I looked up at my calendar, hoping that time had moved. Unfortunately, it hadn't. Two weeks. Forteen days. 336 hours. That was how long it would be before I got to see my boyfriend, Kendall, again. He was currently on tour with his bandmates, Big Time Rush. While I was very happy for him and so proud, I couldn't help but miss him. Millions of girls all over the world screaming my boyfriends name, none of them realizing we were getting ready to celebrate our anniversary.
I looked down at my book I was supposedly 'studying.' My mind had drifted to Kendall and I knew I wouldn't be able to take it off of him. I couldn't believe we had been together for almost a year. We met last summer when my mom forced me to spend a few weeks with her at my grandparents' cabin. While I hated the idea at the time, meeting Kendall changed my life. My mother wanted me to get back to my old self after I had made a suicide attempt and somehow Kendall broke through my exterior. I will say though, it couldn't have been easy. Writing me the song definitely won him brownie points.
I remembered back to those first couple of months together. I was still living in Iowa with my parents so our entire relationship was long distance. It was tough, but we managed. Kendall and I are now living together in California and I could not be happier. With the exception of him being gone, of course.
"You ready to go?" I looked up at my best friend Sadie. She had moved out to California with me to be with Kendall's friend and bandmate, Carlos. Since both of our boys were on tour, she knew exactly how I felt. "C'mon Soph. I promised Kendall I'd keep you out of the house to keep your mind off him. And I know you promised Carlos the same thing."
"I know, I know. It's just... has it really only been a week since we saw them? It feels like an eternity." We had surprised the boys by flying out to see them. Unfortunately we were only able to stay for the one night, and now we were back in our own little hell.
"Trust me, Soph, I know what you're going through. I hate not getting to see Carlos, and I miss him like crazy. But we promised them we wouldn't sit around and mope, so that's why I planned a girls day." She flashed her smile at me. If anyone could cheer me up, it was Sadie.
We started out with a mini shopping spree at the mall, then went and got our nails done, and finally ended up at the beach. We tried our hand at surfing, but still weren't any good despite the lessons Kendall had given me. We ended up in a game of beach volleyball on opposite teams, and I will admit that I had a blast. Volleyball was always my favorite sport in high school and it's always fun to get a chance to play.
By the time I got home, I was exhausted. I said goodbye to Sadie and dumped my bag on the table, looking for my journal. My phone dropped out and I noticed the screen was illuminated. Four missed calls, two texts, and a voicemail from Kendall. I looked at the time. Damnit, he had tried to call me before the show. I checked my message and called him back, even though I knew he wouldn't answer.
"Hey baby, it's me. Sorry I missed you, Sadie and I were having a girls day. I know you're on stage right now, and I hope you're having a good time. Don't worry, I plan on checking youtube to make sure you didn't break your neck. Anyway, call me whenever you can. I love you, Kendall."
I sat down at my computer and opened a wordpad. Since the boys were on tour and didn't start filming season 4 until January, the studio didn't really need my assistance. In the mean time, I had been writing; selling short stories and doing freelance photo journalism. Writing was another passion of mine in high school, and it was easy to write when Kendall wasn't here. I glanced back at the table and remembered I had homework. I had decided to take an online class just to pass the time when Kendall was gone.
I was halfway through my second short story when I heard my phone buzz. I smiled when I saw his picture pop up on my phone.
"Hello?"
A sigh of relief. "Hey, beautiful. I was worried you were ignoring me."
"I could never do that, I promise. Sadie and I spent the day together and I forgot that my phone was in my bag."
"Good, I'm glad you were able to get out for the day." He was breathing heavy. I could tell he had just gotten off the stage.
"Kendall, do you want to call me back after you catch your breath?"
He laughed. "No, I'm good. Besides, I've been breathless since the day I met you."
I couldn't help but smile. "Cheesy, but I'll take it."
"I found out some exciting news today."
"What's that?"
"They just released the final tour schedule. Guess what state fair we are playing in August."
I paused for a moment to think. Most of them were Mid to End July and the rest were in August, right before school started back up. It hit me like a freight train.
"Shut. Up."
"Bought you a plane ticket this morning."
"No way! You're playing the Iowa State Fair? Sweetie, that's amazing!" My mom and I talked everyday, but it wasn't the same. My family only lived a few hours from Des Moines which is where the fair is held.
"I figure maybe your parents and brother and sister could come up and spend the day."
"You are seriously the greatest person ever. I love you so much."
"I love you too, Soph. I'd do anything to make you happy." I could hear the other boys yelling for him in the background. "Hey, sweetie, I have to..."
"Go, I know. Just call me later if you can."
"I will. Promise. Love you."
"Love you too."
As soon as I hung up, my phone buzzed that I had a text. It was from Sadie.
They realize that 2 minutes is not enough. Right?
I don't know. Prob not. They're guys.
Oh right I forgot. Did Kendall tell you the news?
About the fair?
Yes! :D
Carlos already buy you a plane ticket home?
You know it
Best boyfriends ever!
I decided to lay down and started to read. I looked at the alarm clock on the nightstand. 325 hours before I got to see my boyfriend again. I'm going to die before that happens. I picked up my phone.
I miss you
I miss you too pretty girl.
Then come home!
Babe you know I can't.
Pretend to be sick?
Lol if only I could.
:(
Listen you should go see mom tomorrow. She came home today and said she really misses you and wants to see you. Maybe it will help keep your mind off me.
Oh I'm so sure that spending hours on end with the woman that gave birth to you won't make me miss you at all.
... I told her she could show you baby pictures.
You do love me!
You know I do. Can't skype tonight, check email for video :)
Will do. I'm so proud of you. Can't wait to see you
Can't wait to see you either
My mind wandered back to when I met Kendall. It felt like a lifetime ago; I didn't even feel like I was the same person. Truth be told, I was drowning in a sea of darkness and Kendall pulled me into the light. He saved my life. My mind then wandered to my exboyfriend, Charlie. He was great, until he started to beat me. When Kendall and I got together, Charlie became obsessed. I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with him, and that he needed to leave me alone. He started stalking me, even t-boned Kendall's car trying to get to me. He was now serving a seven year sentence for what he did.
I got out of bed and went back to my desk. I opened the lower drawer and pulled out the letters. There were five total, all unopened. I'd recognize that handwriting anywhere. How was I supposed to tell Kendall that Charlie had been writing me from prison?
I took a deep breath. 324 hours to go.
