A ROLL! But I froze when I recognised the touch.

I shivered slightly, Edward felt the tremor that went through my body. He chuckled slightly before hugging me from behind. "If you keep going, your going to kill Alice's ego" he whispered gently. I looked up and looked at Alice. She looked like she was going to burst out crying.

Oh for crying out loud…I went over to Alice and hugged her tightly before my heat completely gave out. "Thanks Al, you're the best friend in the whole entire world" I said sincerely. Alice looked up, a small smile building.

I swear, I think I melted. Alice can affect me the way Edward does, but not quiet in the same way, because if I felt the same way for Alice the way I felt for Edward, then that would make me a lesbian.

I wanted to scrunch up Alice's face. She was just too cute!

She was smiling once again. Alice took a hold of my hand and dragged me all the way inside the house. Everybody else followed. "Well, now that were over that! Lets party!" she said excitedly. I turned to look towards Edward, he smiled warmly at me, "Go and have fun" he mouthed. I gave him my best doe eyes. "Not without you!" I mouthed back.

Edward laughed out loud and took my hands so it turned out Alice held my left hand, while Edward held my right.

We all went inside and found more people. I looked around the room, still trying to decide whether to smack Alice or give her a hug. The room looked stunning. Candles ran up and down the staircase, illuminating the room in soft lighting.

Music blasted as a power jam begun, my eyes followed the sound and found the DJ raving on a made up pedestal. I could spy a table filled with food. The crowd seemed a little rowdy for Forks High School Students. I looked back at the table once again and smirked. That punch bowl's spiked…

I could see Sam slyly adding another layer of vodka on to the bowl. I almost laughed out loud before Alice dragged me to another part of the house. I was sure it was the kitchen, but Alice had transformed it. She had removed the gigantic family table. Instead a glass table stood right in the middle.

There were pink drapes hanging that I'm sure were never there to begin with.

I choked on my own spit when I saw all of the presents…I hated receiving gifts. I gave Alice an exhausted smile. "Aw come on Bella! I know you're always saying you hate presents. That's bull! Who doesn't love presents??" she said enthusiastically.

I was about to raise my hand up when I felt Edward's arms snake themselves around my waist. "Come on birthday girl! Let's dance" Edward said, his velvet voice making me soar a little higher.

I took his hand and let him drag me on to the dance floor. A slow song came on as he held me. I felt like the whole world was coming to a stand still as he twirled me around the room. I can't dance to save my life, Edward on the other hand looked like he was gliding. He was good enough to make me look good.

I leaned my head on to chest. I could hear the gentle pitter patter of his heart. I closed my eyes and swayed with him until the music finished. After a while, it felt like we were the only one in the room that I jumped slightly when I felt a tap coming from behind.

I turned around and almost bumped nose to nose with Mike. He was grinning sheepishly at me. "I'm so sorry I didn't say anything about this Bella! Alice threatened to….never mind!" Mike started, blushing deeply. "Anyway, I hope your feeling better!" he said before turning to dance with Jessica Stanley (What the hell was she doing there?).

I felt rather than saw Edward stiffened. I looked at him, his puzzled gaze meeting mine. I blushed furiously. What was I suppose to say? "Hey Edward! You starred in my nightmare!" uhhh…no.

I gave out a small laugh, which sounded a little strained even to my own ears. "Don't worry about it…uhh…its just some lame work stuff" I said, grinning broadly. I knew that he didn't believe me, but Edward didn't press on.

I leaned into him and gave him a long dragging kiss on the lips. We were locked tightly the same way when I heard coughing coming from behind us. Edward and I hesitatingly pulled away. I turned around and almost choked. Edward's parents were standing behind me, smiling thoroughly.

I felt like my head was going to explode, I felt the need to crawl under some rock. Esme gave us a knowing look before giving me a hug. "Happy Birthday sweetie! I hope you like our present!" Esme smiled prettily.

The first time I saw Esme I was taken aback by her beauty. I'm sure I never mentioned this in my other diary but Esme looked very young, and no doubt, beautiful. Come to think of it, Edward, Alice, and Emmett's parents seemed a little young.

They looked about thirty or so. But if that's true then it just wouldn't make sense considering Emmett is nineteen, Edward is 18, and Alice is 17 (oh yes, I forgot to mention, Alice is a smartass. She was moved up a grade in year 6 apparently).

I smiled as Mr, and Mrs Cullen began dancing right next to us. "your parents are so great…" I whispered in Edward's ears. Edward nodded and smiled down at me. "They think you're great too" he whispered back.

What he said was so simple, yet I felt this overwhelming love for him at that very moment. I held on to him tightly, I never wanted to let go.

After a while Edward offered to get me a drink. I noticed that Mr. Cullen also left Esme on the dance floor. I curiously went up to Esme. She smiled when she saw me approaching.

"Hey sweetie, where's Edward?!" she said loudly over the noise.

"He's getting drinks!" I replied. "Where's Carlisle?!" I asked.

"Oh! He's just receiving a call right now. I'm sure that he's going to be back very soon" she smiled. "So how are you enjoying your party?" she asked kindly.

I shrugged. "I'm not really much of a party person, but I'm having a lot of fun!" Just then five girls from a lower year level beneath me approached me with a chorus of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELLA! GREAT PARTYYY!!" I smiled at all of them, thanking the absence of the lights since I could feel my cheeks heating up in embarrassment.

Esme and I decided to sit of one of the couches and started chatting. "Thank you so much Bella" she started, I looked at her with a puzzled expression. "What for?" I said uncertainly.

"Well, thanks to you Edward's changed. He use to change girlfriends like this! All the time" she said, snapping her fingers to make a point. "I can tell he really cares about you" she said. I started to turn red, I looked down bashfully.

I've heard rumours of Edward being a playboy. Actually I had thought that about Edward before too. We didn't always get along. There was a long patch where I actually hated Edward, but no matter how bad he treated me, I couldn't help falling for him in the end anyway.

But now that I'm with him, I just can't seem to imagine him as anything but a loyal boyfriend. Being with Edward, despite the rollercoaster drama it took me was the best decision I've ever made. I don't regret ever standing in the pouring rain and screaming out the way that I felt about him.

Esme and I continued talking, Edward was taking awfully long to get a drink. I looked towards the food table and found that he wasn't there. I frowned slightly. I heard a commotion coming from outside.

I could hear murmuring coming from outside. I looked to Esme to see if she knew what was happening. She shrugged slightly. I looked around and noticed that Jasper, Alice, Emmet, and Rosalie were no where to be seen.

I stood up and started walking towards the front door. That's when I heard the yelling coming from outside. "You were going to throw her a party and didn't think we would come?! Are you stupid Cullen?!" I recognised the voice instantly as Jacob.

"Jacob! You came!" I exclaimed in surprise. I looked around to everyone before running up to Jacob and giving him a gigantic hug. He had grown so much! He was towering over me, his muscular built embracing me.

I felt all warm inside at seeing my old friend. I turned around. "What's going on?" I said curiously. Edward was looking at Jacob through slits. "That dog is a gate crasher!" Edward said coldly. I looked at him. "But Jake is my friend, you gotta let him in" I said rationally.

Edward looked at me with pleading eyes that seemed to say please don't, he sucks! insert whining. I unwrapped my arms around Jacob and walked to Edward and hugged him too. "Aw come on…please? It is my birthday after all…" I said in a small voice that I knew he couldn't resist.

He let out frustrated sigh and nodded. "Fine!" he said annoyed, giving me a squeeze. I kissed him on the cheek being ushering Jake and all the other La Push boys I recognised as Embry, Seth, Paul, Quil, and Jared. I noticed that Sam was painfully absent, and so was his pretty girlfriend Leah.

The rest of the La Push lot mixed the rest of the party goers. I wasn't surprised when they knew people from Forks. I'm guessing Jake and his gang got around. We all went back inside. As soon as we stepped inside, we were greeted by Mr. Cullen. "Edward, come with me, I need to talk to you" Carlisle said. Edward nodded, he turned to me and gave me a fleeting kiss that still left me breathless.

I felt a presence behind me. I turned around then smiled when I saw it was Jake. "He's a protective piece of lug isn't he?" he said wolfishly. He grinned down at me. "So the big bad wolf is here to give you your birthday present" he said casually. I frowned at him. "Hey don't look at me that way. I know you specifically said you didn't want anything over the phone…but I want you to have this…" he said in a low voice. He held out a velvet piece of cloth .

I didn't know what to say so I took the small piece of velvet material. "Aw Jake, Thanks!" I said enthusiastically. Jacob shook his head. "Bella…Bella, its inside. That's just the casing" he said slowly, making a face. I turned scarlet and a laugh escaped my mouth.

I opened the velvet material, and folded between the soft sheet was a beautiful bracelet. My mouth opened at its own accord. There was a mini carved wolf charm on the side. I held the little thing, touching the smooth surface of the charm.

Jacob was mumbling to himself. "I know its nothing compared to whatever Edward might give you, but Billy taught me how to carve it…" he started, but I cut him off by hugging him tightly. "It doesn't matter if its cheap or not, it will always hold sentimental value to me" I said in a soft voice.

I slipped the bracelet on and smiled warmly up at Jake. Even though I probably would never feel as strongly as I do for Edward towards any other guy, Jacob…well he will always be my number two. Through out the summer, even though we didn't get to see each other, we always talked to each other over the phone. I don't think my birthday would have been the same without Jacob, it just wouldn't have been the same.

A girl approached us and asked Jake to dance. He looked down at me with one raised eyebrow. "Have fun" I mouthed. I smiled at him then made my way towards Edward.

He wasn't looking too happy. He was staring at the bracelet, his face wasn't betraying much.

I hugged him tightly. "Are you jealous…?" I said jokingly. He looked down at me, still scowling. "….Yes" he said slowly. I giggled slightly before dragging him to the dance floor.

"No need to be jealous…You want to know a secret?" I whispered slightly looking at him straight. "There's only you in here" I said softly, pointing at the spot where my heart is.

I could tell he was turning slightly red. He had was smiling, but I could tell he was trying to push it down. Then he frowned slightly. "Isabella Marie Swan! Did you just say something completely corny?!" he said in mock horror. I laughed out loud and shrugged. "Well…Yes" I said. We both smiled at each other before getting lost in each other once again.

I don't know what will happen if Edward ever does leave me…I've become so use to him, not having him around would be like cutting off my air supply.


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